Chapter 1
Cuddled up in my বিছানা I remember the better days when Edward and I could tell each other everything. But how could I tell him something that could evidently ruin our friendship? I can’t ভালুক not to have him in my life, no matter how small অথবা large a part he plays in it I shall keep the secret from him. Jacob knows something is wrong but what does he expect he knows I am in প্রণয় with Edward but won’t let me go. All I am to him is a মুষ্ট্যাঘাত bag! I and everyone else in Forks knows how he sleeps around and also wonder why I take him back, but how can I not as hard as it is to admit I প্রণয় him, but I am not in প্রণয় with him. My বন্ধু wonder how I can say that but the truth is when he is truly himself he is one of the nicest people আপনি will ever meet. It is just a shame that side of him isn’t shown আরো frequently. Climbing out of বিছানা the first thing I am face with is a ছবি of Edward and I at junior prom, I remember that দিন so clearly Flashback E – Bella, আপনি know your my best friend? And আপনি know how much I প্রণয় you? So will আপনি please, please, please go to prom with me – I know আপনি hate to dance but আপনি don’t need to I promise but please come.
How could I say no to him? I প্রণয় him.
B – Okay Edward I will go with আপনি but আপনি owe me big time. As soon as they words escaped my lips he pulled me into one of his large ভালুক hugs that I প্রণয় so much.
End of Flashback
I stood up and began to get dressed in a white t-shirt and black blazer, today I honestly couldn’t care less what I looked like. As I was about to walk out I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I had to admit I looked good. After grabbing an আপেল for breakfast a small smile spread across my face at how I looked today. I thought how Edward would never be able to take his eyes off me, then that image was quickly removed from my head at the realization that Edward would never truly like me in that way. Then my good mood ended. Grabbing my keys from the dish in the hall I headed out to my Little Ford Ka which I had to admit I loved dearly, as I was about to reverse a mop of brown hair standing behind my car caught my attention. It was Edward a small smile spread across my face as he chapped on the passenger window.(E) Bella, Good Morning Babe, Do আপনি mind giving me a lift to school? (B) Ofcourse! What are best বন্ধু for. (E)Your right your my best friend in the whole wide world and I hope আপনি always will be!
That was it the tears started to appear in my eyes at that, me always being his best friend nothing more? It broke my হৃদয় I quickly wiped the tear way before he noticed and began what was going to be a long journey to school.
Chapter 2
EPOV
I awoke to the noise of my buzzing alarm; I threw my arm out the বিছানা in an attempt to shut my alarm clock the hell up. As I finally grasped it, then it fell on the floor along with something else that made a clatter I jumped out the বিছানা in an attempt to see what it was it was lying on the floor was the picture of Bella and I from a few Christmases পূর্বে I picked it up and laid it on my বিছানা to notice there was a crackdown it. Crap! I muttered under my breath. I made a mental note to get it fixed as soon as possible. As I grabbed my clothes I wandered into my bathroom to get ready on the way I out I noticed from my window Bella wandering around her room in her outfit. God she is Beautiful I thought to myself. I had to erase that thought because deep down I knew she wouldn’t think of me that way not now, not ever. I was her best friend, almost like her brother. I wandered down the stairs to grab something to eat, thankfully my mother had already prepared me something seen as she knew what a hopeless cook I was! With that I considered grabbing my keys to my silver Volvo but decided against it and instead spent some time with the girl I loved আরো than life itself. I managed to get to Bella before he reversed from the driveway দ্বারা chapping on her window (E) Bella, Good morning babe, do আপনি mind giving me a lift to school today?(E) (B) Ofcourse not what are best বন্ধু for? (B) And with those words my হৃদয় shattered into a million pieces, Best Friend? Though I was glad to have her in my life I wanted আরো than best friend I knew I had been kidding myself but I had hoped she felt the same way. Obviously not since she was still with that dog Jacob Black! God I hated him, he had everything I wanted and didn’t deserve it. I, myself always knew I was never good enough for her! But him? He hit her everyone knew so but she would always welcome him প্রথমপাতা with open arms. Bella’s light breathing brought me out of my little দিন dream I could see she was sad that I hadn’t replied to her best friend statement so I quickly blurted out something to make her happy (E) Your right your my best friend in the whole wide world and I hope আপনি always will be! (E) Ofcourse I wanted আরো but I wouldn’t, couldn’t waste our friendship! So she began to drive away in complete silence, for once I was glad as I truthfully today couldn’t ভালুক hearing her talk about Jacob. I turned to look out the window, thinking about what a long ride to school it would be.
