Louie's POV:
I woke up alone.I checked the clock to see it was only three a.m.
Startled দ্বারা the absence of Amber,I sat up in bed.
Before my feet hit the floor,She walked in.
"Go back sleep,I'm coming laid down."
I rose my feet back on the বিছানা and scooted over.
She laid down on the বিছানা and laid পরবর্তি to me,she kissed me on the fore head then put her head down.
"Where'd did আপনি go?I was disappointed not to wake up পরবর্তি to you."
"I had went down stairs for a snack,but Niall was awake to.So we watched tv."she explained.
"Oh..okay."I ব্যক্ত then wrapping my arm around her waist.
When she ব্যক্ত she was with Niall is when my paranoia began.
Niall was best known for his relationships after Carter.
Through he was my friend and I loved him,I couldn't have him hanging around Amber.I didn't like having to be greedy,but I couldn't even imagine what it would be like seeing her with some one else.
Ambers POV:
I thought about the conversation I had with Niall and how it was the first time I had seen him smile.It was so wired and bit fishy,it turned on my curiosities.
I looked at Louie through,and found myself distracted from the other things in my head.His hair was swooped down and it looked as if a smile was on him as he slept.He had his bare arms around me since he forgot to put on a শার্ট earlier as usual.I wondered how I ended up with someone like him,it was like dream.Suddenly,my phone buzzed twice meaning I had a text,then it played a cute ringtone I had set for Drew.
I instantly grabbed the phone off the night stand,it was the first time I had heard from him in months.We cut off connection,soon after Anna and him broke up.Now im just a stranger to him,and he wouldnt leave my mind,it was every দিন i thought about him but let it go.I go to school and see him but I try not to stare,and i just walk away.
I clicked through to the text,it said: I need to speak with আপনি ASAP.And in person.
I looked at the text for a moment and gasped as I let the gears roll.I slammed my phone into the bed.
Louie woke and worried about me.
"What's wrong?"he asked sitting up and holding me.
"I can't tell you."I said.
"Of course আপনি can."he hugged me.
I nodded no and I continued to cry.
He held me tight and gave his sympathy.
On a rainy Monday morning,I left my apartment for school knowing my fate.
Louie kept asking me why I had cried that night,but he just didn't know at all.I had never told anyone about Drew and what had happen,it stayed between me,Anna,Drew,and Courtney(Anna's younger step)
On the school bus,I waited in the back of the bus with Courtney.
She was a real friend,trying to help me through it through she couldn't do anything.I didn't know why he wanted to talk to me,I thought we were doing pretty good at ignoring each other.
I tried to hold back my tears through as we arrive at the school.
I jumped off the bus to see that Drew was waiting for me.
It was sprinkling.He was leaning up against,his pick up truck in the middle of the parking lot with an umbrella up.
"Should I go?"I asked Courtney.
"Unless আপনি try,you'll never know."she whispered then left me.
The bus took off leaving me in the open.
I started to walk toward him,but there was a bulge in the concrete and I tripped on it making me fall on to the hard wet ground.
Great.
He ran over to me and grabbed my hand,I started to cry as I rose from the ground.
"Amber,are আপনি okay?"
Susprise,he knew my name.I pulled away from him,and glared at the ground.I could tell he was staring at me.
Suddenly I felt him touch my shoulder.
"Don't touch me!"I screamed.
He instantly pulled away.This moment couldn't possibly get worse,I thought till he ব্যক্ত something.
"Amber please..."
"Shut up!"I yelled looking him in the eye."Just who do আপনি think আপনি are!Who do আপনি think আপনি are thinking আপনি could just walk away from all your probelms,Like আপনি can magically say a few words and make it all better?"i rose my voice louder not caring if any one neard."That didnt stop the tears at night,that didn't stop the pain and make me fake a smile ror so long."I was now closer to him and in his face.
"If it was like that I would have changed a long time ago."I ব্যক্ত then stepping away from him starting to walk away.He grabbed my hand but I turned around and slapped him and started to run off.He chased me closer to the building.
"I know I can't change anything!Im so sorry for it,I was scared."he yelled.
How dare he raise his voice at me.
I turned around look and looked at him.
"You should be!"I yelled back.
