The পরবর্তি day, Was the new time for the appointment, so me and roc got ready and left for the surgery

At the surgery,I sat down on a chair and started to fiddle with my fingers,From time to time I would take a glimpse at the door to see if Princeton would run through those doors and sit beside me and tell me everything's ok
Me:He's not coming is he?
Roc:There's still time
And just as he ব্যক্ত that my name was called in over the system,Roc took my hand and we walked into the room
Me:Im scared Roc
Roc: I know but আপনি have to be strong for yourself, this is probably the best option, your still young
Suddenly the door bursted open,And he ran straight up to me
???:Leah what is going on?
Me:Please josh don't tell mum and dad I -I just want to get this over and done with...
Josh:Why didn't আপনি tell me to come with you?
Me:I-I-I just I dont know,I was scared
Josh: Leah im always here for আপনি no matter what,Yeah I know we haven't been spending as much time together as we used to but আপনি know I still প্রণয় আপনি and I would kill for you, but I think আপনি know that already *laughing*
Me: *giggling* I প্রণয় you,You know your the best brother ever right
Josh:Yes I know…but now that im here im staying
Me:Thank you

I started having my abortion pills and I went প্রথমপাতা with josh and roc and just slept peacefully

Josh:Where's that afro boy that shes madly in প্রণয় with
Roc:Um well I dont no
Josh:What do আপনি mean আপনি dont know, why isnt he here with Leah instead of you
Roc: um im gonna go check on Leah
Josh: খড় dont Change the subject
Roc:Bye
Roc walked into my bedroom and sat beside me on my bed,and started stroking my hair
My eyes gently opened and I yawned and stretched to wake up
Roc: Morning sleeping beauty
Me: *giggling* hhmm খড় what time is it
Roc: 4:00
Me:In the morning well im going to sleep then
Roc:No 4:00 in the afternoon
Me:O god im gonna be late I nearly forgot!
Roc:About what!
Me:I have a kickboxing lesson today
Roc:No আপনি need to rest আপনি can go পরবর্তি week not today
Me:Fine
Me and roc went downstairs to find Josh on the floor crying with all the খাবার on the floor beside him and the phone
Me:Josh whats happened
I sped up and ran down the stairs and grabbed his hands
Josh: THEIR GONE, THEIR DEAD!!!!
Me:I took a deep breath and braced myself "Who's dead"
Josh:MUM AND DAD
I stood their in silence and just waited for something to happen
Me:NO NO NOOOOOOOO THEY CANT BE DEAD HOW DO আপনি KNOW? THIS CANT BE RIGHT!
Josh:They were flying back to suprise us and their was a terrorist bomb on their plane
Roc could see I was getting extremely mad and upset
Roc:Leah dont, just calm down and breath
I went to josh and hugged him whilst crying my eyes out
Roc:I think I should leave আপনি two for a while
Me: No please stay I need you
Roc pulled আপনি up from the floor near your brother and dragged আপনি to the other room
Me: This cant be happening,What are we gonna do without them? How will we survive
Roc:Well their always on holiday so...
Me:No No THERE NOT ON HOLIDAY THOUGH ARE THEY THEY ARE DEAD AND AND
I grabbed on to rocs শার্ট and pulled him closer to me and rested my head on his chest once again and carried on crying my eyes out
After about 10 minutes
Roc:Leah stop আপনি are Strong dont আপনি dare go through break down mode again, I wont let that happen not again
I walked over to josh and pulled his knees away from his face to find his eyes all puffy and red and he had a runny nose and his nose and cheek were all red and full of tears
Josh:Leah stop I dont want to go anywhere
Me:Come now we cant do this we have to be strong,We will not be broken again...
Josh:Can আপনি please just leave me alone Leah
Me:No Cmon
Josh:JUST FUCK OFF আপনি STUPID LITTLE BITCH!!!!!
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