Chapter 3
B|POV
The ride to school that দিন was beyond hellish. Neither one talked. When Bella arrived at school she had to get Edward form his দিন dream (B) Edward? (B) (E) What…? Oh sorry I was দিন dreaming(E) A small smile spread across my face at just how childish he was, (B) Yeh I guessed that Edward! Do আপনি need me to give আপনি a ride প্রথমপাতা after school? (B) Oh god if he says that দুশ্চরিত্রা Tanya is taking him প্রথমপাতা I may cry! It’s no secret that Esme and Carlisle don’t like her; infect no one but Edward and herself like her! (E)Erm ofcourse! Why do আপনি have something else planned with I dunno? Jacob (E) he ব্যক্ত scornfully. If he actually gave a damn about me in that way then maybe it wouldn’t bother me? (B) And what exactly do আপনি mean দ্বারা that Edward, He is my boyfriend after all! (B) As much as I wished Edward was my boyfriend he wasn’t so it really had nothing to do with him! (E) Well I don’t like him Bella he is not good enough for you! And quite frankly I don’t like আপনি spending time with him!(E) Excuse me I couldn’t believe what I was hearing he didn’t like me spending time with him? (B) What in the hell gives আপনি the right to tell me what is and isn’t good for me Edward? And as for আপনি not liking me spending time with him that’s your problem, I wouldn’t need to spend so much time with him if I seen আপনি more! But no you’re always with that bitch. So while we are playing this game I don’t like আপনি spending time with her either! So what আপনি gonna do about that Edward? (B) I couldn’t believe I had ব্যক্ত all of that. He was looking at me completely shocked, serves him right I thought to myself. (E) আপনি know what Bella you’re not even worth having this conversation with and actually that ‘bitch’ who happens to be my girlfriend can take me প্রথমপাতা thanks!(E) And with that he left. I let my head drop against the steering wheel at what I had just done. Reality had just came crashing down at the fact I may have হারিয়ে গেছে my best friend and the person who held my হৃদয় forever, but the words ‘Bella you’re not even worth it’ rang through my head…
E|POV
I was staring out the window thinking about Bella, God I loved that girl so much! I wish I could tell her. Suddenly I was brought out of my dream but her angelic voice (B) Edward? (B) (E) What…? Oh sorry I was দিন dreaming (E) I saw a small smile spread across her face. (B) Yeh I guessed that Edward! Do আপনি need me to give আপনি a ride প্রথমপাতা after school? (B) Oh no was this her subtly dropping the hint that she was doing something else? With that dog? (E)Erm ofcourse! Why do আপনি have something else planned with I dunno? Jacob (E) I asked scornfully. I knew it was none of my business but I needed to know! (B) And what exactly do আপনি mean দ্বারা that Edward, He is my boyfriend after all! (B) I cringed when she called him ‘boyfriend’ ‘Pet Mutt’ would have suited him so much better. (E) Well I don’t like him Bella he is not good enough for you! And quite frankly I don’t like আপনি spending time with him! (E) I knew I was skating on thin ice but I needed her to know how I felt about that mutt! (B) What in the hell gives আপনি the right to tell me what is and isn’t good for me Edward? And as for আপনি not liking me spending time with him that’s your problem, I wouldn’t need to spend so much time with him if I seen আপনি more! But no you’re always with that bitch. So while we are playing this game I don’t like আপনি spending time with her either! So what আপনি gonna do about that Edward? (B) I couldn’t believe what she was saying I spend time with Bella so I will admit not as much as we used to but we did see each other. (E) আপনি know what Bella you’re not even worth having this conversation with and actually that ‘bitch’ who happens to be my girlfriend can take me প্রথমপাতা thanks!(E) I can’t believe I ব্যক্ত that to Bella ‘you’re not even worth it!’ ofcourse she bloody was but with that I left the car feeling absolutely terrible looking back I knew she was crying then she laid her head on the steering wheel. That’s when I went to class.
Chapter 4
B|POV
I was heartbroken I knew he loved me just not in the way I wanted it. I needed to be loved. I grabbed my phone and text Jake.
J, what আপনি doing I really need আপনি can we meet ? –Bx Then I placed my phone down shocked at what I was doing I was going to Jake to loose my V-card. I প্রণয় him but not like I প্রণয় Edward oh well Edward was one to be kind with details when it came to Tanya and him. Infact he shared with me every agonizing detail with me. I was dragged out of my thoughts দ্বারা my phone buzzing. 1 new message.
Bella babe, im at my house everything okay? আপনি coming round? –Jx God he was being nice to be today, he must be in a good mood.
Yeh, Jake im ready … can I come round? –Bx I quickly pressed the send button before changing my mind. Before I could even place my phone back it buzzed again.
B, Ofcourse I have an empty house come round just now. –Jx And with that text i drove down to LaPush. I quickly got out my car and sprinted to Jakes door to avoid the rain. Once I was there I chapped and Jake opened it and pulled me into a deep kiss. And with that the activities began. I was threw against the দেওয়াল so Jake could have his way with me. 2 hours and 23 মিনিট later I reappeared feeling rather good about myself. I left and jumped into my car and began to drive home. But that’s when it had hit me, the deed I had just carried out. I began feeling terrible and only wanted to talk to one person. As I drove up to my house I noticed the time and that he would nearly be home. So I decided to go up to his room to sit and wait until I could apologize. However when I chapped the door Esme opened it and embraced me in one of her motherly hugs I loved so much. I told her I was here to talk to Edward and she told me he was in his room with another visitor. I realized that it would probably be Jasper অথবা Emmet. When I reached his room I chapped the door and began to walk in. then I was stopped in my tracks দ্বারা what I saw. Edward on শীর্ষ of Tanya on his বিছানা with a smashed ছবি of Edward and I at the bottom of the bed. And with that I gasped and ran, I quickly realized that he must have heard me because all I heard was ‘Bella, please wait. Im sorry’ but I couldn’t take it I ran up to my room and shut my curtains and lay in my বিছানা and cried. I must had eventually fell asleep because when I awoke I had 6 texts.