"I couldnt bare it!Seeing আপনি that দিন on the street,I can remember my হৃদয় dropped and I have felt guilty ever since."he ব্যক্ত to me stepping closer."I'm leaving for the military in a week,and wanna spend it with you."he said.
It began to rain hard,on us.I didn't really care.
I stared at him for a while.
"Why?Why me out of 7 billion people.Me?Cause I have moved on,and I be damn if আপনি try and talk to talk to Anna."I ব্যক্ত in mumble.
"Because your all I have left,so please Amber."he ব্যক্ত and looking down.It took me a moment to realize he was crying.
Some how this touched me,it proved he did care.I walked down from the steps and out into the rain and hugged him.
"I was so stupid...."he sobbed as I hugged him.
He dropped the his keys on a টেবিল near the door when we walked in his apartment.
"So this is it.My place ever since my mom put me out the house."he walked in and sat on the couch.
It was a bit dark but I could tell it was pretty decent.
"Really?She put আপনি out?"
"Yea,so now it's just me and Abby."he said.
"A girlfriend?"
"No,I haven't dated ever since me and Anna broke up."he ব্যক্ত then going to the bedroom,I followed him.He bent down and opened a dog kennel allowing a dog out.
"This is Abby."he smiled as he petted her.
"Hey there."I giggled as she walked up to me.
"She's a golden retriever,I saved her from the streets,she's a secret through because the land lord doesnt allow dogs."
"Aww,That's to bad."I said.
"Yea I know."he ব্যক্ত then walking to the kitchen."Would আপনি like something to drink?"he asked.
"No thanks."I ব্যক্ত then walking to the living room having the dog follow me.I sat on the পালঙ্ক and petted the dog.
"Are আপনি sure,I have আঙ্গুর soda.Your favorite."
"No,I'm good."I told him.
I loved আঙ্গুর soda because it was so under estimated but I didn't want to bother him.I also had forgotten how well he knew me,and my feelings for him had no effect on me now.
"For one thing,When আপনি say no আপনি mean yes."
অথবা did it?
"You know me so well."I said.
"How couldn't I?"he chuckled and sat down পরবর্তি me handing me the soda.He turned on the TV and gave me the remote.
It felt like yesterday that I had fell in প্রণয় with him,but also felt as if it were ages ago.He change a lot in appearance,he grew a mustache and cut his hair,no longer he had wavey dreamy locks but a styled shorten version.If I hadn't known better,I'd say he were a stranger,and evidently I didn't know.
He was a stranger now.
"Were আপনি sad that আপনি had to cut your hair?"I asked.
"I almost cried."he put on a cheeky smile."I had to cut it for the military."
I didn't know what to think about him leaving.Would it be the same,Probably but I'd have that unfilled hole in my heart.I'd miss him.Before I knew it I was back in tears,Drew looked at me.
He got up went to the bathroom and returned with some tissue.
I took it from him and wiped my tears.He put his arm around me and hugged me tight.
"I'll miss you,Don't leave."I sniffed.
"I have to go it my duty."
When he ব্যক্ত that I began to laugh.
"What?"
"You ব্যক্ত duty."I snickered.
"You never changed,You always ruin the serious moment with a laugh."He smiled.He ব্যক্ত it like he liked that about me.
"ok...Should I try again?"
"It's pointless but okay."
"Sniff Sniff don't leave..."I joked.
"Bravo."he ব্যক্ত then playfully elbowing me.
I pushed him back.
"Stop.."I mumbled.
But he continue elbowing me,and poking me.I tried to ignore him but I couldn't bare it,I grabbed the বালিশ from behind me and stood up and whacked him with it.he complained but was quick for revenge,he grabbed the বালিশ from behind him and stroke me with it.
"So your going to hit a girl!"I complained.
"That never stopped আপনি from hitting me after calling me a girl!"he laughed the hitting me again with the pillow.
"You got me twice,No fair."
"Yes it is!"he ব্যক্ত as he scurried to his বিছানা room.
I chased him with the pillow,He hit me once through and angered me.I suddenly felt like I could be on dragon ball Z and gather all my strength into the pillow.I grunted as I swung the বালিশ at him.I hit him repeatly as he crouched down yelling his mercy.
"Okay okay!You win!"he yelled.
"Good then."I ব্যক্ত then sitting on the edge of the বিছানা to catch my breath.We were a bit tried from out mini বালিশ war,that gadly won.He got up from the floor,he unexpectedly picked me up.
