I got home, where Reed was at the রান্নাঘর টেবিল playing poker with some বন্ধু and smoking. I walked up to the টেবিল and threw the bag onto the table. His বন্ধু all looked at it, gaping. Reed laughed.
"Good job, baby sister!" he said. He took the bag and inspected it. I smiled at his praise. He looked up at me and smiled. "But shouldn't আপনি be at school? If Nikolai finds out he'll bust your head in."
"So don't let him find out," I ব্যক্ত like it was an obvious answer. His buddies laughed. Reed shook his head at me, but a smile still played on his lips. He threw the bag back at me.
"Well then, get lost!" he laughed. I rolled my eyes and went to my room to change clothes. I swapped my baggy black jeans for grey skinny jeans, and my maroon hoddie for a black A7X sweatshirt. I stuffed the drugs into the front pouch of the hoodie and walked out of my room back to the kitchen. Apparently Reed didn't know I was still here.
"Uh, you'd better get out of here. Nikolai just called;he ব্যক্ত he was almost প্রথমপাতা from the store..." he said, sounding scared. I rolled my eyes at him.
"Seriously, Reed. Do আপনি really think I'm afraid of Nikolai?"
"You should be," a deep voice ব্যক্ত from behind me. My eyes widened, but I didn't turn around. Reed mirrored my expression, while his বন্ধু stifled their laughter. "I'm sorry guys, but I'm gonna have to ask আপনি all to leave." His বন্ধু grumbled and ব্যক্ত their goodbyes to Reed, then left. I frowned. I turned to see Nikolai, much taller and muscular than Reed, standing behind me with his arms folded.
"Go sit on the couch," he ordered. Unfortunately, as I walked past him, he noticed part of the plastic bag sticking out of my সোয়েটার pouch. Quickly and swiftly, he snatched the bad out of my pocket. His face grew red.
"Fuck," I grumbled.
***
"What do আপনি have to say for yourself?! Skipping school, and আরো drug dealing?! Do আপনি know what'll happen if আপনি get caught?!" Nikolai ranted, pacing back and forth in front of the couch. Reed sat down পরবর্তি to me, leaning casually against the arm of the couch.
"She won't, Nik. Trust me. This girl's good!" Reed said, sticking up for me. He leaned over and put his arm around my shoulders, messing up my hair. I pushed him away and smoothed it out again.
"Reed. Shut it. Harley, get rid of this," Nikolai said, throwing the bag at my stomach. I caught it, glared at him, and stalked off out of the apartment to outside where the garbage cans were. I sighed. There goes $30 into the trash...
"Hey, Harley." I looked up to see Carmine, arriving প্রথমপাতা from work. I waved at him. "Aren't আপনি supposed to be at school?" he asked. I ignored him and went back to the apartment, where he followed close behind. "What's her problem?" he asked as if I couldn't hear him.
"Nikki caught her skipping school, and with a bag of weed," Reed ব্যক্ত proudly. Nikolai growled.
"And you're grounded for a month, missy," he said, jabbing a finger in my direction. I flipped him off when his back was turned.
"Oh, but when it's Reed, it's fine, right?" I countered. Crap. I really shouldn't have ব্যক্ত that. Reed's eyes widened and for a বিভক্ত করা সেকেন্ড he looked like he'd kill me if he could. Nikolai turned on him then.
"What?! I thought আপনি were done with that shit!?" Nikolai shouted at him. Reed stuttered to find the right words.
"Well... আপনি see, I..." I escaped to my room. I really didn't want to see this go down. Plus I felt terrible for ratting out Reed too. I curled up on the futon and tried my best to sleep, but I couldn't. I was too awake. I heard Nikolai and Reed shouting at each other from the রান্নাঘর too, and Carmine's occasional neutral contribution to the arguement. I listened for a while. Their conversation actually making me feel drowsy. I blink and yawned, and then laid on my side to try and sleep.
I was woken দ্বারা an ear-splitting sound. I screamed and jumped up, my right thigh felt red hot. It was hot at first, and then I felt pain. I growled and cursed at it. I heard the neighbors downstairs and upstairs panic at the commotion. The guys came running in at once, and I turned to face them. Crap, crap, crap. I then remembered I'd left my gun in my pocket. It must've went off while I slept on it. I felt the blood dribbling down my leg, but I tried to remain cool.
"What the hell was that?!" Nikolai shouted.
"I, uh, it's nothing. It's just---" I began.
"It's what?!" Nikolai shouted.
"Would আপনি shut up and let me finish?!" I shouted. I reached in my pocket, which now had a bullet-sized hole in the pocket now, and pulled out the gun and held it out. "It went off in my pocket. It's fine."
"You slept with it in your pocket?! How could আপনি be so clueless?!" he shouted.