B, Today was great! Can’t wait for a re-run! –Jx
Bella, Im sorry please let me explain. Ex
B, I know your mad but please talk to me. I প্রণয় you. Ex
Bella please im worried আপনি wont answer your door talk to me!!. Ex
Bells, don’t worry about ডিনার tonight I will bring something in! – Dadx
Bella Swan! আপনি better reply to my texts I need to talk to you!.Ex
I never replied to any of the texts that night, instead I waited until my Dad was in to ask something I hope he will let me do. (B) Dad, do আপনি mind if for the rest of the term I stay with mum? (B) (C) Okay Bella if that’s what আপনি want.(C) (B) Thanks dad I really need this(B) with that I stood up and pecked him on the cheek. And went upto reply to these texts. Well his texts.
আপনি don’t need to be sorry! I will see আপনি if and when I come back! Goodbye. B Exactly 30 সেকেন্ড later he replied
Where are আপনি going? Please don’t leave me I need you. I প্রণয় you. Ex
Its none of your business where I am going all আপনি need to know is it is somewhere we cant interfere with each other and don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me! –B I pressed the send button with tears streaming down my face.
Why are আপনি being like this? Tell me let’s talk about it. I need you. And make no mistake Isabella Swan. I প্রণয় You! -E . দ্বারা this point I was in tears.
Goodbye Edward. I clicked send and began to pack my bags. But I also opened my curtains so I could see into his room and he into mine. I looked over and seen the burning man in Edward.
Chapter 5
E|POV
Running to class I took my আসন in English and thought about what had just happened. Then Tanya came and sat পরবর্তি to me and grasped my hand and began running it up and down her thigh. God I wasn’t in the mood! I may have just হারিয়ে গেছে my best friend and she’s horny? Oh God just cause I wasn’t in the mood doesn’t mean HE wasn’t. Before thinking twice as soon as English was over she dragged me out to her car and began driving to my house. Before I could say anything she pulled me up to my room and flung me onto my বিছানা before she jumped on শীর্ষ of me she noticed the ছবি of Bella and I. (T) Finally got sick of that bitch?(T) she ব্যক্ত happily. I snapped back (E) No! So are we doing this অথবা not? (E) And with that she jumped on শীর্ষ of me and we began making out. I flung her on the বিছানা so I was on শীর্ষ and began devouring her. As I was getting into it I heard a small chap on the door and before I could stop I heard a pained gasp. As I climbed off of Tanya I realized I saw a flash of brown hair and knew straight away it was Bella, looking around I seen what she must have saw not only me on শীর্ষ of but the smashed ছবি of Bella and myself. Crap! I muttered under my breath. And began running to catch up with her (E) Bella, please wait im sorry!(E) I shouted at her but it was too late she was gone. I collapsed on the stairs and thought about everything, every memory I had Bella was in it and now I had হারিয়ে গেছে her. I finally got back up and went back to my room where Tanya was sitting with a টক look on her face. Before she could say anything I snapped (E) Tanya! Get the hell out I really don’t want to see you. (E) She looked at me shocked. (T) আপনি know what Edward we are over, you’re obviously in প্রণয় with her. I don’t know why she is such a stupid bitch!(T) I was fuming anger, not with the fact that she had just broke up with me but at what she was calling Bella. (E) Get the hell out now (E) I roared. As soon as she had left I went over to look out my window to see if I could see Bella but her curtains were shut. Damn it! What had I done? I whipped my phone out my trousers pocket and text her.
Bella, Im sorry please let me explain. Ex
Bella was normally so quick to reply to texts but she wasn’t replying to mine. However, I was not going to give up!
B, I know your mad but please talk to me. I প্রণয় you. Ex
I cringed at the last three words I knew I had no right to say that to her especially after what I was putting her through. No Reply. I decided to go around and bang on her door until she answered after about 10 মিনিট she still wasn’t opening it up. I began to worry. She wouldn’t do anything stupid! Would she…? I had to shake that out of my head I couldn’t stand anything happening to her.
Bella please im worried আপনি wont answer your door talk to me!!. Ex
I needed her to reply! Was beginning to get pissed now.
Bella Swan! আপনি better reply to my texts I need to talk to you!.Ex
She never replied so I went back to my house and when I got in my mum was waiting for me.
(M) Edward what’s wrong? আপনি look terrible. (M) I really didn’t want to have this conversation right now. (E) Nothing Mum! Just leave me alone please! (E) before she could reply I ran up to my room and lay on my বিছানা where I fell asleep. About an ঘন্টা later I woke up to my phone beeping. I picked it up and saw there was one new message from Bella. Thank God I thought to myself.
আপনি don’t need to be sorry! I will see আপনি if and when I come back! Goodbye. B What? Where was she going? She couldn’t leave me I needed her! I replied as quick as my fingers would allow.
Where are আপনি going? Please don’t leave me I need you. I প্রণয় you. Ex It was true I did need her. She replied almost as soon as I had sent it.
Its none of your business where I am going all আপনি need to know is it is somewhere we cant interfere with each other and don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me! –B
I read all the message and the words stood out. ‘don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me!’ with everything that was going on I was completely sure about the fact I loved her and she would know one way অথবা another. One day.
Why are আপনি being like this? Tell me let’s talk about it. I need you. And make no mistake Isabella Swan. I প্রণয় You! -E . দ্বারা this point I was in tears. It may be hard to admit but she is the most important thing in my life. I waited for a reply and when I got it I wished I hadn’t.
Goodbye Edward.
At that moment my life came crashing down. She was serious. She was leaving. What had I done?
I sat at my ডেস্ক and felt like the burning man was taking over me.
Chapter 6
B|POV
2 weeks later.
