Peaceandlove67 Article: Finding a Way to Cope Part 1

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posted by Peaceandlove67

Jim and I were two kids growing up in the foothills of North Carolina. We were the best of friends. We did everything together. We even had numerous inside jokes. We very seldom disagreed. When we did, it was always over something stupid. In the end, we would always make up and laugh about how ridiculous we were. Jim and I loved each other in a way that only best বন্ধু could. We even had the same birthday. We never thought that we would ever separate, but one day, we did. One day, when we were only twelve, we were riding the bus to go home. Suddenly, the bus slipped on a patch of ice. The পরবর্তি thing I knew, I received a hit to the head, and everything went dark. When I woke up, I looked over at Jim. "Aubrey," he murmured faintly, "are আপনি okay?" I said, "I'm fine. Are আপনি okay?" He said, "I don't think so. I'm in pain here." After a pause he said, "I want to tell আপনি one last thing." I said, "Jim, please don't talk like that. You're going to be okay." He said, "Aubrey, you're the best friend I ever had." All I could do was watch as his life ebbed away. I held my lifeless friend in my arms. I wept like I never wept before. As for me, I had a mild concussion, but it was nothing compared to the pain of losing my best friend. It felt as if a part of me had died. I told my mother, "It's not fair. You're not supposed to lose your best friend at my age." She hugged me and said, "I know, dear. Life isn't fair." I said, "I miss him." She said, "I know আপনি do. I think that Jim would want আপনি to be happy. I'm not saying আপনি can't miss him. I'm not saying don't cry over him. I'm saying that Jim wouldn't want আপনি to be so depressed আপনি can't enjoy life." I found those words comforting, but there were so many things I would have liked to tell Jim, but I never got to tell him. As a result, I slipped into a depression.

TO BE CONTINUED

RetroRock64, ChiliPepperLuv and 1 other like this

80smusiclover1 I feel really bad for Aubrey. Anyways, this is looking quite good so far.

Rubyrings I feel really sad for her, too. That was very touching, and it's still the first chapter. Jim's last words were so sweet and so heartbreaking at the same time.

ChiliPepperLuv Yes, I came close to crying. Poor Aubrey. I know what it's like to lose a best friend. My best friend didn't die, but we went our separate ways after high school. I miss her sometimes.

RetroRock64 This is the saddest thing I've ever read. I feel like crying now.

Peaceandlove67 I shed a couple of tears when I typed this up.

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Eight

posted by Peaceandlove67

One day, I was walking in the forest with Allie and Paul. As we were walking, I saw a truck. I said, "Quick! Hide in the bushes!" Allie said, "What? Why?" I said, "I'll explain later." We hid in the bushes until there was no sign of the truck. Paul asked, "Why were we hiding? Who was that?" I said, "My grandfather." Allie said, "Oh..." I said, "I haven't seen him in so long. I'm afraid he'll beat me again." Allie said, "I see." I said, "And আপনি know what he did to Barry and to my father. I don't want him to do the same thing to আপনি two." Paul said, "Erin..." I said, "I প্রণয় আপনি too much to...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Seven

posted by Peaceandlove67

One day, I woke up thinking it was a Saturday. I went back to sleep, but my aunt woke me up. She said, "Erin, it's time to get up." I asked, "Why do I need to get up so early on a Saturday?" She said, "You're a দিন off. It's Friday, dear." I groaned. She said, "Come on, Erin. It's not that bad." I said, "I don't have any friends. It's not worth it." She said, "Maybe today will be your lucky day." That gave me the strength to get out of bed. Later in gym class, I was bullied again. I pretended that I needed to use the restroom so that I could cry. I hid in the stall and cried. A few moments...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Six

posted by Peaceandlove67

After losing my best friend, Barry, I slipped into a depression. My grandparents refused to see me. My less consistent বন্ধু turned their backs on me. The only ones there for me were my aunt and uncle, my brother, Daniel, and my cousin, Barbara Ann. I had very little, if any, self-confidence. I didn't even try to confront Grandpa again, fearing he would beat me again. The only thing that brought me any happiness was music. I still enjoyed the Beatles above all others, but I liked to explore different bands as well. I overheard someone talking about a metal band called System of a Down, so...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Five

posted by Peaceandlove67

A few months passed, and I was still suspicious of Grandpa. He continued to give out hints that he probably murdered my father when I was really young. Grandma never spoke to me, unless I spoke to her. When I asked her about my father, she dodged the প্রশ্ন and changed the subject. Either she was involved, অথবা she was trying to protect Grandpa. One cold December day, I was walking in the forest with my dog. I suddenly heard someone faintly say my name. I looked over and saw Barry. He was lying in the snow, shivering. I said, "Oh, my God! Barry! What happened?!" He ব্যক্ত weakly, "I was walking...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Four

