CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 মিনিট and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the সেকেন্ড most powerful ভ্যাম্পায়ার in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving অথবা breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are আপনি thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I ব্যক্ত again with আরো convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known আপনি for almost for 8 years. Don’t আপনি dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are আপনি sure আপনি want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. আপনি asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed আপনি and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ভ্যাম্পায়ার in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. আপনি guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ভ্যাম্পায়ার one দ্বারা one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a মিনিট rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in বিছানা and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t আপনি dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t আপনি dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I ব্যক্ত was right.” I screamed. “Don’t আপনি DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just দ্বারা the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know আপনি don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, আপনি have not failed. আপনি have won. আপনি have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, আপনি belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed আপনি have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make আপনি a crazy monster. It makes আপনি the wife that I প্রণয় and makes আপনি the amazing mother আপনি are. It makes আপনি the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if আপনি had to take down Aro and আপনি won. Though let us help আপনি when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, আপনি are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that আপনি are not alone. That আপনি have a whole big family downstairs and আপনি have Neisse and I. I will always be দ্বারা your side. If আপনি let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble আপনি are in. আপনি got to help. Even though what আপনি did out there was killer. It was amazing. আপনি got to teach me how to do some of that crap আপনি did.” I laughed and ব্যক্ত maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from আপনি missy. I understand আপনি are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn আপনি were when আপনি pushed us all away. Though just because আপনি as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy ভালুক that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the প্রণয় had for my পছন্দ brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about আপনি come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I প্রণয় আপনি baby girl” I ব্যক্ত and hugged her again. Edward sat down পরবর্তি to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 মিনিট later
Everyone filled into the room taking any আসন available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is প্রণয় and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 মিনিট and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the সেকেন্ড most powerful ভ্যাম্পায়ার in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving অথবা breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are আপনি thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I ব্যক্ত again with আরো convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known আপনি for almost for 8 years. Don’t আপনি dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are আপনি sure আপনি want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. আপনি asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed আপনি and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous ভ্যাম্পায়ার in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. আপনি guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful ভ্যাম্পায়ার one দ্বারা one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a মিনিট rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in বিছানা and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t আপনি dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t আপনি dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I ব্যক্ত was right.” I screamed. “Don’t আপনি DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just দ্বারা the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know আপনি don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, আপনি have not failed. আপনি have won. আপনি have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, আপনি belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed আপনি have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make আপনি a crazy monster. It makes আপনি the wife that I প্রণয় and makes আপনি the amazing mother আপনি are. It makes আপনি the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if আপনি had to take down Aro and আপনি won. Though let us help আপনি when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, আপনি are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that আপনি are not alone. That আপনি have a whole big family downstairs and আপনি have Neisse and I. I will always be দ্বারা your side. If আপনি let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble আপনি are in. আপনি got to help. Even though what আপনি did out there was killer. It was amazing. আপনি got to teach me how to do some of that crap আপনি did.” I laughed and ব্যক্ত maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from আপনি missy. I understand আপনি are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn আপনি were when আপনি pushed us all away. Though just because আপনি as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy ভালুক that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the প্রণয় had for my পছন্দ brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about আপনি come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I প্রণয় আপনি baby girl” I ব্যক্ত and hugged her again. Edward sat down পরবর্তি to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 মিনিট later
Everyone filled into the room taking any আসন available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is প্রণয় and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
me and indie were 3 weeks into our imortal lifes. aro had explained that we were the new volturi members but, he had also explained we had gifts.
"we have a vampire in our ranks, who senses gifts in other vampires." Aro had said, "he senses that আপনি two both, have gifts." he concluded.
"So if we have gifts, what are they?" imortal life had made indie 10 times আরো nosey than before.
"Young ones," aro ব্যক্ত in a sweet voice, "your gifts are that, if আপনি imagine what আপনি want, it will happen."
After that me and indie went back to our room,"hayley?" indie asked
"yes." i answered putting down my book, "whats wrong?"
"I found this when we were out hunting." she handed me a flyer. the flyer had a picture of me and indie and it read 'MISSING'
"our parents are looking for us?" i asked...
we went silentg for 2 minuites.
"but we can't see them!" i said
"i know but i miss them!" she replied her cheerfull voice cold.
just then, Aro came in........
"we have a vampire in our ranks, who senses gifts in other vampires." Aro had said, "he senses that আপনি two both, have gifts." he concluded.
"So if we have gifts, what are they?" imortal life had made indie 10 times আরো nosey than before.
"Young ones," aro ব্যক্ত in a sweet voice, "your gifts are that, if আপনি imagine what আপনি want, it will happen."
After that me and indie went back to our room,"hayley?" indie asked
"yes." i answered putting down my book, "whats wrong?"
"I found this when we were out hunting." she handed me a flyer. the flyer had a picture of me and indie and it read 'MISSING'
"our parents are looking for us?" i asked...
we went silentg for 2 minuites.
"but we can't see them!" i said
"i know but i miss them!" she replied her cheerfull voice cold.
just then, Aro came in........
She talked about the most intimate scenes in the book in an interview with Hollywood Life.
"If আপনি really look at the books, how much are আপনি really seeing? I think [the movies] might wind up being saucier than the book because you’re actually seeing skin-on-skin and the horror of the birth scenes. We’re not shying away from it.”
She added. “We’re still debating the exact moment," Rosernberg said. "But it’ll fall down to the first half of Bella as a human and being pregnant and a newlywed and the সেকেন্ড half being Bella as a vampire and a parent. Somewhere in the middle of that, the break will come.”
The first installment of Breaking Dawn will hit theaters on November 18, 2011.
9. Inform him, as politely as possible, that he has grizzly in his teeth.
8. Ask who wears the pants in his relationship.
7. Try to stab him through the হৃদয় with a stake.
6. Tell him brawn is out, scrawn is in.
5. Inquires as to how he feels to be the least-liked Cullen male.
4. When he is around, wonder aloud what Rosalie calls him in bed.
3. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with that Jeep.
2. Ask if he is overcompensating for something with those muscles..
And the Number One way to annoy Emmett Cullen?
1. When he denies the above two claims, respond with “That’s not what Rosalie saaaaaid!”