I had successfully managed to spend 2 weeks without Edward. No Talking. No Looking. No Communication! Tomorrow I would be flying to Jacksonville to spend time with my Mother for 7 weeks. I had to get away from here. Away from him. I began packing I placed clothes, my I -pod, mp3 player and laptop in my bag too. I then moved the case to the door of my room. I went over and opened the curtains so he could see me packing up my life because of him. As soon as I opened them I saw him sitting at his ডেস্ক staring at my window, when he realized I had opened the curtains for the first time in weeks a small smile spread across his face. He must have thought I had forgiven him. God he was wrong. I turned and walked to my ডেস্ক so that my back was to him. As much as I hated him right now I needed him to know why I left so I decided to write him a letter that Charlie could give to him once I had left.
Dear Edward, দ্বারা the time আপনি receive this letter আপনি will know that I have left. As much as I don’t want to talk আপনি after the past 16 years of friendship I thought I owed আপনি this. I shall be away for seven weeks. As much as I want to say when I come back stay out of my life, I can’t because I have been keeping a big secret from আপনি for quite a while. Im in প্রণয় with you. So there আপনি have it, as much as I wish আপনি feel the same way it’s evident আপনি don’t and never will. I will see আপনি when I come back after im over you, your my best friend and I don’t want to lose that, ever! So আপনি can যন্ত্রপত্র me during the summer. And do not under any circumstances say আপনি প্রণয় me too, because it’s not fair on me. Goodbye Edward.
Bella.
I was now crying in the process of sealing the envelope. With that I lay in my বিছানা and cried myself to sleep again. Waking up in the morning I went down and ব্যক্ত to Charlie to give him the letter to give to Edward. I was looking out the window when arguing brought me out of my দিন dream. I went out to find Jacob and Edward fighting. Oh God I thought to myself. I noticed how terrible Edward looked. He looked like he had হারিয়ে গেছে weight and hadn’t slept for months. I walked over and grabbed Jacobs face and began to চুম্বন him passionately. As I broke free I turned to Edward who was close to tears. With that I ব্যক্ত Goodbye to both Edward and Jacob and left in the car not looking back.
Chapter 7
E|POV
2 weeks. 2 god damned weeks! That’s how long it had been since I talked to her. Every time I went near her she bolted as far away from me as fast as she could. I remained in the same place I had since the night she had left. Every waking মিনিট I would sit at the ডেস্ক and gaze over at her window hoping to catch a glimpse of her. She never shut her curtains not fully at least not in the 16 years I had been best বন্ধু with her for. About 15 মিনিট later she opened her curtains and a large grin had spread across my face. Has she forgiven me I thought to my-self, part of me hoping this was true but the other part knowing that it would never happen? I had hurt her too much. But still I kept hoping until she turned round and sat at her ডেস্ক with her back facing me. She hunched her back over and began writing. I then heard a chap at my door and since my parents weren’t in I would have to go down and answer the door when I did answer it, I wished I hadn’t it was Jacob Black. My Ex-Best friend. (E) What do আপনি want? (E) I snapped. (J) I want to know what আপনি done to make my girlfriend want to leave town? (J) He roared. (E) Well we both know why your dating her don’t we. And আপনি don’t deserve her as your girlfriend! আপনি treat her like a bloody মুষ্ট্যাঘাত bag! (E) I screamed. (J) And what do আপনি mean দ্বারা that ‘we both know why your dating her’ the answer to that would be I প্রণয় her. (J) (E) we both know that the only reason you’re going out with her is because I wanted her! আপনি told me as much! (E) I snapped. (J) And we both know the reason আপনি didn’t. Because আপনি didn’t think she would be easy. Well have I got news for you, she’s great absolutely great! She’s a screamer আপনি know? (J) And with that I snapped him and Bella didn’t oh god no! Just as I was about to introduce him to my left fist Bella came running out and grabbed Jacobs face. She’s gonna slap him I thought to myself, but no she started snogging him only to break away for air. At that point I believed everything that dog had ব্যক্ত about Bella and him and it made me sick. I could feel the tears stinging in the corner of my eyes. At that moment she broke away from him ব্যক্ত goodbye to him. Then turned to me. Oh god what was she going to do hug me, চুম্বন me? Sadly none of these (B) Goodbye Edward (B) and with that she was in the car waiting for Charlie. Charlie came out with an envelope and handed it to me nodding his head and then drove away. I no longer had the patience for Jacob Black; I walked into my house slamming the door shut and slouched down on my পালঙ্ক to read the letter.
Dear Edward, দ্বারা the time আপনি receive this letter আপনি will know that I have left. As much as I don’t want to talk আপনি after the past 16 years of friendship I thought I owed আপনি this. I shall be away for seven weeks. As much as I want to say when I come back stay out of my life, I can’t because I have been keeping a big secret from আপনি for quite a while. Im in প্রণয় with you. So there আপনি have it, as much as I wish আপনি feel the same way it’s evident আপনি don’t and never will. I will see আপনি when I come back after im over you, your my best friend and I don’t want to lose that, ever! So আপনি can যন্ত্রপত্র me during the summer. And do not under any circumstances say আপনি প্রণয় me too, because it’s not fair on me. Goodbye Edward.
Bella.