"What!No,Put me down!"I yelled,I realized that he was going to slam me into the bed.He laughed so cunningly knowing that I hated to be picked up since I was so short.
"Don't আপনি dare."I told him as he walked toward the bed.
"To late."he ব্যক্ত then dropping me on the bed,but I had a grip on his neck causing him to land on শীর্ষ of me.
He grinned for some reason,As my smile froze.He was looking at me with a so cheeky grin,with his green eyes pierced on me.
Suddenly I heard him fart,My eyes opened wide as he laughed.I kicked him off the বিছানা as I gagged.But to my luck,Abby was there to lick him fully the face.
"Good dog,Abby."I ব্যক্ত witha smile.
She got off of Drew and jumped up on the bed,she sat on me.
"Abby knows who she loves."he ব্যক্ত as he stood to his feet.
She was a very fat dog,but also lovable.
"Ah!Abby!"I yelled as she licked the side of my face
He called Abby দ্বারা her name.
She jumped up off of me and went দ্বারা him.
He turned around and dug in his drawer.He gave me some clothes,They were girl pajamas.
"I just remembered I had these,althrough theyre Annas.It's better then আপনি muddy clothes."he ব্যক্ত handing me the clothes.
His attitude suddenly changed through,It was like he didn't want to get to close to me.I understood through,I was dating Louie.
He left and closed the door.Once again we were back to strangers when were having fun,but it didn't matter anymore.
I shimmed out of my clothes and into the others.I went into the kitchen,where he was sitting on a stool.By the way he sat,slunched over and eyes at the ground,I could tell he was frustrated.I took a deep breath in,knowing probably what he was thinking.It would take a lot of will if we ever wanted to be বন্ধু again.
"Amber..."he ব্যক্ত then looking at me,He stood up.
"What?Did I do something?"I murrmurred.
He shook his head no,He then walked up to me.
"No not at all,You always think,you did something when আপনি were the one who was treated badly."he was right through,I wasn't strong enough of a person to do to stand up for my self.
He paused for a minute,and took a breath out.
"Do আপনি remember eighth grade,and the night of the valentines dance?I had promised to take you..."
I remembered but I didn't want to think about it.
"No...What are আপনি talking about?"I ব্যক্ত softly.
He walked away from me,and started walking in circles.
"I know you,remember.Think!Its in the back of your mind.How I told আপনি I'd be there with আপনি but I wasn't."he spoke quickly,and he walked back up to me.He grabbed my hand placed his hand on my cheek,forcing me to look at him.
"Amber,I know you,inch দ্বারা inch.The way আপনি whisper when আপনি lie,the way আপনি snort when আপনি laugh loudly,the way আপনি smile with four dimples,the way আপনি would sacrifice yourself for someone like me."
"I remember that night."I whispered then allowing the years to stream.
"I don't know why it just took me so long to realize your feelings for me.And ever since that night,it's been in the back of my mind telling to say sorry,but I really can't breath with out you."
It was an old bad memory but it brought me down to my knees,when exposed.The flash back starts,I was in his arms like today,but I could hear screams.I felt cold,Freezing actaully.I was wet from my own blood.People watching staring as I doze off.Drew was crying as I laid my head on his shoulder.He whispered things in my ear,that now I couldn't remember.He kissed me as laid there dieing.I snapped back to the present as I realized he was pouring out his heart.
"I'm so sorry.."he ব্যক্ত trying to holding back his tears.
He wrapped his arms around me and held me.
"You don't know how long I've waited to hear that."i ব্যক্ত with my face muffled on his chest.
"And I wanna make it up to আপনি before I leave,because theres a possibility I won't come back.I need আপনি to for give me for everything."
"No,Don't say that,you have to come back."
I did know he was leaving for the military,but I couldn't bring myself to think if he was hurt.Which was better having him as a stranger অথবা him being gone?Or worse dead?
These প্রশ্ন were tricky I couldnt anwser them.
Always when I was with Louie,I was thinking of Drew.That was why it was so easy for me to fall in প্রণয় with Louie.Althrough he has no clue who I really was.He didn't know about Drew.He didn't know about the tears and blood shed.He didn't know anything,and I didnt plan on him finding out but....
