So Analisa and I walked slowly through her village. I looked around as we walked and everyone looked very happy and cheerful. I was very confused. "Shouldn't they be sad?" I asked. "NOT happy-go-lucky?" Analisa chuckled and replied. " There is no need to be sad. For we have food, shelter, and each other." I felt very bad. Just a few hours পূর্বে I had yelled at my mom for getting mad at me and ran outside. I started to cry again. I sat in the পান্না green grass,we had walked into a field,
Analisa asked "What is wrong?" I replied "I want to go home" Analisa ব্যক্ত "That would be easier if I knew where আপনি lived. Anyways, we need আপনি here. আপনি cannot leave. I'm very sorry." That didn't help me at all. I layed down on the soft ঘাস and cryed my eyes out.
Analisa asked "What is wrong?" I replied "I want to go home" Analisa ব্যক্ত "That would be easier if I knew where আপনি lived. Anyways, we need আপনি here. আপনি cannot leave. I'm very sorry." That didn't help me at all. I layed down on the soft ঘাস and cryed my eyes out.
Sometimes its Easier to inore the truth
to forget about everything
to sit in a closet and hide forever
Sometimes its Easier, to blame yourself
To think its your falt
To প্রদর্শনী no emotion
Sometimes It's easier to keep everything inside
to not let anyone know
to hide everything.
To me, Its easier to say something
To talk
to cry
Its easier to Feel Emotions
Anger, rage, Sadness,
but not fear
Fear is my enemey
He wants to take over my mind
Keep me locked up inside.
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being locked in my own world
I'm tired of being a prisoner.
I will not be afraid,
I will not Let him Win
to forget about everything
to sit in a closet and hide forever
Sometimes its Easier, to blame yourself
To think its your falt
To প্রদর্শনী no emotion
Sometimes It's easier to keep everything inside
to not let anyone know
to hide everything.
To me, Its easier to say something
To talk
to cry
Its easier to Feel Emotions
Anger, rage, Sadness,
but not fear
Fear is my enemey
He wants to take over my mind
Keep me locked up inside.
I'm tired of being scared
I'm tired of being locked in my own world
I'm tired of being a prisoner.
I will not be afraid,
I will not Let him Win
I loved to write songs. These beautiful poems of love, heartbreak, life and misery. I still do. Shame they'll never reach the world as I hoped.
But, life is life and death is well, death. I wish I could still play with Eyes Of The Wolf, my old band. I remember the lullaby I wrote for Jannet when she had nightmares.
'Prr, Prr
Of the Cat on the mat so peaceful
Cheep, Cheep
Of the Bird in the garden so alive
Neigh, Neigh
Of the Horse on the racecourse so সত্বর
Woof, Woof
Of the Pup in the tulips so playful
But now please my dear Jannet rest
So tomorrow আপনি take life's পরবর্তি test'
I still sing it to her every night. But she can't hear me now. Maybe i'm just not গান গাওয়া loud enough. Sometimes she hears me sing a few lines. I know because sometimes when I sing she'll start crying. I don't know why. Maybe she misses me. অথবা maybe I scare her. I don't know. The world is a very strange place
But, life is life and death is well, death. I wish I could still play with Eyes Of The Wolf, my old band. I remember the lullaby I wrote for Jannet when she had nightmares.
'Prr, Prr
Of the Cat on the mat so peaceful
Cheep, Cheep
Of the Bird in the garden so alive
Neigh, Neigh
Of the Horse on the racecourse so সত্বর
Woof, Woof
Of the Pup in the tulips so playful
But now please my dear Jannet rest
So tomorrow আপনি take life's পরবর্তি test'
I still sing it to her every night. But she can't hear me now. Maybe i'm just not গান গাওয়া loud enough. Sometimes she hears me sing a few lines. I know because sometimes when I sing she'll start crying. I don't know why. Maybe she misses me. অথবা maybe I scare her. I don't know. The world is a very strange place
Heyy there, I know in my last entry I ব্যক্ত I would write on Friday- but I didn't. Theres actually loads of things that have happened to me in the last few days/week. Im not gonna tell আপনি though! I had no মতামত on the last entry but as soon as I get some feedback im gonna start লেখা to আপনি again- Im a very busy person. I go to school, I play football (soccer-(Im english)-) along with my লেখা I also sing alot so I have many things to do/practice. Go look for my last entry and আপনি will understand partly why im jabbering on :) প্রণয় to the people of the earth~ Cait xxx- 20th September 2011
The car crash changed my life. It changed so much, that i'm not even living anymore. I walk the earth as a kinderd-spirit. Dead, forever. I follow my family sometimes. At one stage they actually thought they had a মাউস infestation. For the one hundredth time i'm sorry I broke your vase,Jannet. My daughter, she loves collecting china and other lovely trinkets and stuff like that. For a sixteen বছর old she does have a lot. But Mike on the other hand, he loves cars,wants to become a famous race car driver. I worry for him, making his dreams so young, I did too. And look where it got me! Dead in my husband's car right in front of my kids! Of course, that was many years ago. On the road to becoming a famous song writer.
Memories and grief of my heart
Are still buried somewhere
I can’t cry neither I can freely laugh
What if they don’t know my past
I have not forget it yet
I still remember the same Zean with the same Zeal
But not in flashes neither in cars
In backstage of life with trembling hunger
Hunger in eyes and lips dry
No money in pocket but Zeal on shoulder
With memories of ‘Love’ and burning heart
Now my clothes are branded
And my shoes are best, pocket heavy with dollars
But with this all my হৃদয় is all heavy
With secrets of past
Pleasures can bury them but cannot vanish
I still look অগ্রবর্তী to death
When all my secrets will disappear, my pain will end
Also with my life..end will come to my BAD MEMORIES.
Are still buried somewhere
I can’t cry neither I can freely laugh
What if they don’t know my past
I have not forget it yet
I still remember the same Zean with the same Zeal
But not in flashes neither in cars
In backstage of life with trembling hunger
Hunger in eyes and lips dry
No money in pocket but Zeal on shoulder
With memories of ‘Love’ and burning heart
Now my clothes are branded
And my shoes are best, pocket heavy with dollars
But with this all my হৃদয় is all heavy
With secrets of past
Pleasures can bury them but cannot vanish
I still look অগ্রবর্তী to death
When all my secrets will disappear, my pain will end
Also with my life..end will come to my BAD MEMORIES.