I was now physically sobbing. I couldn’t control it. She was in প্রণয় with me too all this time. I couldn’t handle it. I went into the রান্নাঘর and pulled out the first sharp thing I could find and took it to my wrists then everything went black…
Cuddled up in my বিছানা I remember the better days when Edward and I could tell each other everything. But how could I tell him something that could evidently ruin our friendship? I can’t ভালুক not to have him in my life, no matter how small অথবা large a part he plays in it I shall keep the secret from him. Jacob knows something is wrong but what does he expect he knows I am in প্রণয় with Edward but won’t let me go. All I am to him is a মুষ্ট্যাঘাত bag! I and everyone else in Forks knows how he sleeps around and also wonder why I take him back, but how can I not as hard as it is to admit I প্রণয় him, but I am not in প্রণয় with him. My বন্ধু wonder how I can say that but the truth is when he is truly himself he is one of the nicest people আপনি will ever meet. It is just a shame that side of him isn’t shown আরো frequently. Climbing out of বিছানা the first thing I am face with is a ছবি of Edward and I at junior prom, I remember that দিন so clearly Flashback E – Bella, আপনি know your my best friend? And আপনি know how much I প্রণয় you? So will আপনি please, please, please go to prom with me – I know আপনি hate to dance but আপনি don’t need to I promise but please come.
How could I say no to him? I প্রণয় him.
B – Okay Edward I will go with আপনি but আপনি owe me big time. As soon as they words escaped my lips he pulled me into one of his large ভালুক hugs that I প্রণয় so much.
End of Flashback
I stood up and began to get dressed in a white t-shirt and black blazer, today I honestly couldn’t care less what I looked like. As I was about to walk out I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I had to admit I looked good. After grabbing an আপেল for breakfast a small smile spread across my face at how I looked today. I thought how Edward would never be able to take his eyes off me, then that image was quickly removed from my head at the realization that Edward would never truly like me in that way. Then my good mood ended. Grabbing my keys from the dish in the hall I headed out to my Little Ford Ka which I had to admit I loved dearly, as I was about to reverse a mop of brown hair standing behind my car caught my attention. It was Edward a small smile spread across my face as he chapped on the passenger window.(E) Bella, Good Morning Babe, Do আপনি mind giving me a lift to school? (B) Ofcourse! What are best বন্ধু for. (E)Your right your my best friend in the whole wide world and I hope আপনি always will be!
That was it the tears started to appear in my eyes at that, me always being his best friend nothing more? It broke my হৃদয় I quickly wiped the tear way before he noticed and began what was going to be a long journey to school.
Chapter 2
EPOV
I awoke to the noise of my buzzing alarm; I threw my arm out the বিছানা in an attempt to shut my alarm clock the hell up. As I finally grasped it, then it fell on the floor along with something else that made a clatter I jumped out the বিছানা in an attempt to see what it was it was lying on the floor was the picture of Bella and I from a few Christmases পূর্বে I picked it up and laid it on my বিছানা to notice there was a crackdown it. Crap! I muttered under my breath. I made a mental note to get it fixed as soon as possible. As I grabbed my clothes I wandered into my bathroom to get ready on the way I out I noticed from my window Bella wandering around her room in her outfit. God she is Beautiful I thought to myself. I had to erase that thought because deep down I knew she wouldn’t think of me that way not now, not ever. I was her best friend, almost like her brother. I wandered down the stairs to grab something to eat, thankfully my mother had already prepared me something seen as she knew what a hopeless cook I was! With that I considered grabbing my keys to my silver Volvo but decided against it and instead spent some time with the girl I loved আরো than life itself. I managed to get to Bella before he reversed from the driveway দ্বারা chapping on her window (E) Bella, Good morning babe, do আপনি mind giving me a lift to school today?(E) (B) Ofcourse not what are best বন্ধু for? (B) And with those words my হৃদয় shattered into a million pieces, Best Friend? Though I was glad to have her in my life I wanted আরো than best friend I knew I had been kidding myself but I had hoped she felt the same way. Obviously not since she was still with that dog Jacob Black! God I hated him, he had everything I wanted and didn’t deserve it. I, myself always knew I was never good enough for her! But him? He hit her everyone knew so but she would always welcome him প্রথমপাতা with open arms. Bella’s light breathing brought me out of my little দিন dream I could see she was sad that I hadn’t replied to her best friend statement so I quickly blurted out something to make her happy (E) Your right your my best friend in the whole wide world and I hope আপনি always will be! (E) Ofcourse I wanted আরো but I wouldn’t, couldn’t waste our friendship! So she began to drive away in complete silence, for once I was glad as I truthfully today couldn’t ভালুক hearing her talk about Jacob. I turned to look out the window, thinking about what a long ride to school it would be.
