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Alison Cromwell was on the floor. Her usual place this summer. Holding her self in one peace. Do I repel men অথবা what? She thought. Her boyfriend of 5 months, Trevor, just set her a text saying, ‘Sorry but this isn’t going to work out.’ Translation to her was ‘I found some one better.’ To any one of her siblings it would appear that she has fallen asleep. But with a flick of the wrist she changed the XM station. She believed সঙ্গীত is the key to every thing. There is a song for make-ups, breakups, and child ঘোমটা romances. And for every song there was a story.
The song Thinking of You was on. Instantly she thought of her 8th grade প্রণয় triangle. Cute, Active, Cocky, Nathaniel Goode was the biggest jerk in the whole world. But Alison wouldn’t have ব্যক্ত that when she went out with him. He was just a rebound that lasted to long. Her mind then changed to Marcus Castillo. He was shy, sweet and gorgeous. The complete opposite of Nathaniel. But what do আপনি do when the প্রণয় আপনি your life leaving আপনি with only a note that ব্যক্ত ‘be happy. find প্রণয় again’. He could have ব্যক্ত so much more. He left it with his younger brother. Dominick. Doing only as Marcus asked Alison went out with Nathaniel and every kiss; every hug only dug the knives into her হৃদয় deeper. She could only think of Marcus on the Hollywood Sunset looking at all the hot movie stars. It made her nauseous just remembering. With another flick of the wrist, she changed it.
Those two boys were her everything. Why she was who she was. Love Story. Marcus was her Romeo. If she were ever able to see him again it would be প্রণয় at first sight. Marcus was deadly cute; he had hair dark brown, spiked into the classic fo-hawk. Light hazel eyes that could take আপনি around in circles. Wonderfully jagged teeth, he had to many candies but whose to say he couldn’t. His mother was a drunk, the sent him to live with his birth dad. Who was married and had 3 children with the wife from hell. Marcus was easily accepted দ্বারা his half brothers. But the wife not so much. It was her fault Alison হারিয়ে গেছে her love. Alison changed the channel.
Hot N’ Cold. There is only one boy, that is hot and cold, yes then no, in then out, up then down. That boy Alison went out with for two months too long. She has never encountered someone she could প্রণয় then hate all in the same go around. Nathaniel was a big time Athlete. He played in their Private schools বাস্কেটবল team and YAFL for the Raptor. Alison was a Cheerleader at the Private school, she lived through for 3 horrific years. 14. It’s a bad number for her if the number one অথবা four was in it she bailed out. Nathaniel was the average cutie in 8th grader. He had short black hair cropped like His dad’s, the army sergeant, and dark brown eyes. He was 5’8 and very muscular. He would pick up Alison all the time. The problem with boys like that was the fact that everyone wanted him. Alison’s somewhat best friend Martha Loya when out with them 3 days after he and Alison broke up. The worst part was Alison wasn’t over him. He dumped her like all the guys in her life have. If আপনি thought that story was over then guess what, it got worse. A week after Nathaniel and Martha broke up he began flirting with Alison telling her how much he missed her and how right they were for each other. Just as she began to প্রণয় him again her other half-wit friend Jordan Danielle was caught making out with him just days after. Angrily Alison changed the station. She hated Him.
Split Personality. Alison definably understood this song. She had to be a different person for every one. Her younger sisters Alexis and Rachel wanted her to be there makeup artiest. Before any তারিখ they went on they made sure Alison dressed them. I guess আপনি could say that she had a style. She stuck to the basic polo’s and tank tops. She never wore special jeans, just Levies. During the summer she work tank tops and matching short shorts. I guess the girls like that. Derrick was to young to really need her for আরো then what she expected. She liked him although they were closer to mother and son then brother and sister. They had the same problem they missed their parents. Derrick could call Angie, his mother, any time. Alison couldn’t she would kill to be able to talk to her dad not just a one-way conversation either. To her mother she was a pissed off little brat, so Diana had once said. She couldn’t help but to hate her mother. She wasn’t worth anything. In fact Alison hated her. She made sure Diana new it. To Darrell she was just a strange teen. She has had maybe 7 conversations with him that didn't start off ‘how was your day?’ To herself Alison was a no one, a loner that sat in her room waiting for death to hurry her way. She listened until the song ended.
