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sapiencia said:
I know this is going to upset some Lily অনুরাগী -- it's not that I hate her; teenagers are complex, they make a lot of stupid mistakes. (Although I'm verrryy close to hating her. Makes me so mad. She needs to learn some forgiveness.) I have a really hard time understanding her choice. I don't believe James ever "changed." The way Sirius acts around Snape (and otherwise) hints at that, in my opinion. If I try very hard to step into her shoes and try and forget about my hatred for James, I still have a difficult time figuring her out. Lily is a confusing, fickle person. I think that her loss of friendship with Severus hurt her deeply. He was her best and only friend since she was a little girl. He introduced her into the world of magic, he changed her life. Lily is also very stubborn. I think she was determined not to let Severus off so easily, to make him pay for what he did. But it didn't work. He thought it was too late. A silly childhood grudge gone awry. Perhaps, even while she hated James, she started hanging out with him just to spite Snape, to make him jealous, because she knew they hated each other. As she spent আরো and আরো time with him, he began to grow on her. Maybe she, in her desperation for a friend, অথবা pain and longing for Severus, she began to overlook James' weak points. Perhaps, being a young, easily lovesick teenager, she saw James' sense of adventure, his leadership among his peers, his reckless, "devil-may-care" nature as attractive, as so many young girls have done before, and simply developed a wild crush on him. অথবা perhaps she just changed her mind. I can't stand the man, but maybe they both just had a change of heart. Or, stepping back into my own shoes, they were both arrogant fools and were just made for one another. I prefer to believe that she sought him out in her pain. She probably tried to force herself into forgetting about Severus, and in thus, blindly fell for James. I'm not saying that she didn't really প্রণয় Potter, because I'm sure he must have grown on her after a while, but I don't think it started out that way. She reached out for him to deafen herself to Snape, because she really didn't want their friendship to end, but she believed it had to.
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