I watched Edward's pained expression.
"I just came দ্বারা to drop off your stuff, I'll leave. But I want to talk to আপনি first."
Edward backed out of the door and onto the porch. I was so angry I could explode. She was going to hurt him more. I couldn't let that happen. The Pain-in-the-Butt followed him out and he shut the door. I just wanted to beat the crap out of her. How could she come back? And why wouldn't she keep the stuff. I guess she didn't want reminders.
I peeked inside. I wanted to know what it was. There was a CD in a jeweled case, a crystal হৃদয় pendant, a stereo, and lots of notes,and a black, velvet box, that had a diamond ingagement ring in it. I guess he had proposed to her.
That totally destroyed the original anger I felt toward him about what happened in my dream. How could she not want him. অথবা maybe she had ব্যক্ত yes, gotten his hopes up so high, then squashed them with her size 9 Nikes. I put everything back in the box.
I started chewing on some peanuts, waiting for their conversation to finish. I went over towards the door, to see if I could figure out what they were talking about.
"But, Edward,...I... I প্রণয় you."
"But, I don't প্রণয় you, not anymore."
I smiled, she was getting what she deserved.
"Go."
"Go, go and never return. GO!"
I quickly went back to the পালঙ্ক and waited for him to come back in.
I watched him, trying to figure out how he was doing.
"Are আপনি okay,"I asked the obvious question.
"Honestly, I don't think I am. She was my first love, I really want her but, I've found somethin better. I also need to talk to you."
Oh no. Was he going to make me leave too? Did that something better mean it wasn't me?
"About what?"
"About the mind পাঠ করা thing,"he ব্যক্ত quietly.
"Mind পাঠ করা thing,"like in my dream? Then something clicked in place,"Oh, আপনি mean that wasn't a dream? That really happened?"
"Yes, that really happened. I understand it আপনি don't want me anymore, if you're angry I can leave, but I need to know if আপনি can forgive me, I don't like having আপনি mad at me. I want to tell আপনি how much আপনি really mean to me, but I don't want আপনি to leave, I don't want আপনি to hate me...."
I had to make him stop. I cut him off.
"Stop, stop it. I forgive you, it wasn't even আপনি I was mad at, I was angry at myself. I was only a little bit mad at you. Those thoughts, they are something I've never told anyone, I really didn't want anyone to know that I'm a killer. It was my fault. I was angry and I just couldn't stop myself, I mean, sure I didn't touch the blade, but I know it was all my fault...."
I choked, there was something in my throat, keeping me from saying anymore.
"It's not your fault. I know আপনি think it was but it was your power. I mean, sure আপনি won't really have it until you're a vampire, if আপনি become a vampire, but still, I'm the only true murderer here. I killed people, I did it on purpose, but you, আপনি didn't even know what was going on. I purposefully chased bad guys down an alley, I made sure they were evil, but I realize now how wrong it was for me to take a human life. আপনি on the other hand, আপনি didn't do anything on purpose, people do stupid things when they're angry."
I looked at the floor feeling tears running down my cheeks. He wrapped his strong, cold, hard arms around me, and I pulled myself closer. I couldn't stop crying, I didn't want to stop. He pulled me onto the পালঙ্ক and I laid down with my head on his lap, crying until I fell asleep.
I dreamt about what happened earlier. I wanted him to know everything, I wanted him to know that I loved him and I wanted to know that he loved me. I wanted him to understand me. I dreamt that I became his vampire bride. We would get married and then he would turn me, however that would happen, on our honeymoon.
Then I heard voices. It sounded like Edward was talking to someone.
I slowly opened my eyes and stretched. Then I realized where I was and I sat up.
"Good evening Liz, how was your nap?"
"Great, that felt good, to get everything off my chest."
"So, do আপনি still want me?"
I remembered the mind পাঠ করা thing. So I thought really loud. Of course I want you, I think I'm in প্রণয় with you, and I never want আপনি to leave me.
I smiled, and he smiled back.
"What do আপনি want for dinner?"
Dinner? Wow, I slept most of the day.
"I think I want spaghetti."
"Great, I'll make আপনি some."
I was about to object, when I heard,"No, Edward, I want to make it. It's the least I could do, since আপনি make Edward happy,"Esme said.
"Thanks,"I told her, truly happy for the first time in years.
I watched the front door open, wondering who it could be.
"Wow, she has better fashion sense than Bella, at least. আপনি are so coming shopping with me. We can go to Seattle and Olympia and ...."
"Alice, stop talking,"Edward cut in,"Let Liz be, she had a long day.
"I wasn't talking to আপনি Edward,"she retorted sticking her tongue out.
He rolled his eyes.
"We can go tomorrow."
I thought about it. I would need some আরো cute clothes, especially for Edward to see.
"Okay, I প্রণয় to shop, maybe I can get আপনি a present,"I ব্যক্ত turning to Edward,"Since I প্রণয় আপনি and my feelings are returned. Besides, it's our 1 week anniversary tomorrow."
"I'll have one for আপনি too."
"Spaghettis ready, Liz."
"Okay,"I called.
I jumped up and headed for the dining room and sat where the খাবার was waiting.
"This is delicious,"I ব্যক্ত after the first bite.
"I'm glad আপনি like it,"Esme responded.
I ate my স্প্যাঘেটি and then waited for Edward to come and get me.