Watching these guys mess around in the studio makes me glad that i'm apart of their world. I'm apart of Syn's world.
Throughout the whole day, i've been sitting পরবর্তি Zacky as we both typed away on our laptops. Shadows was in the booth and Syn was over at the soundboard with his guitar. Being apart of Syn's life has changed everything for me.
I never knew that my life could be this perfect. As Zacky played on his laptop, i continued to write out my short stories. Whenever he hear me type so fast, he'll look over and read what i typed. Sometimes i let him. And sometimes i don't.
One day, the band was recording "A Little Piece of Heaven". Synyster was plucking along as i averted my eyes from my laptop screen to his plucking and back. He looked over at me and winked at me. I winked back and continued লেখা how i felt when i feel hurt and how i wanted to end my misery.
My cell was ringing as i finished the last sentence. I excused myself, placed the laptop on the টেবিল and walked outside. Zacky and the Rev walked দ্বারা my laptop and noticed my story.
"Hey Syn." ব্যক্ত Zacky as he sat down in front of my laptop.
"Yeah?" ব্যক্ত Synyster.
"You need to come here." ব্যক্ত the Rev. "Its something Sam wrote on here." Syn walked over and sat পরবর্তি to them.
"What is it?" asked Synyster. His হৃদয় dropped as he read the first sentence.
"I don't know. But, whatever it is. it's pretty gruesome." ব্যক্ত Zacky as they continued reading.
A few মিনিট later, i come back inside the studio and find the guys crowded around my laptop.
"What are আপনি guys doing?" i asked. My হৃদয় sank when Syn looked up at me with pain in his eyes. He got up and walked outside. I looked over at Zacky and the Rev. "What's wrong with Syn?"
"Um...sit down, Sam. There's something we need to talk about" ব্যক্ত Zacky. I walked over and sat on the পালঙ্ক facing him.
"What is it?" i asked.
"While আপনি were outside, the Rev and I noticed your laptop. And as we were sitting down, we read this story. it was about আপনি trying to end your life and how আপনি didn't want to live anymore. It really got to Synyster." ব্যক্ত Zacky. My হৃদয় was breaking when i heard this.
"What did he say?" i asked.
"Nothing. He just kept reading. Sam, he almost cried because he thinks আপনি want to kill yourself because of us." ব্যক্ত Zacky. That wasn't even true. It was never because of Avenged Sevenfold. It wasn't.
"No. no. it wasn't about আপনি guys. I wrote those stories when i was in high school. I wanted a new way to get rid of my pain. I got to go talk to Syn." I ব্যক্ত as i jumped from the পালঙ্ক and ran for the door.
As the bright light of the outside hit me, i felt a sharp pain in my heart. I looked all over outside for Synyster. I kept calling his name but he never answered. My hand clenched my হৃদয় as i started to fall back and i never hit the ground. it was like i was floating for some reason.
I looked up and saw Syn standing above me as he stopped my fall. I got to my feet and faced him.
"Synyster, i didn't write those stories because of আপনি and the guys. i wrote those stories because of the pain i was feeling during high school." i ব্যক্ত as i tried to fight back the tears trying to flow.
"Why would আপনি write those things, though? I don't want আপনি ending your life on my account. I care about আপনি so much, Samantha." ব্যক্ত Syn as he took my hands in his own and looked in my eyes.
"I would never take my own life. I don't want to be without you, Synyster." i ব্যক্ত as a single tear fell on my cheek. "I want to be with আপনি no matter what." I felt his hand caress my cheek as he wiped the tear away softly.
"Don't ever leave me, Sam. Don't leave me." ব্যক্ত Syn as he pulled me in close as our lips were touching softly against each other.
My হৃদয় raced faster than ever as he continued to চুম্বন me. I never wanted to leave Syn. Never. We belong with each other.
As he released his lips from mine, i looked into his eyes and held his hands in mine. Our fingers intertwined as our প্রণয় for each other flowed through our fingertips.
Throughout high school, i felt so alone and unwanted. But, if i haven't listened to Avenged Sevenfold that day, I would have never met Synyster Gates and I wouldn't be sitting here with Zacky and M.Shadows দ্বারা my side and watching the man of my dreams pluck along on his guitar.
I knew i wasn't alone in this world. I knew i was never alone. These guys were my family. The studio was my home. I felt like i belong here. I never wanted this feeling to end. Ever.
Without these guys in my life, i wouldn't be in this very room, watching them record and লেখা about our normal days in the life of music.