posted by Peaceandlove67

Despite the fact that I no longer had Christian faith, I still went to church to amuse my grandparents. I said, "I don't believe in their ways anymore." My aunt said, "I know, Erin. This is to amuse Grandma and Grandpa. It makes them happy." I said, "All right, but here's a warning. Someday, I'm going to get tired of smiling and nodding." One day, I did. Because of my opinionated উত্তর to Grandma's প্রশ্ন in Sunday School, I got kicked out of Sunday School. When Grandpa found out, I knew I was in trouble. After lunch that Sunday, Grandpa ব্যক্ত to me, "Let's go outside." That never meant...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Three

posted by Peaceandlove67

Ever since I had হারিয়ে গেছে my mother, সঙ্গীত helped me cope. I didn't have very many বন্ধু at school. I got bullied a lot, and আরো so after my mother's death. The only consistent friend I had was my best friend, Barry. He was there for me during the funeral and everything. One day, he said, "Well, it's been two months, hasn't it?" I said, "Yeah." He said, "I know it's been painful and difficult for you." I said, "Yeah, I miss my mother very much, but I'm doing okay." He said, "I can't imagine what that's like, but if আপনি need to talk, I'm here." I said, "Thanks, Barry." Even my বন্ধু in Sunday...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part Two

posted by Peaceandlove67

One day, I noticed that my mother wasn't অভিনয় right. She was very pale and seemed lethargic. She also had a terrible cough. She went to the doctor and was diagnosed with pneumonia. She was later put in the hospital. The doctor ব্যক্ত that things weren't looking good. It wasn't pneumonia; it was much worse. It was myocarditis. Suddenly, it happened. Her হৃদয় stopped beating. The doctor tried to revive her, but to no avail. I still remember the chilling words like they were ব্যক্ত yesterday: "Time of death: 11:32 pm." I did not want to believe I had হারিয়ে গেছে my mother. At first, I blamed the doctor...

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সঙ্গীত Gave Me New Faith Part One

posted by Peaceandlove67

"God is a concept দ্বারা which we measure our pain." I didn't always know অথবা agree with this lyric from John Lennon's song, "God". However, I came to that point দ্বারা the time I was twenty years old. I am one of the dissenters in the Bible Belt, but I wasn't always a, I guess আপনি could say, rebel. When I was much younger, things were different, but seeing hypocrisy and hatred from Christians and unfortunate circumstances in my life changed everything. This is my story. I was born in 1996. Growing up in the Bible Belt, I was raised a Christian, particularly, a Baptist. I grew up without a father, but...

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Final Part

posted by Peaceandlove67

I was beginning to lose hope in the idea of finding a friend. One day, something amazing happened. I saw that I was getting new neighbors. I saw a kid there who appeared to be around my age. I decided to go over and talk to him. I said, "Hi, I'm Winter. It's nice to meet you." He said, "Hi, Winter. I'm George. It's nice to meet you, too." I noticed he had a bit of an accent. I said, "That's a nice accent আপনি have there." He said, "Thank you. I'm from Liverpool, England." I said, "Like the Beatles?!" He said, "Yes." Another Beatles fan! I knew we would get along! I talked with him for a little...

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Five

posted by Peaceandlove67

I was always told that the সেকেন্ড দিন of school is never as bad as the first. It's true. My সেকেন্ড দিন of school wasn't as bad as the first. It was worse. One of the bullies poured some water on the floor just to watch me fall. I wasn't hurt, not physically anyway. What did I do to deserve that? I don't know. When I was walking to the bus, some of the other kids threw rocks at me. It really hurt. I came প্রথমপাতা crying. I had some cuts and bruises, but I was okay physically. Emotionally, I was the opposite. My aunt said, "Winter, try to see the good side. You're not hurt too badly. I'm sure you'll...

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Four

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Moving to Tennessee was bittersweet for me. I was closer to family members, but it was also a big adjustment. I lived in Illinois for the first twelve years of my life. When I started school, I tried to make some friends. A group of kids invited me to sit with them during lunch. "Hooray! New friends!" I thought to myself. I introduced myself. I talked about being from Illinois. To my surprise, they did not make fun of my accent. One of them explained, "You have that there Midwestern accent. It's the accent that doesn't offend nobody. That's why most of them newscasters are Midwestern." I said,...

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Three

posted by Peaceandlove67

When I had entered the fifth grade, I was dreading it. I had heard rumors that the teacher was really mean. When I met her before school started, she seemed really nice. On the first দিন of school, I was wearing one of my Beatles t-shirts. She noticed it, and she said, "Darling, I প্রণয় আপনি already!" I said, "Okay, then." She would take up for me all the time. The other kids often called me glasses. She heard them and said, "She has a name, guys. Her name is not glasses. It's Winter." There was one দিন when another girl kept picking on me. I finally had enough and said, "I might look sweet and innocent, but that shit is for suckers, and I'm no lollipop." I looked at the teacher. She winked and said, "I heard nothing." I would have had her for the sixth grade, too, but unfortunately, I moved to Tennessee as soon as the school বছর was over. We both cried. We promised to keep in touch with each other, and we've kept in touch to this day.