I woke up alone.I checked the clock to see it was only three a.m.
Startled দ্বারা the absence of Amber,I sat up in bed.
Before my feet hit the floor,She walked in.
"Go back sleep,I'm coming laid down."
I rose my feet back on the বিছানা and scooted over.
She laid down on the বিছানা and laid পরবর্তি to me,she kissed me on the fore head then put her head down.
"Where'd did আপনি go?I was disappointed not to wake up পরবর্তি to you."
"I had went down stairs for a snack,but Niall was awake to.So we watched tv."she explained.
"Oh..okay."I ব্যক্ত then wrapping my arm around her waist.
When she ব্যক্ত she was with Niall is when my paranoia began.
Niall was best known for his relationships after Carter.
Through he was my friend and I loved him,I couldn't have him hanging around Amber.I didn't like having to be greedy,but I couldn't even imagine what it would be like seeing her with some one else.
Ambers POV:
I thought about the conversation I had with Niall and how it was the first time I had seen him smile.It was so wired and bit fishy,it turned on my curiosities.
I looked at Louie through,and found myself distracted from the other things in my head.His hair was swooped down and it looked as if a smile was on him as he slept.He had his bare arms around me since he forgot to put on a শার্ট earlier as usual.I wondered how I ended up with someone like him,it was like dream.Suddenly,my phone buzzed twice meaning I had a text,then it played a cute ringtone I had set for Drew.
I instantly grabbed the phone off the night stand,it was the first time I had heard from him in months.We cut off connection,soon after Anna and him broke up.Now im just a stranger to him,and he wouldnt leave my mind,it was every দিন i thought about him but let it go.I go to school and see him but I try not to stare,and i just walk away.
I clicked through to the text,it said: I need to speak with আপনি ASAP.And in person.
I looked at the text for a moment and gasped as I let the gears roll.I slammed my phone into the bed.
Louie woke and worried about me.
"What's wrong?"he asked sitting up and holding me.
"I can't tell you."I said.
"Of course আপনি can."he hugged me.
I nodded no and I continued to cry.
He held me tight and gave his sympathy.
On a rainy Monday morning,I left my apartment for school knowing my fate.
Louie kept asking me why I had cried that night,but he just didn't know at all.I had never told anyone about Drew and what had happen,it stayed between me,Anna,Drew,and Courtney(Anna's younger step)
On the school bus,I waited in the back of the bus with Courtney.
She was a real friend,trying to help me through it through she couldn't do anything.I didn't know why he wanted to talk to me,I thought we were doing pretty good at ignoring each other.
I tried to hold back my tears through as we arrive at the school.
I jumped off the bus to see that Drew was waiting for me.
It was sprinkling.He was leaning up against,his pick up truck in the middle of the parking lot with an umbrella up.
"Should I go?"I asked Courtney.
"Unless আপনি try,you'll never know."she whispered then left me.
The bus took off leaving me in the open.
I started to walk toward him,but there was a bulge in the concrete and I tripped on it making me fall on to the hard wet ground.
Great.
He ran over to me and grabbed my hand,I started to cry as I rose from the ground.
"Amber,are আপনি okay?"
Susprise,he knew my name.I pulled away from him,and glared at the ground.I could tell he was staring at me.
Suddenly I felt him touch my shoulder.
"Don't touch me!"I screamed.
He instantly pulled away.This moment couldn't possibly get worse,I thought till he ব্যক্ত something.
"Amber please..."
"Shut up!"I yelled looking him in the eye."Just who do আপনি think আপনি are!Who do আপনি think আপনি are thinking আপনি could just walk away from all your probelms,Like আপনি can magically say a few words and make it all better?"i rose my voice louder not caring if any one neard."That didnt stop the tears at night,that didn't stop the pain and make me fake a smile ror so long."I was now closer to him and in his face.
"If it was like that I would have changed a long time ago."I ব্যক্ত then stepping away from him starting to walk away.He grabbed my hand but I turned around and slapped him and started to run off.He chased me closer to the building.
"I know I can't change anything!Im so sorry for it,I was scared."he yelled.
How dare he raise his voice at me.
I turned around look and looked at him.
"You should be!"I yelled back.