Chapter 3
B|POV
The ride to school that দিন was beyond hellish. Neither one talked. When Bella arrived at school she had to get Edward form his দিন dream (B) Edward? (B) (E) What…? Oh sorry I was দিন dreaming(E) A small smile spread across my face at just how childish he was, (B) Yeh I guessed that Edward! Do আপনি need me to give আপনি a ride প্রথমপাতা after school? (B) Oh god if he says that দুশ্চরিত্রা Tanya is taking him প্রথমপাতা I may cry! It’s no secret that Esme and Carlisle don’t like her; infect no one but Edward and herself like her! (E)Erm ofcourse! Why do আপনি have something else planned with I dunno? Jacob (E) he ব্যক্ত scornfully. If he actually gave a damn about me in that way then maybe it wouldn’t bother me? (B) And what exactly do আপনি mean দ্বারা that Edward, He is my boyfriend after all! (B) As much as I wished Edward was my boyfriend he wasn’t so it really had nothing to do with him! (E) Well I don’t like him Bella he is not good enough for you! And quite frankly I don’t like আপনি spending time with him!(E) Excuse me I couldn’t believe what I was hearing he didn’t like me spending time with him? (B) What in the hell gives আপনি the right to tell me what is and isn’t good for me Edward? And as for আপনি not liking me spending time with him that’s your problem, I wouldn’t need to spend so much time with him if I seen আপনি more! But no you’re always with that bitch. So while we are playing this game I don’t like আপনি spending time with her either! So what আপনি gonna do about that Edward? (B) I couldn’t believe I had ব্যক্ত all of that. He was looking at me completely shocked, serves him right I thought to myself. (E) আপনি know what Bella you’re not even worth having this conversation with and actually that ‘bitch’ who happens to be my girlfriend can take me প্রথমপাতা thanks!(E) And with that he left. I let my head drop against the steering wheel at what I had just done. Reality had just came crashing down at the fact I may have হারিয়ে গেছে my best friend and the person who held my হৃদয় forever, but the words ‘Bella you’re not even worth it’ rang through my head…
E|POV
I was staring out the window thinking about Bella, God I loved that girl so much! I wish I could tell her. Suddenly I was brought out of my dream but her angelic voice (B) Edward? (B) (E) What…? Oh sorry I was দিন dreaming (E) I saw a small smile spread across her face. (B) Yeh I guessed that Edward! Do আপনি need me to give আপনি a ride প্রথমপাতা after school? (B) Oh no was this her subtly dropping the hint that she was doing something else? With that dog? (E)Erm ofcourse! Why do আপনি have something else planned with I dunno? Jacob (E) I asked scornfully. I knew it was none of my business but I needed to know! (B) And what exactly do আপনি mean দ্বারা that Edward, He is my boyfriend after all! (B) I cringed when she called him ‘boyfriend’ ‘Pet Mutt’ would have suited him so much better. (E) Well I don’t like him Bella he is not good enough for you! And quite frankly I don’t like আপনি spending time with him! (E) I knew I was skating on thin ice but I needed her to know how I felt about that mutt! (B) What in the hell gives আপনি the right to tell me what is and isn’t good for me Edward? And as for আপনি not liking me spending time with him that’s your problem, I wouldn’t need to spend so much time with him if I seen আপনি more! But no you’re always with that bitch. So while we are playing this game I don’t like আপনি spending time with her either! So what আপনি gonna do about that Edward? (B) I couldn’t believe what she was saying I spend time with Bella so I will admit not as much as we used to but we did see each other. (E) আপনি know what Bella you’re not even worth having this conversation with and actually that ‘bitch’ who happens to be my girlfriend can take me প্রথমপাতা thanks!(E) I can’t believe I ব্যক্ত that to Bella ‘you’re not even worth it!’ ofcourse she bloody was but with that I left the car feeling absolutely terrible looking back I knew she was crying then she laid her head on the steering wheel. That’s when I went to class.
Chapter 4
B|POV
I was heartbroken I knew he loved me just not in the way I wanted it. I needed to be loved. I grabbed my phone and text Jake.
J, what আপনি doing I really need আপনি can we meet ? –Bx Then I placed my phone down shocked at what I was doing I was going to Jake to loose my V-card. I প্রণয় him but not like I প্রণয় Edward oh well Edward was one to be kind with details when it came to Tanya and him. Infact he shared with me every agonizing detail with me. I was dragged out of my thoughts দ্বারা my phone buzzing. 1 new message.
Bella babe, im at my house everything okay? আপনি coming round? –Jx God he was being nice to be today, he must be in a good mood.
Yeh, Jake im ready … can I come round? –Bx I quickly pressed the send button before changing my mind. Before I could even place my phone back it buzzed again.
B, Ofcourse I have an empty house come round just now. –Jx And with that text i drove down to LaPush. I quickly got out my car and sprinted to Jakes door to avoid the rain. Once I was there I chapped and Jake opened it and pulled me into a deep kiss. And with that the activities began. I was threw against the দেওয়াল so Jake could have his way with me. 2 hours and 23 মিনিট later I reappeared feeling rather good about myself. I left and jumped into my car and began to drive home. But that’s when it had hit me, the deed I had just carried out. I began feeling terrible and only wanted to talk to one person. As I drove up to my house I noticed the time and that he would nearly be home. So I decided to go up to his room to sit and wait until I could apologize. However when I chapped the door Esme opened it and embraced me in one of her motherly hugs I loved so much. I told her I was here to talk to Edward and she told me he was in his room with another visitor. I realized that it would probably be Jasper অথবা Emmet. When I reached his room I chapped the door and began to walk in. then I was stopped in my tracks দ্বারা what I saw. Edward on শীর্ষ of Tanya on his বিছানা with a smashed ছবি of Edward and I at the bottom of the bed. And with that I gasped and ran, I quickly realized that he must have heard me because all I heard was ‘Bella, please wait. Im sorry’ but I couldn’t take it I ran up to my room and shut my curtains and lay in my বিছানা and cried. I must had eventually fell asleep because when I awoke I had 6 texts.