"Yeah, I'm fine, thanks for asking," I said. "And it's no big deal!" I insisted. Nikolai rolled his eyes at me.
"You call that fine?" Reed asked, pointing to my leg. The blood had bled through my pants now, leaving a long stream of deep red all down my thigh, knee, all the way down to my ankle.
"Oops," I muttered.
"Yeah, 'oops,'" Nikolai mocked. "Go to the bathroom and wash it up. You'd better pray to God that doesn't need stitches. Do আপনি know what'll happen if I take আপনি to the ER again?! This would be the third time in six months!"
"Ok, that last time wasn't my fault..." I said. "How was I supposed to know that guy had a switchblade?!"
"Harley, আপনি need to learn to not go off on anyone that looks at আপনি funny. Learn some self control. Now hand it over," he said, holding his hand out. I placed the gun into his palm. He stalked off to his room, slamming the door behind him. I'll probably never see that thing again in my life.
"Can আপনি walk?" Carmine asked, offering a hand.
"Yeah," I ব্যক্ত as I walked to the bathroom. Reed and Carmine walked behind me, hands out as if I'd fall অথবা something. Luckily, the bullet only grazed the শীর্ষ of my thigh. It was a miracle all right. It'd leave an ugly scar though. I left the bathroom, and went and sat on Reed's bed, otherwise known as the পালঙ্ক in the living room.
"How's your leg?" he asked.
"Fine," I said. Carmine plopped down পরবর্তি to us, holding a bowl of popcorn. He held it out to us and threw a handful of it into his mouth, missing আরো than half. "Fail," I told him. He stuck out his kernel-covered tongue at me and chuckled. I took some and sighed. "Why is Nikolai being such an ass?" I wondered aloud. Carmine swallowed. He hated it when any of us were mad at each other. He's "sensitive" as Nikolai used to put it.
"He's just worried about আপনি growing up," Reed offered. "You're our baby sis. We hate seeing আপনি getting so grown up." He pretended to wipe a tear away, and I threw some ভুট্টার খই into his face. "No, but seriously. আপনি know how protective he is. He's just worried about you."
"Well he shouldn't be. I cant take care of myself," I announced, folding my arms.
"Said the girl who nearly shot herself in the leg," Carmine whispered. I glared at him. Reed laughed.
"'How was I supposed to know he had a switchblade?'" Reed mimicked in a high pitched voice. I punched his shoulder. I grinned in victory when he frowned and rubbed his shoulder. "Ok, not to sound like Nikki, but I think it's time for bed." Thunder roared overhead. I cringed into Reed's side.
"Can I sleep here tonight?" I whimpered. I was a little ashamed, but that feeling went away when Reed put his arm around me.
"Sure, আপনি little wimp," he ব্যক্ত mockingly. I knew he didn't mean it though. Carmine curled up on my other side, and laid his head on my shoulder. This, I didn't mind about having Reed and Carmine around. They got on my nerves sometimes, but they were always there for me. I closed my eyes.
"Good job, baby sister!" he said. He took the bag and inspected it. I smiled at his praise. He looked up at me and smiled. "But shouldn't আপনি be at school? If Nikolai finds out he'll bust your head in."
"So don't let him find out," I ব্যক্ত like it was an obvious answer. His buddies laughed. Reed shook his head at me, but a smile still played on his lips. He threw the bag back at me.
"Well then, get lost!" he laughed. I rolled my eyes and went to my room to change clothes. I swapped my baggy black jeans for grey skinny jeans, and my maroon hoddie for a black A7X sweatshirt. I stuffed the drugs into the front pouch of the hoodie and walked out of my room back to the kitchen. Apparently Reed didn't know I was still here.
"Uh, you'd better get out of here. Nikolai just called;he ব্যক্ত he was almost প্রথমপাতা from the store..." he said, sounding scared. I rolled my eyes at him.
"Seriously, Reed. Do আপনি really think I'm afraid of Nikolai?"
"You should be," a deep voice ব্যক্ত from behind me. My eyes widened, but I didn't turn around. Reed mirrored my expression, while his বন্ধু stifled their laughter. "I'm sorry guys, but I'm gonna have to ask আপনি all to leave." His বন্ধু grumbled and ব্যক্ত their goodbyes to Reed, then left. I frowned. I turned to see Nikolai, much taller and muscular than Reed, standing behind me with his arms folded.
"Go sit on the couch," he ordered. Unfortunately, as I walked past him, he noticed part of the plastic bag sticking out of my সোয়েটার pouch. Quickly and swiftly, he snatched the bad out of my pocket. His face grew red.
"Fuck," I grumbled.