Throughout the whole day, i've been sitting পরবর্তি Zacky as we both typed away on our laptops. Shadows was in the booth and Syn was over at the soundboard with his guitar. Being apart of Syn's life has changed everything for me.
I never knew that my life could be this perfect. As Zacky played on his laptop, i continued to write out my short stories. Whenever he hear me type so fast, he'll look over and read what i typed. Sometimes i let him. And sometimes i don't.
One day, the band was recording "A Little Piece of Heaven". Synyster was plucking along as i averted my eyes from my laptop screen to his plucking and back. He looked over at me and winked at me. I winked back and continued লেখা how i felt when i feel hurt and how i wanted to end my misery.
My cell was ringing as i finished the last sentence. I excused myself, placed the laptop on the টেবিল and walked outside. Zacky and the Rev walked দ্বারা my laptop and noticed my story.
"Hey Syn." ব্যক্ত Zacky as he sat down in front of my laptop.
"Yeah?" ব্যক্ত Synyster.
"You need to come here." ব্যক্ত the Rev. "Its something Sam wrote on here." Syn walked over and sat পরবর্তি to them.
"What is it?" asked Synyster. His হৃদয় dropped as he read the first sentence.
"I don't know. But, whatever it is. it's pretty gruesome." ব্যক্ত Zacky as they continued reading.
A few মিনিট later, i come back inside the studio and find the guys crowded around my laptop.
"What are আপনি guys doing?" i asked. My হৃদয় sank when Syn looked up at me with pain in his eyes. He got up and walked outside. I looked over at Zacky and the Rev. "What's wrong with Syn?"
"Um...sit down, Sam. There's something we need to talk about" ব্যক্ত Zacky. I walked over and sat on the পালঙ্ক facing him.
"What is it?" i asked.
"While আপনি were outside, the Rev and I noticed your laptop. And as we were sitting down, we read this story. it was about আপনি trying to end your life and how আপনি didn't want to live anymore. It really got to Synyster." ব্যক্ত Zacky. My হৃদয় was breaking when i heard this.
"What did he say?" i asked.
"Nothing. He just kept reading. Sam, he almost cried because he thinks আপনি want to kill yourself because of us." ব্যক্ত Zacky. That wasn't even true. It was never because of Avenged Sevenfold. It wasn't.
"No. no. it wasn't about আপনি guys. I wrote those stories when i was in high school. I wanted a new way to get rid of my pain. I got to go talk to Syn." I ব্যক্ত as i jumped from the পালঙ্ক and ran for the door.
As the bright light of the outside hit me, i felt a sharp pain in my heart. I looked all over outside for Synyster. I kept calling his name but he never answered. My hand clenched my হৃদয় as i started to fall back and i never hit the ground. it was like i was floating for some reason.
I looked up and saw Syn standing above me as he stopped my fall. I got to my feet and faced him.
"Synyster, i didn't write those stories because of আপনি and the guys. i wrote those stories because of the pain i was feeling during high school." i ব্যক্ত as i tried to fight back the tears trying to flow.
"Why would আপনি write those things, though? I don't want আপনি ending your life on my account. I care about আপনি so much, Samantha." ব্যক্ত Syn as he took my hands in his own and looked in my eyes.
"I would never take my own life. I don't want to be without you, Synyster." i ব্যক্ত as a single tear fell on my cheek. "I want to be with আপনি no matter what." I felt his hand caress my cheek as he wiped the tear away softly.
"Don't ever leave me, Sam. Don't leave me." ব্যক্ত Syn as he pulled me in close as our lips were touching softly against each other.
My হৃদয় raced faster than ever as he continued to চুম্বন me. I never wanted to leave Syn. Never. We belong with each other.
As he released his lips from mine, i looked into his eyes and held his hands in mine. Our fingers intertwined as our প্রণয় for each other flowed through our fingertips.
Throughout high school, i felt so alone and unwanted. But, if i haven't listened to Avenged Sevenfold that day, I would have never met Synyster Gates and I wouldn't be sitting here with Zacky and M.Shadows দ্বারা my side and watching the man of my dreams pluck along on his guitar.
I knew i wasn't alone in this world. I knew i was never alone. These guys were my family. The studio was my home. I felt like i belong here. I never wanted this feeling to end. Ever.
Without these guys in my life, i wouldn't be in this very room, watching them record and লেখা about our normal days in the life of music.