"I couldnt bare it!Seeing আপনি that দিন on the street,I can remember my হৃদয় dropped and I have felt guilty ever since."he ব্যক্ত to me stepping closer."I'm leaving for the military in a week,and wanna spend it with you."he said.
It began to rain hard,on us.I didn't really care.
I stared at him for a while.
"Why?Why me out of 7 billion people.Me?Cause I have moved on,and I be damn if আপনি try and talk to talk to Anna."I ব্যক্ত in mumble.
"Because your all I have left,so please Amber."he ব্যক্ত and looking down.It took me a moment to realize he was crying.
Some how this touched me,it proved he did care.I walked down from the steps and out into the rain and hugged him.
"I was so stupid...."he sobbed as I hugged him.
He dropped the his keys on a টেবিল near the door when we walked in his apartment.
"So this is it.My place ever since my mom put me out the house."he walked in and sat on the couch.
It was a bit dark but I could tell it was pretty decent.
"Really?She put আপনি out?"
"Yea,so now it's just me and Abby."he said.
"A girlfriend?"
"No,I haven't dated ever since me and Anna broke up."he ব্যক্ত then going to the bedroom,I followed him.He bent down and opened a dog kennel allowing a dog out.
"This is Abby."he smiled as he petted her.
"Hey there."I giggled as she walked up to me.
"She's a golden retriever,I saved her from the streets,she's a secret through because the land lord doesnt allow dogs."
"Aww,That's to bad."I said.
"Yea I know."he ব্যক্ত then walking to the kitchen."Would আপনি like something to drink?"he asked.
"No thanks."I ব্যক্ত then walking to the living room having the dog follow me.I sat on the পালঙ্ক and petted the dog.
"Are আপনি sure,I have আঙ্গুর soda.Your favorite."
"No,I'm good."I told him.
I loved আঙ্গুর soda because it was so under estimated but I didn't want to bother him.I also had forgotten how well he knew me,and my feelings for him had no effect on me now.
"For one thing,When আপনি say no আপনি mean yes."
অথবা did it?
"You know me so well."I said.
"How couldn't I?"he chuckled and sat down পরবর্তি me handing me the soda.He turned on the TV and gave me the remote.
It felt like yesterday that I had fell in প্রণয় with him,but also felt as if it were ages ago.He change a lot in appearance,he grew a mustache and cut his hair,no longer he had wavey dreamy locks but a styled shorten version.If I hadn't known better,I'd say he were a stranger,and evidently I didn't know.
He was a stranger now.
"Were আপনি sad that আপনি had to cut your hair?"I asked.
"I almost cried."he put on a cheeky smile."I had to cut it for the military."
I didn't know what to think about him leaving.Would it be the same,Probably but I'd have that unfilled hole in my heart.I'd miss him.Before I knew it I was back in tears,Drew looked at me.
He got up went to the bathroom and returned with some tissue.
I took it from him and wiped my tears.He put his arm around me and hugged me tight.
"I'll miss you,Don't leave."I sniffed.
"I have to go it my duty."
When he ব্যক্ত that I began to laugh.
"What?"
"You ব্যক্ত duty."I snickered.
"You never changed,You always ruin the serious moment with a laugh."He smiled.He ব্যক্ত it like he liked that about me.
"ok...Should I try again?"
"It's pointless but okay."
"Sniff Sniff don't leave..."I joked.
"Bravo."he ব্যক্ত then playfully elbowing me.
I pushed him back.
"Stop.."I mumbled.
But he continue elbowing me,and poking me.I tried to ignore him but I couldn't bare it,I grabbed the বালিশ from behind me and stood up and whacked him with it.he complained but was quick for revenge,he grabbed the বালিশ from behind him and stroke me with it.
"So your going to hit a girl!"I complained.
"That never stopped আপনি from hitting me after calling me a girl!"he laughed the hitting me again with the pillow.
"You got me twice,No fair."
"Yes it is!"he ব্যক্ত as he scurried to his বিছানা room.
I chased him with the pillow,He hit me once through and angered me.I suddenly felt like I could be on dragon ball Z and gather all my strength into the pillow.I grunted as I swung the বালিশ at him.I hit him repeatly as he crouched down yelling his mercy.
"Okay okay!You win!"he yelled.
"Good then."I ব্যক্ত then sitting on the edge of the বিছানা to catch my breath.We were a bit tried from out mini বালিশ war,that gadly won.He got up from the floor,he unexpectedly picked me up.