***
"What do আপনি have to say for yourself?! Skipping school, and আরো drug dealing?! Do আপনি know what'll happen if আপনি get caught?!" Nikolai ranted, pacing back and forth in front of the couch. Reed sat down পরবর্তি to me, leaning casually against the arm of the couch.
"She won't, Nik. Trust me. This girl's good!" Reed said, sticking up for me. He leaned over and put his arm around my shoulders, messing up my hair. I pushed him away and smoothed it out again.
"Reed. Shut it. Harley, get rid of this," Nikolai said, throwing the bag at my stomach. I caught it, glared at him, and stalked off out of the apartment to outside where the garbage cans were. I sighed. There goes $30 into the trash...
"Hey, Harley." I looked up to see Carmine, arriving প্রথমপাতা from work. I waved at him. "Aren't আপনি supposed to be at school?" he asked. I ignored him and went back to the apartment, where he followed close behind. "What's her problem?" he asked as if I couldn't hear him.
"Nikki caught her skipping school, and with a bag of weed," Reed ব্যক্ত proudly. Nikolai growled.
"And you're grounded for a month, missy," he said, jabbing a finger in my direction. I flipped him off when his back was turned.
"Oh, but when it's Reed, it's fine, right?" I countered. Crap. I really shouldn't have ব্যক্ত that. Reed's eyes widened and for a বিভক্ত করা সেকেন্ড he looked like he'd kill me if he could. Nikolai turned on him then.
"What?! I thought আপনি were done with that shit!?" Nikolai shouted at him. Reed stuttered to find the right words.
"Well... আপনি see, I..." I escaped to my room. I really didn't want to see this go down. Plus I felt terrible for ratting out Reed too. I curled up on the futon and tried my best to sleep, but I couldn't. I was too awake. I heard Nikolai and Reed shouting at each other from the রান্নাঘর too, and Carmine's occasional neutral contribution to the arguement. I listened for a while. Their conversation actually making me feel drowsy. I blink and yawned, and then laid on my side to try and sleep.
I was woken দ্বারা an ear-splitting sound. I screamed and jumped up, my right thigh felt red hot. It was hot at first, and then I felt pain. I growled and cursed at it. I heard the neighbors downstairs and upstairs panic at the commotion. The guys came running in at once, and I turned to face them. Crap, crap, crap. I then remembered I'd left my gun in my pocket. It must've went off while I slept on it. I felt the blood dribbling down my leg, but I tried to remain cool.
"What the hell was that?!" Nikolai shouted.
"I, uh, it's nothing. It's just---" I began.
"It's what?!" Nikolai shouted.
"Would আপনি shut up and let me finish?!" I shouted. I reached in my pocket, which now had a bullet-sized hole in the pocket now, and pulled out the gun and held it out. "It went off in my pocket. It's fine."
"You slept with it in your pocket?! How could আপনি be so clueless?!" he shouted.
"Yeah, I'm fine, thanks for asking," I said. "And it's no big deal!" I insisted. Nikolai rolled his eyes at me.
"You call that fine?" Reed asked, pointing to my leg. The blood had bled through my pants now, leaving a long stream of deep red all down my thigh, knee, all the way down to my ankle.
"Oops," I muttered.
"Yeah, 'oops,'" Nikolai mocked. "Go to the bathroom and wash it up. You'd better pray to God that doesn't need stitches. Do আপনি know what'll happen if I take আপনি to the ER again?! This would be the third time in six months!"
"Ok, that last time wasn't my fault..." I said. "How was I supposed to know that guy had a switchblade?!"
"Harley, আপনি need to learn to not go off on anyone that looks at আপনি funny. Learn some self control. Now hand it over," he said, holding his hand out. I placed the gun into his palm. He stalked off to his room, slamming the door behind him. I'll probably never see that thing again in my life.
"Can আপনি walk?" Carmine asked, offering a hand.
"Yeah," I ব্যক্ত as I walked to the bathroom. Reed and Carmine walked behind me, hands out as if I'd fall অথবা something. Luckily, the bullet only grazed the শীর্ষ of my thigh. It was a miracle all right. It'd leave an ugly scar though. I left the bathroom, and went and sat on Reed's bed, otherwise known as the পালঙ্ক in the living room.
"How's your leg?" he asked.
"Fine," I said. Carmine plopped down পরবর্তি to us, holding a bowl of popcorn. He held it out to us and threw a handful of it into his mouth, missing আরো than half. "Fail," I told him. He stuck out his kernel-covered tongue at me and chuckled. I took some and sighed. "Why is Nikolai being such an ass?" I wondered aloud. Carmine swallowed. He hated it when any of us were mad at each other. He's "sensitive" as Nikolai used to put it.
