When I was 13, I heard the worst news ever.
My best friend had been kid-napped, and murdered.
I couldn't believe it.
As a matter of fact, I didn't.
I yelled and screamed. I kicked. I cried and tried to convince myself that it was all a lie.
I finally cracked and admitted it to myself when the news came on.
And they showed her dead body, lying there.
I missed her.
~
Two months later...
There was a knock on the door. I got off my বিছানা and went to answer it.
It was the detective.
"Miss Johnson?" "Um.. yes?" "We found out who killed Alyssa." I gasped. "Come in!" He stepped inside. "I am only informing আপনি because Mrs. Carnin told me that আপনি were like family." "I nodded. "There was a questioning before the court trial. The killer admitted." I sniffled. "He also gave this note to the deputy." He handed me a crinkled sheet of paper. My hands shook and as I took it.
Dear family & friends,
Hi guys. I know that this note will be that last thing I write in my earth life.
I just wanted to tell আপনি to go on with your lives. I will always be with you, no matter what. Please don't let this ruin you.
Adam- I প্রণয় you. So much. I want আপনি to know that there are other girls and I will never ever forget আপনি and I pray আপনি won't forget me. প্রণয় you. ♥
Kaytlin- Hi besty (: I প্রণয় you! Don't forget me. I'll always be with you. I won't forget our mani pedis অথবা our sleepovers/moviedates. Our plan to be besties forever is still in action. Stay beautiful. ♥
I started crying.
Mommy, Daddy & Sierra- Mom & Dad, I learned everything I know from আপনি guys. আপনি brought me up in the perfect way and I know that did the right thing. I প্রণয় আপনি guys.♥ Please don't tell Sierra about me till' she's 16. I don't want her to be devastated. She should just live her life. She'll know when she needs to. And when আপনি tell her, let her read this part.
Sierra- When I had to change আপনি and feed you, I complained. But I realize now that the short amount of time I had with আপনি was so important. Please, remember that your big sissy is watching over আপনি and loves you. ♥ (:
Granny, Grampy, Mawmaw, Poppy, Aunt Kayhsen, Aunt Melody, Uncle Dominic, and Uncle Matthew- Thanks for being the best family ever. আপনি guys, mom, and dad should know that I প্রণয় আপনি guys and owe আপনি all I know. I প্রণয় আপনি sooo much! ♥
I'll always be watching over ya'll. Stay gorgeous. Oh, and put me in something teal, my পছন্দ color.♥ প্রণয় আপনি all! ♥♥♥♥♥
প্রণয় times infinity,
Alyssa Marie Kayhsen Carnin ♥ (:
I dropped the note and sobbed.
~
Twenty years later
My name is Caroline Abigail Johnson, and I am a kindergarten teacher. When I was 13, my best friend was killed. But she told me not to let that ruin me. And I didn't.
I married a friend of her boyfriend. He is perfect and beautiful and I was she'd been my maid of honor, dressed in yellow like I swore she'd be.
She was watching from Heaven though.
I thank her for the time she spent with me. For the tears she cried with me when my first boyfriend dumped me. When my cat ran away. For the facials at the spa and all the shoes, nail polish, and clothes she lent me. I thank her for the giggles, the tickets to all the Twilight movies, the help with math, for the time she spent with me. I thank her for being there.
I remembered her like she asked. I know she remembered me.
~
My best friend had been kid-napped, and murdered.
I couldn't believe it.
As a matter of fact, I didn't.
I yelled and screamed. I kicked. I cried and tried to convince myself that it was all a lie.
I finally cracked and admitted it to myself when the news came on.
And they showed her dead body, lying there.
I missed her.
~
Two months later...
There was a knock on the door. I got off my বিছানা and went to answer it.
It was the detective.
"Miss Johnson?" "Um.. yes?" "We found out who killed Alyssa." I gasped. "Come in!" He stepped inside. "I am only informing আপনি because Mrs. Carnin told me that আপনি were like family." "I nodded. "There was a questioning before the court trial. The killer admitted." I sniffled. "He also gave this note to the deputy." He handed me a crinkled sheet of paper. My hands shook and as I took it.
Dear family & friends,
Hi guys. I know that this note will be that last thing I write in my earth life.
