**note: I wrote this along with another one in Algebra 2 Honors after I finished my class work and was listening to these two songs. I just had to type them on my computer since I wrote them in my journal first. so here is the first one
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my other one shots
Waiting For Your Return (link)
Until আপনি Swim (link)
সরানো দ্বারা Little Mix (link)
Not Your সিন্ড্রেলা (link)
Haunted House (link)
Left On The Dance floor (link)
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I sat in my room looking out at the snow falling gently onto the ground. All of my বন্ধু were excited because it meant a white বড়দিন for tomorrow. However I couldn’t help but feel empty on the inside ever since our break up. I know আপনি still have that old red scarf I used to wear but now the thought of the times I wore it makes me feel sadden. I sometimes wish we could start everything over again but I know all too well আপনি would break me like a promise like all the times আপনি have done before. The প্রণয় we had was so beautiful but had such a tragic ending. Why did it all have to wash down the drain so quickly? I guess it’s one of the few things I’ll never know why this even happened at all. Now that’s বড়দিন Eve the only thing I can think of is watching all my বন্ধু so happy underneath the mistletoe. However I will just be a part of the background sipping on my hot চকোলেট দ্বারা the আগুন alone. I know all too well this is your fault that my হৃদয় lays shattered on the white blanket outside. The reason is two years পূর্বে this very দিন my বন্ধু tried to warn me আপনি were trouble but my হৃদয় didn’t listen to anything they ব্যক্ত about you; however, I was too stupid because one বছর পূর্বে আপনি cheated on me with that red head. I hope আপনি are happy with her because I can never forgive আপনি because that was the সেকেন্ড time আপনি did this to me, so this is why from now on I will never give anyone a সেকেন্ড chance. Lately when আপনি have called I just ignore আপনি because I knowyou’d treat me like a promise আপনি didn’t keep. I know আপনি remember every little detail all too well because আপনি are like the tornado that wrecks a town because আপনি wrecked my heart. Ever since last বড়দিন when I try to myself it’s okay, but when we met again on that little town street on Valentine’s দিন I almost let myself fall for আপনি again but I reminded myself I deserve better than you. Because I knew I could never trust আপনি again after I saw আপনি স্নেহ চুম্বন someone else underneath the mistletoe a বছর ago. Now after I was paralyzed দ্বারা the sight of you I have been fighting to be my old self again but I cannot because I’m still trying to find it and I remember all too well.