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part Two

posted by Peaceandlove67

When I got a little older, the mean nicknames started to fly. In the third grade, I got called chicken legs a lot. I don't know why. Chickens don't have long legs like mine, the last time I checked. Every time I'd walk through the hallways, someone would shout, "There goes chicken legs." I would remind them, "My name is not chicken legs. It's Winter." দ্বারা the time spring came, I was so tired of being called chicken legs. One day, one of my classmates said, "Hey, chicken legs!" I said, "That's better than what আপনি are." He said, "Oh, really? What am I?" I said, "You're a horse's ass." He didn't...

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The Cold and Warmth of Winter Part One

posted by Peaceandlove67

I was once asked, "If আপনি could compare yourself to a literary character, who do আপনি think you'd be?" I ব্যক্ত that I see myself as the Ugly Duckling. I started out as a complete outcast, and I blossomed into a beautiful swan. This is a metaphor, of course. This is how my story goes. I was raised দ্বারা my aunt and uncle. I never really knew my parents, as I হারিয়ে গেছে them at a young age. I was lucky that they took me in. If not for them, I would have been dumped in a orphanage. I knew that they loved me, but getting everyone else to like me was harder. The other kids picked on me all the time. I don't...

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Grace's Diary Final Chapter

posted by Peaceandlove67

May 18, 2012
Today was the last full দিন of school. We had our annual awards ceremony today. Some of my বন্ধু got awards for highest average in certain subjects. I didn't expect to get one. I wouldn't have minded if I didn't. But I did! I got the Model Citizen Award. Apparently, many of my fellow students ব্যক্ত some good things about me. After school, I told John about it. He wanted to come, but he was out of town preparing for a সঙ্গীতানুষ্ঠান with his band. He said, "I'm happy for you, Grace! আপনি deserve it." I said, "Really?" He said, "Yes, really. When I picked আপনি up from school, I met some of...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XX

posted by Peaceandlove67

April 6, 2012
Today was Good Friday. We got a দিন off from school. I was walking down the রাস্তা with John, and I saw Kimberly, the girl who betrayed me. I kept my head down, hoping she wouldn't notice me, but she did. She said, "Hey, Grace!" I said, "Hey, Judas!" John said, "Oh, so, that's the girl who stabbed আপনি in the back." I nodded. She said, "You're not still sore at me, are you, Grace?" I said, "I forgive, but I never forget." Suddenly, John stuck it to her. He said, "How dare আপনি do this thing to Grace! She had been nothing but nice to her, and আপনি took her হৃদয় and ripped it into...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XIX

posted by Peaceandlove67

March 12, 2012
I'm all better now. I can speak clearly. I am caught up with my school work. I talked with John today. He said, "I'm glad you're feeling better. I'm actually sick myself." I said, "Oh, no! What's wrong?" He said, "It's just a cold. I'm sure I'll be fine in a few days." I said, "I hope আপনি feel better." He said, "Thank you. The worst part is not being able to go to the recording studio with my mates. I hate that I can't do that. They told me that they won't go if I don't. I said, 'No, it's fine. I'll introduce my songs when I come back.' Allen said, 'Take care of yourself, John....

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVIII

posted by Peaceandlove67

March 11, 2012
I am sick again. This time, I have laryngitis. I cannot talk at all. I can only communicate through text messages. John came দ্বারা the house. My aunt told him that I was sick. He came into my bedroom. I was excited to see him, and I tried to talk with him, but I couldn't get any words out. He said, "You don't have to talk, Grace. Just listen." I sat up. He said, "I brought আপনি a little present." He reached in his bag and handed me a teddy bear. He said, "My grandmother made if for me when I was five years old." I texted, "John, I can't take this. It's something your grandmother made...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVII

posted by Peaceandlove67

March 7, 2012
I am so happy that our house has been rebuilt. We settled in just a few weeks ago. Things have been crazy, which explains why I haven't written anything in a while. They've calmed down, thankfully. I am thirteen now. Today was my thirteenth birthday. It was so much better than my twelfth birthday. There was really only one bad part about my birthday. I was browsing the Internet, and I read that Peter from The Devil Wants Peace was in a car crash. I called John to see if it was true অথবা if it was just a nasty rumor. I said, "John, I read that Peter was in a car crash. Is it true?"...

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Grace's Diary Chapter XVI

posted by Peaceandlove67

January 10, 2012
We are now in a new year. School started again today. My schoolmates have been flocking to me, asking me প্রশ্ন about losing my প্রথমপাতা in a fire. It became a game of a thousand questions. The one প্রশ্ন that most of them didn't ask: Are আপনি okay? I became fed up with it. Michael later found me sitting in the lunchroom alone. He said, "Hey. Are আপনি okay?" I said, "You know, you're the only the third person to ask me that." He said, "Really?" I said, "Yeah. I had to get away from all the questions. It was a terrifying experience." He said, "I can imagine. আপনি got burnt pretty...