I just wanted to tell আপনি to go on with your lives. I will always be with you, no matter what. Please don't let this ruin you.
Adam- I প্রণয় you. So much. I want আপনি to know that there are other girls and I will never ever forget আপনি and I pray আপনি won't forget me. প্রণয় you. ♥
Kaytlin- Hi besty (: I প্রণয় you! Don't forget me. I'll always be with you. I won't forget our mani pedis অথবা our sleepovers/moviedates. Our plan to be besties forever is still in action. Stay beautiful. ♥
I started crying.
Mommy, Daddy & Sierra- Mom & Dad, I learned everything I know from আপনি guys. আপনি brought me up in the perfect way and I know that did the right thing. I প্রণয় আপনি guys.♥ Please don't tell Sierra about me till' she's 16. I don't want her to be devastated. She should just live her life. She'll know when she needs to. And when আপনি tell her, let her read this part.
Sierra- When I had to change আপনি and feed you, I complained. But I realize now that the short amount of time I had with আপনি was so important. Please, remember that your big sissy is watching over আপনি and loves you. ♥ (:
Granny, Grampy, Mawmaw, Poppy, Aunt Kayhsen, Aunt Melody, Uncle Dominic, and Uncle Matthew- Thanks for being the best family ever. আপনি guys, mom, and dad should know that I প্রণয় আপনি guys and owe আপনি all I know. I প্রণয় আপনি sooo much! ♥
I'll always be watching over ya'll. Stay gorgeous. Oh, and put me in something teal, my পছন্দ color.♥ প্রণয় আপনি all! ♥♥♥♥♥
প্রণয় times infinity,
Alyssa Marie Kayhsen Carnin ♥ (:
I dropped the note and sobbed.
~
Twenty years later
My name is Caroline Abigail Johnson, and I am a kindergarten teacher. When I was 13, my best friend was killed. But she told me not to let that ruin me. And I didn't.
I married a friend of her boyfriend. He is perfect and beautiful and I was she'd been my maid of honor, dressed in yellow like I swore she'd be.
She was watching from Heaven though.
I thank her for the time she spent with me. For the tears she cried with me when my first boyfriend dumped me. When my cat ran away. For the facials at the spa and all the shoes, nail polish, and clothes she lent me. I thank her for the giggles, the tickets to all the Twilight movies, the help with math, for the time she spent with me. I thank her for being there.
I remembered her like she asked. I know she remembered me.
~
The pain আপনি caused isn't what scarred me
The burning tears আপনি left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my হৃদয় beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain আপনি left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend আপনি were when আপনি were here
But the legacy in my হৃদয় that আপনি left!
The burning tears আপনি left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my হৃদয় beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain আপনি left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend আপনি were when আপনি were here
But the legacy in my হৃদয় that আপনি left!
There I was. *sigh* Just sitting there, waiting for him. Who? আপনি ask? My crush, Patrick Wellsiben, he was the one for me. Let alone, him being THE most জনপ্রিয় boy in school, I was known as a loser. I was the omega of the নেকড়ে pack. What am I talking about? Nevermind. My conscience says "Ask him out!", but my guts say "Don't do it you! He's gonna say no!" I don't know what to do! He comes near me and says "Hey." I stand there like a scarecrow smiling. "I feel stupid." "So stupid." Why shouldn't I get the attention from populars? I have short, thick black hair, I wear tank tops all the time, regular jeans and converse. So much for fitting in.
It's Funny, I Use To Be Popular. At First Some People Loved Me And Others Hated Me. Now Everyone Hates Me. Even My Old Best Friends. আপনি See, I Always Found A Flaw In Everyone And Used It To Hurt Them. Not Physicly Hurt. I Made Them Feel Horrible About Them Selves. I Was The Reason আপনি Cried On The Way Home. The Reason আপনি Fake Sicked. Of Course Karma Came And Hit Me Like A Ton Of Bricks. I Try Hard To Be Nice, But No One At School Pays Attention To Me. Except Teachers. I Even Tried Sitting With My Old Friends.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are আপনি Doing Here?" ব্যক্ত Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I ব্যক্ত Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," ব্যক্ত Victoria Khan Placing Her বই On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are আপনি Doing Here?" ব্যক্ত Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I ব্যক্ত Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," ব্যক্ত Victoria Khan Placing Her বই On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.