B, Today was great! Can’t wait for a re-run! –Jx
Bella, Im sorry please let me explain. Ex
B, I know your mad but please talk to me. I প্রণয় you. Ex
Bella please im worried আপনি wont answer your door talk to me!!. Ex
Bells, don’t worry about ডিনার tonight I will bring something in! – Dadx
Bella Swan! আপনি better reply to my texts I need to talk to you!.Ex
I never replied to any of the texts that night, instead I waited until my Dad was in to ask something I hope he will let me do. (B) Dad, do আপনি mind if for the rest of the term I stay with mum? (B) (C) Okay Bella if that’s what আপনি want.(C) (B) Thanks dad I really need this(B) with that I stood up and pecked him on the cheek. And went upto reply to these texts. Well his texts.
আপনি don’t need to be sorry! I will see আপনি if and when I come back! Goodbye. B Exactly 30 সেকেন্ড later he replied
Where are আপনি going? Please don’t leave me I need you. I প্রণয় you. Ex
Its none of your business where I am going all আপনি need to know is it is somewhere we cant interfere with each other and don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me! –B I pressed the send button with tears streaming down my face.
Why are আপনি being like this? Tell me let’s talk about it. I need you. And make no mistake Isabella Swan. I প্রণয় You! -E . দ্বারা this point I was in tears.
Goodbye Edward. I clicked send and began to pack my bags. But I also opened my curtains so I could see into his room and he into mine. I looked over and seen the burning man in Edward.
Chapter 5
E|POV
Running to class I took my আসন in English and thought about what had just happened. Then Tanya came and sat পরবর্তি to me and grasped my hand and began running it up and down her thigh. God I wasn’t in the mood! I may have just হারিয়ে গেছে my best friend and she’s horny? Oh God just cause I wasn’t in the mood doesn’t mean HE wasn’t. Before thinking twice as soon as English was over she dragged me out to her car and began driving to my house. Before I could say anything she pulled me up to my room and flung me onto my বিছানা before she jumped on শীর্ষ of me she noticed the ছবি of Bella and I. (T) Finally got sick of that bitch?(T) she ব্যক্ত happily. I snapped back (E) No! So are we doing this অথবা not? (E) And with that she jumped on শীর্ষ of me and we began making out. I flung her on the বিছানা so I was on শীর্ষ and began devouring her. As I was getting into it I heard a small chap on the door and before I could stop I heard a pained gasp. As I climbed off of Tanya I realized I saw a flash of brown hair and knew straight away it was Bella, looking around I seen what she must have saw not only me on শীর্ষ of but the smashed ছবি of Bella and myself. Crap! I muttered under my breath. And began running to catch up with her (E) Bella, please wait im sorry!(E) I shouted at her but it was too late she was gone. I collapsed on the stairs and thought about everything, every memory I had Bella was in it and now I had হারিয়ে গেছে her. I finally got back up and went back to my room where Tanya was sitting with a টক look on her face. Before she could say anything I snapped (E) Tanya! Get the hell out I really don’t want to see you. (E) She looked at me shocked. (T) আপনি know what Edward we are over, you’re obviously in প্রণয় with her. I don’t know why she is such a stupid bitch!(T) I was fuming anger, not with the fact that she had just broke up with me but at what she was calling Bella. (E) Get the hell out now (E) I roared. As soon as she had left I went over to look out my window to see if I could see Bella but her curtains were shut. Damn it! What had I done? I whipped my phone out my trousers pocket and text her.
Bella, Im sorry please let me explain. Ex
Bella was normally so quick to reply to texts but she wasn’t replying to mine. However, I was not going to give up!
B, I know your mad but please talk to me. I প্রণয় you. Ex
I cringed at the last three words I knew I had no right to say that to her especially after what I was putting her through. No Reply. I decided to go around and bang on her door until she answered after about 10 মিনিট she still wasn’t opening it up. I began to worry. She wouldn’t do anything stupid! Would she…? I had to shake that out of my head I couldn’t stand anything happening to her.
Bella please im worried আপনি wont answer your door talk to me!!. Ex
I needed her to reply! Was beginning to get pissed now.
Bella Swan! আপনি better reply to my texts I need to talk to you!.Ex
She never replied so I went back to my house and when I got in my mum was waiting for me.
(M) Edward what’s wrong? আপনি look terrible. (M) I really didn’t want to have this conversation right now. (E) Nothing Mum! Just leave me alone please! (E) before she could reply I ran up to my room and lay on my বিছানা where I fell asleep. About an ঘন্টা later I woke up to my phone beeping. I picked it up and saw there was one new message from Bella. Thank God I thought to myself.
আপনি don’t need to be sorry! I will see আপনি if and when I come back! Goodbye. B What? Where was she going? She couldn’t leave me I needed her! I replied as quick as my fingers would allow.
Where are আপনি going? Please don’t leave me I need you. I প্রণয় you. Ex It was true I did need her. She replied almost as soon as I had sent it.
Its none of your business where I am going all আপনি need to know is it is somewhere we cant interfere with each other and don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me! –B
I read all the message and the words stood out. ‘don’t lie. আপনি don’t প্রণয় me!’ with everything that was going on I was completely sure about the fact I loved her and she would know one way অথবা another. One day.
Why are আপনি being like this? Tell me let’s talk about it. I need you. And make no mistake Isabella Swan. I প্রণয় You! -E . দ্বারা this point I was in tears. It may be hard to admit but she is the most important thing in my life. I waited for a reply and when I got it I wished I hadn’t.
Goodbye Edward.
At that moment my life came crashing down. She was serious. She was leaving. What had I done?
I sat at my ডেস্ক and felt like the burning man was taking over me.
Chapter 6
B|POV
2 weeks later.
