who am I ?
what can I do?
I'm self-centered, self-induldged, self-absorbed, hateful, short-tepered, implusive, in a complete state of denial, confused and lonely, yet I don't try to think.
a creature of the night
a princess of darkness
I long for light
colors
but all is midnight
and my only companions are the moon and the darkness
thought it comforts me when no one can
I wish to be out of darkness for once
to be clear, understood, unquestioned, and loved.
but who am I to ask for this?
who am I to want this?
is that what makes me human?
why?
all I want to know is why?

Step, creak, step, creak! the floor boards speak to me as I slowly tremble on its hard, splintery wood. Each step feels so daring. I feel danger crawling up my dangling spine. Thump, thump, my হৃদয় tries to refuse to my wishes of moving forward. Nothing has happened so far.
I carefully make my way towards the forbidden wooden chair. Creeeeeeek! goes the আসন as I lower my self to its level and sit on it. SHHHHHHHH!
“What was that?” I whisper to my self with my eyes wide open. I slowly start to climb the fence to view the streets of emptiness and quietness. My হৃদয় starts to beat even louder. Thump, thump. I slowly turn my anxious head to look. But it was only a car passing দ্বারা my house.

প্রণয় আপনি forever is about a girl who lives in a town, and has a few friends, she is every teachers "Perfect Student". A new boy and his sister সরানো to town, and they fall in love. her father doesnt approve of the boy. the girl and boy plan to run away 2gether with his sister and her boyfriend. but her father makes her সরানো towns. she is forced 2 go 2 a all girls school, she is হারিয়ে গেছে and alone, so she turns 2 suicide. the boy and his sister find her and they take her out of school and run away 2gether and promise to প্রণয় each other forever. but her father finds out and shoots the boy, the girl is in pain and so is his sister so they run away from their lives and live new ones, under false identities, until her father finds her and kills both of them. (btw the father is crazy)

ok so now i need ur opinions. is it 2 borin, অথবা does it have a chance...
please tell me your true opinions.

i cant take any more
of these drugs.
the poison,
attacking at my veins,
আগুন spreading through,
cant breathe.
but i need these,
and i must feel this
in order to get better.
no matter what it takes,
i have to get over you.
and even if this is
the most irrational way
to get over you,
i still intend on doing this.
i dont care how many needles
i must pierce through my arms,
how many seizures i must suffer through,
whatever it takes.
im going to do my best
to forget আপনি even exist.
i dont care how much cocaine i snuff,
how many pills i take,
how many cuts
slice through my skin,
অথবা even if i end up
killing myself in the process.
i would be so lucky.
so,whatever it takes
to get over you
is the extreme
im going to have to
accomplish.
i dont care if i live,
i dont care if i die,
i dont care if all of this
is even real অথবা not.
im just going to do
whatever it takes
to get আপনি out of my mind.
even if i die...

As I grow to think about it আরো and more, and understand it আরো and more, I see that, as the saying goes, life is like a game of chess. But I have made my own saying up, which seems আরো true to me. Life is like a venture into the unknown. আপনি never know what might await আপনি next, আরো dangers, অথবা even happy successes. But one thing is for certain, আপনি cannot always be happy, অথবা always be depressed. Life is like a mountain. আপনি climb it, face all the challenges life brings you. আপনি dump and break up, আপনি win and make up. Things happen. আপনি can't control it most of the time. So never blame yourself for bad things that happened to আপনি in life. Life gets confusing a lot. But I still strive to reach my goals. Without goals, I would be like a broken-winged bird that could not fly. I would be aimless. I would not become better, build my character. Life is like a venture into the unknown, and I believe that to be true. So true.