"What!No,Put me down!"I yelled,I realized that he was going to slam me into the bed.He laughed so cunningly knowing that I hated to be picked up since I was so short.
"Don't আপনি dare."I told him as he walked toward the bed.
"To late."he ব্যক্ত then dropping me on the bed,but I had a grip on his neck causing him to land on শীর্ষ of me.
He grinned for some reason,As my smile froze.He was looking at me with a so cheeky grin,with his green eyes pierced on me.
Suddenly I heard him fart,My eyes opened wide as he laughed.I kicked him off the বিছানা as I gagged.But to my luck,Abby was there to lick him fully the face.
"Good dog,Abby."I ব্যক্ত witha smile.
She got off of Drew and jumped up on the bed,she sat on me.
"Abby knows who she loves."he ব্যক্ত as he stood to his feet.
She was a very fat dog,but also lovable.
"Ah!Abby!"I yelled as she licked the side of my face
He called Abby দ্বারা her name.
She jumped up off of me and went দ্বারা him.
He turned around and dug in his drawer.He gave me some clothes,They were girl pajamas.
"I just remembered I had these,althrough theyre Annas.It's better then আপনি muddy clothes."he ব্যক্ত handing me the clothes.
His attitude suddenly changed through,It was like he didn't want to get to close to me.I understood through,I was dating Louie.
He left and closed the door.Once again we were back to strangers when were having fun,but it didn't matter anymore.
I shimmed out of my clothes and into the others.I went into the kitchen,where he was sitting on a stool.By the way he sat,slunched over and eyes at the ground,I could tell he was frustrated.I took a deep breath in,knowing probably what he was thinking.It would take a lot of will if we ever wanted to be বন্ধু again.
"Amber..."he ব্যক্ত then looking at me,He stood up.
"What?Did I do something?"I murrmurred.
He shook his head no,He then walked up to me.
"No not at all,You always think,you did something when আপনি were the one who was treated badly."he was right through,I wasn't strong enough of a person to do to stand up for my self.
He paused for a minute,and took a breath out.
"Do আপনি remember eighth grade,and the night of the valentines dance?I had promised to take you..."
I remembered but I didn't want to think about it.
"No...What are আপনি talking about?"I ব্যক্ত softly.
He walked away from me,and started walking in circles.
"I know you,remember.Think!Its in the back of your mind.How I told আপনি I'd be there with আপনি but I wasn't."he spoke quickly,and he walked back up to me.He grabbed my hand placed his hand on my cheek,forcing me to look at him.
"Amber,I know you,inch দ্বারা inch.The way আপনি whisper when আপনি lie,the way আপনি snort when আপনি laugh loudly,the way আপনি smile with four dimples,the way আপনি would sacrifice yourself for someone like me."
"I remember that night."I whispered then allowing the years to stream.
"I don't know why it just took me so long to realize your feelings for me.And ever since that night,it's been in the back of my mind telling to say sorry,but I really can't breath with out you."
It was an old bad memory but it brought me down to my knees,when exposed.The flash back starts,I was in his arms like today,but I could hear screams.I felt cold,Freezing actaully.I was wet from my own blood.People watching staring as I doze off.Drew was crying as I laid my head on his shoulder.He whispered things in my ear,that now I couldn't remember.He kissed me as laid there dieing.I snapped back to the present as I realized he was pouring out his heart.
"I'm so sorry.."he ব্যক্ত trying to holding back his tears.
He wrapped his arms around me and held me.
"You don't know how long I've waited to hear that."i ব্যক্ত with my face muffled on his chest.
"And I wanna make it up to আপনি before I leave,because theres a possibility I won't come back.I need আপনি to for give me for everything."
"No,Don't say that,you have to come back."
I did know he was leaving for the military,but I couldn't bring myself to think if he was hurt.Which was better having him as a stranger অথবা him being gone?Or worse dead?
These প্রশ্ন were tricky I couldnt anwser them.
Always when I was with Louie,I was thinking of Drew.That was why it was so easy for me to fall in প্রণয় with Louie.Althrough he has no clue who I really was.He didn't know about Drew.He didn't know about the tears and blood shed.He didn't know anything,and I didnt plan on him finding out but....