I had successfully managed to spend 2 weeks without Edward. No Talking. No Looking. No Communication! Tomorrow I would be flying to Jacksonville to spend time with my Mother for 7 weeks. I had to get away from here. Away from him. I began packing I placed clothes, my I -pod, mp3 player and laptop in my bag too. I then moved the case to the door of my room. I went over and opened the curtains so he could see me packing up my life because of him. As soon as I opened them I saw him sitting at his ডেস্ক staring at my window, when he realized I had opened the curtains for the first time in weeks a small smile spread across his face. He must have thought I had forgiven him. God he was wrong. I turned and walked to my ডেস্ক so that my back was to him. As much as I hated him right now I needed him to know why I left so I decided to write him a letter that Charlie could give to him once I had left.
Dear Edward, দ্বারা the time আপনি receive this letter আপনি will know that I have left. As much as I don’t want to talk আপনি after the past 16 years of friendship I thought I owed আপনি this. I shall be away for seven weeks. As much as I want to say when I come back stay out of my life, I can’t because I have been keeping a big secret from আপনি for quite a while. Im in প্রণয় with you. So there আপনি have it, as much as I wish আপনি feel the same way it’s evident আপনি don’t and never will. I will see আপনি when I come back after im over you, your my best friend and I don’t want to lose that, ever! So আপনি can যন্ত্রপত্র me during the summer. And do not under any circumstances say আপনি প্রণয় me too, because it’s not fair on me. Goodbye Edward.
Bella.
I was now crying in the process of sealing the envelope. With that I lay in my বিছানা and cried myself to sleep again. Waking up in the morning I went down and ব্যক্ত to Charlie to give him the letter to give to Edward. I was looking out the window when arguing brought me out of my দিন dream. I went out to find Jacob and Edward fighting. Oh God I thought to myself. I noticed how terrible Edward looked. He looked like he had হারিয়ে গেছে weight and hadn’t slept for months. I walked over and grabbed Jacobs face and began to চুম্বন him passionately. As I broke free I turned to Edward who was close to tears. With that I ব্যক্ত Goodbye to both Edward and Jacob and left in the car not looking back.
Chapter 7
E|POV
2 weeks. 2 god damned weeks! That’s how long it had been since I talked to her. Every time I went near her she bolted as far away from me as fast as she could. I remained in the same place I had since the night she had left. Every waking মিনিট I would sit at the ডেস্ক and gaze over at her window hoping to catch a glimpse of her. She never shut her curtains not fully at least not in the 16 years I had been best বন্ধু with her for. About 15 মিনিট later she opened her curtains and a large grin had spread across my face. Has she forgiven me I thought to my-self, part of me hoping this was true but the other part knowing that it would never happen? I had hurt her too much. But still I kept hoping until she turned round and sat at her ডেস্ক with her back facing me. She hunched her back over and began writing. I then heard a chap at my door and since my parents weren’t in I would have to go down and answer the door when I did answer it, I wished I hadn’t it was Jacob Black. My Ex-Best friend. (E) What do আপনি want? (E) I snapped. (J) I want to know what আপনি done to make my girlfriend want to leave town? (J) He roared. (E) Well we both know why your dating her don’t we. And আপনি don’t deserve her as your girlfriend! আপনি treat her like a bloody মুষ্ট্যাঘাত bag! (E) I screamed. (J) And what do আপনি mean দ্বারা that ‘we both know why your dating her’ the answer to that would be I প্রণয় her. (J) (E) we both know that the only reason you’re going out with her is because I wanted her! আপনি told me as much! (E) I snapped. (J) And we both know the reason আপনি didn’t. Because আপনি didn’t think she would be easy. Well have I got news for you, she’s great absolutely great! She’s a screamer আপনি know? (J) And with that I snapped him and Bella didn’t oh god no! Just as I was about to introduce him to my left fist Bella came running out and grabbed Jacobs face. She’s gonna slap him I thought to myself, but no she started snogging him only to break away for air. At that point I believed everything that dog had ব্যক্ত about Bella and him and it made me sick. I could feel the tears stinging in the corner of my eyes. At that moment she broke away from him ব্যক্ত goodbye to him. Then turned to me. Oh god what was she going to do hug me, চুম্বন me? Sadly none of these (B) Goodbye Edward (B) and with that she was in the car waiting for Charlie. Charlie came out with an envelope and handed it to me nodding his head and then drove away. I no longer had the patience for Jacob Black; I walked into my house slamming the door shut and slouched down on my পালঙ্ক to read the letter.
Dear Edward, দ্বারা the time আপনি receive this letter আপনি will know that I have left. As much as I don’t want to talk আপনি after the past 16 years of friendship I thought I owed আপনি this. I shall be away for seven weeks. As much as I want to say when I come back stay out of my life, I can’t because I have been keeping a big secret from আপনি for quite a while. Im in প্রণয় with you. So there আপনি have it, as much as I wish আপনি feel the same way it’s evident আপনি don’t and never will. I will see আপনি when I come back after im over you, your my best friend and I don’t want to lose that, ever! So আপনি can যন্ত্রপত্র me during the summer. And do not under any circumstances say আপনি প্রণয় me too, because it’s not fair on me. Goodbye Edward.
Bella.
I was now physically sobbing. I couldn’t control it. She was in প্রণয় with me too all this time. I couldn’t handle it. I went into the রান্নাঘর and pulled out the first sharp thing I could find and took it to my wrists then everything went black…
