“I have so much to learn about life,” 22-year-old superstar Taylor সত্বর tells Sunday’s issue of PARADE. “I know nothing compared to what I’m going to know someday.”
The onetime outsider—a songwriting savant bullied দ্বারা mean girls in junior high and overlooked দ্বারা the guys she crushed on— has evolved into the ultimate insider, an entertainer Forbes ranked as the highest-paid celeb under 30 this year, with earnings of $57 million. Her fourth album, Red, is a blockbuster that moved আরো than 1 million copies its first week. She has A-list BFFs, a couple of hit movies, and a growing তালিকা of high-profile ex-boyfriends (including Taylor Lautner, Jake Gyllenhaal, John Mayer, and Robert F. Kennedy Jr.’s 18-year-old son, Conor). So why can’t সত্বর shake the fear that she’ll somehow mess it all up? “I’m scared of this whole thing backfiring,” she admits. “Or chewing me up and spitting me out, and all of a sudden, I don’t প্রণয় it anymore.”
Here are some highlights from the interview. Check out the full interview with Taylor সত্বর in this weekend's issue of PARADE, and go behind the scenes of the star's cover shoot in the exclusive video below.
Despite লেখা about it so prolifically, সত্বর claims not to know much about love.
I tend to think things are প্রণয় and then look back and reevaluate. How many times has she been in love? I know how many people I’ve ব্যক্ত ‘I প্রণয় you’ to. I could probably count it up, but I don’t feel like it. Part of me feels আপনি can’t say আপনি were truly in প্রণয় if it didn’t last. If I end up getting married and having kids, that’s when I’ll know it’s real—because it lasted.
সত্বর on the bad boys she often seems drawn to.
There’s a really interesting charisma involved. They usually have a lot to say, and even if they don’t, they know how to look at আপনি to say it all. I think every girl’s dream is to find a bad boy at the right time, when he wants to not be bad anymore.
সত্বর is the first to admit that her romances tend to develop—and end—rather swiftly.
I don’t think there’s an option for me to fall in প্রণয় slowly, অথবা at medium speed. I either do অথবা I don’t. I don’t think it through, really, which is a good thing and a bad thing. আপনি don’t look before আপনি leap, which is like, ‘Yay, this is awesome! Let’s not think twice!’ And then you’re like, ‘We used to be flying. Now we’re falling. What’s happening?’
On the difficulty of living in the public eye.
I don't know necessarily how much privacy I’m entitled to, but I know I don’t get much of it. At the same time, I asked for this. I could be playing in a coffee house. I’d be happy doing that, [but] not as happy, probably. Knowing that people are going to hear the সঙ্গীত I make is the most amazing feeling. Knowing that there are dudes waiting outside my house with cameras, hiding in the bushes, is a less awesome feeling.