"He's just worried about আপনি growing up," Reed offered. "You're our baby sis. We hate seeing আপনি getting so grown up." He pretended to wipe a tear away, and I threw some ভুট্টার খই into his face. "No, but seriously. আপনি know how protective he is. He's just worried about you."
"Well he shouldn't be. I cant take care of myself," I announced, folding my arms.
"Said the girl who nearly shot herself in the leg," Carmine whispered. I glared at him. Reed laughed.
"'How was I supposed to know he had a switchblade?'" Reed mimicked in a high pitched voice. I punched his shoulder. I grinned in victory when he frowned and rubbed his shoulder. "Ok, not to sound like Nikki, but I think it's time for bed." Thunder roared overhead. I cringed into Reed's side.
"Can I sleep here tonight?" I whimpered. I was a little ashamed, but that feeling went away when Reed put his arm around me.
"Sure, আপনি little wimp," he ব্যক্ত mockingly. I knew he didn't mean it though. Carmine curled up on my other side, and laid his head on my shoulder. This, I didn't mind about having Reed and Carmine around. They got on my nerves sometimes, but they were always there for me. I closed my eyes.
“I’m so sorry,” I whispered. Shrinking into myself, I began to run away. The man wouldn’t catch me. But something held me back. I went back to him and reappeared. “Help me.” I wasn’t even sure he heard me I ব্যক্ত it so low. Suddenly, my body couldn’t take the pain. There was a buzzing in my ears, a pounding in my head, and spots in my vision. It was then the darkness swallowed me whole.
I don't talk about this on a sheet
I want to everybody see
What আপনি do of me
I'm become a princess
with a knight who not fearless
I want to watch a cloudless sky
because my হৃদয় and my eyes cry
Chorus
It is what I want
It is what I need
And never other thing
that the প্রণয় which I want
The only thing I know
It's I'm better when আপনি are
Near to me, did আপনি know?
And I want that আপনি are
Chorus
It's like
I have a ছুরি in my back
It's like
I don't can stay in the black
Without what I want
Without what I need
Chorus x3
You're all I want
I'll be what আপনি need
And ever other thing
If it's what আপনি want
People say ফুলেরডালি are beautiful.
They're beautiful, that's true.
They also provide oxygen for us.
People say weeds are ugly.
They apparently have no value,
Nor do they deserve to live.
I'm not talking weeds that grow in the garden.
I'm talking about wild plants.
Well, weeds are flowers, too.
Just give them a chance.
Once আপনি get to know them, they're amazing.
They can be just as pretty as flowers.
I may not be an orchid অথবা a sunflower.
I may not be a rose অথবা an iris.
I'm আরো of a dandelion.
I may be a weed, but I'm not so bad.
Give me half a chance. I'm pretty neat.
So, weeds are flowers, too.
Get to know them. They're pretty great.
They're beautiful, that's true.
They also provide oxygen for us.
People say weeds are ugly.
They apparently have no value,
Nor do they deserve to live.
I'm not talking weeds that grow in the garden.
I'm talking about wild plants.
Well, weeds are flowers, too.
Just give them a chance.
Once আপনি get to know them, they're amazing.
They can be just as pretty as flowers.
I may not be an orchid অথবা a sunflower.
I may not be a rose অথবা an iris.
I'm আরো of a dandelion.
I may be a weed, but I'm not so bad.
Give me half a chance. I'm pretty neat.
So, weeds are flowers, too.
Get to know them. They're pretty great.
I will remember আপনি always.
Will আপনি remember me?
That is a প্রশ্ন for আপনি to answer,
And not me.
I promise
That I will always
Keep the flame of memory alive.
The fun that we had will never
Be forgotten.
Even on foggy evenings,
The darkest of nights,
আপনি will always be in my heart.
For I know that আপনি will help me
Keep the flame of memory blazing
Always.
All the good times that we had,
All the fun that we had,
All the tears that we let out,
All the anger we let out
Will never be wasted.
Because every মিনিট of it
Is in my heart.
I will tend to the fire
Every night,
Recollecting all the memories we have
Knowing that the flame of memory
Is the brightest flame of all
And it will blaze on.
Will আপনি remember me?
That is a প্রশ্ন for আপনি to answer,
And not me.
I promise
That I will always
Keep the flame of memory alive.
The fun that we had will never
Be forgotten.
Even on foggy evenings,
The darkest of nights,
আপনি will always be in my heart.
For I know that আপনি will help me
Keep the flame of memory blazing
Always.
All the good times that we had,
All the fun that we had,
All the tears that we let out,
All the anger we let out
Will never be wasted.
Because every মিনিট of it
Is in my heart.
I will tend to the fire
Every night,
Recollecting all the memories we have
Knowing that the flame of memory
Is the brightest flame of all
And it will blaze on.