The classic Stacy’s Mom. She only thought of her cougar mother when she heard that song. From the time Diana signed the divorce papers to Shawn, she was already dating. She when to young adult bars looking for some one to sleep with. Alison only knew this because all the guys at her school had a crush on her. Between her tummy tucks and her boob jobs, liposuction and cologne, botox and self-tanning spray. And not to mention all the peroxide in her hair made Diana look 25 instead of 45. It was a sad দিন when Alison mother asked to barrow a dress and then tells Alison she doesn’t প্রদর্শনী enough skin, and ripped a slit up the dress. Two months after hunting for a young man, she meets Darrel the locale bartender. They had, what she hoped to be a one-night stand, and within 3 weeks they are getting married. Alison was happy that he was 38 so much closer to her mom’s age. Alison was however, completely horrified when she found out about Darrel’s 3 bratty children. Rachel, Alexis, and Derrick. 16, 14, 10 making Alison the oldest 17. All Alison wanted was her dad.
Confessions of a Broken Heart. This song was practically her anthem. Once Diana and Shawn divorce, Shawn went Backpacking Asia and Europe. The দিন he left Alison would never for get that day. Every weekend she would go over to his half-ass small shabby apartment and would make up, what she thought were stories, about an expedition to Asia. Shawn didn’t live to Far from her school. So one দিন during lunch she walked over to his house to find it vacant, empty not even a piece of lint left over. She when into his bedroom and on the floor right দ্বারা a box of her clothes he left a note. ‘I'll be প্রথমপাতা soon. I প্রণয় আপনি and be a good girl. Listen to your mom.’ Her whole world was uplifted from her surroundings. She waited. A বছর went দ্বারা then and other before she realized it she was 17 and ready to graduate. Every few months he would send her a letter from where ever he was. She got one last মাস from New York. Alison calculated walking, it should take 4 weeks to get here in Lakeview, Tennessee.
Then like a bomb had just gone off, she popped up running down the stairs, across the রান্নাঘর into the গর্ত though the hallway. Mails in. She quickly flipped through each one. Water Bill, Cell Phone Bill, Tennessee বিশ্ববিদ্যালয় Application. And there it was she had been waiting all বছর for this moment. Tennessee প্রথমপাতা of the Titians. she looked at this post card to scared to turn it around not knowing what he did অথবা where he was. Fright was coursing through her veins like fire. She closed her eyes and flipped it; only three words were on the card.
Open the Door
* * *
This was the house. Five years পূর্বে Shawn Cromwell was kicked out of. And just 3 years পূর্বে he left his little girl here to rot. What will she think of me? He thought walking up the walkway with the mailman. He was shacking nervous he was in town for 13 hours and hasn’t decided how he would make it up to his baby girl. A silly post card was all he could come up with. Would it be enough? He loved her he would have taken her but Diana’s foot was all the way up his গাধা his thoughts would have to tiptoe around her toe-ring. He left because he didn’t want to see her any more. But how do আপনি explain that to a 14 বছর old. He handed the mailman his card and waited দ্বারা the গ্যারেজ until the mailman left. This would look strange to the neighbors. He thought. He walked back to the door. Listening for any movement. He could stay there all night until she opened the door. To his surprise he heard the lock on the door click. His হৃদয় pulsated with fear of rejection and hate. He had no time to run it was to late he was staring into to big light brown eyes welled up in tears.
* * *
A tall man stood at the door. Alison looked him up and down. This was the man she had been waiting 3 years to see. He looked like he just came out of a cave. His beard was long and his hair was as long as hers. She looked into his eyes. Those were the eyes she looked into for hope, what she needed all these years. She looked at him again he was bigger then she remembers. He wasn’t what she expected. She wanted the man that left her in this hell hole 3 years ago. He was her অ্যাঞ্জেল and the key to her faith the foundation of being. She didn't know what to say what to do.
* * *
Shawn looked; stared in awe his baby girl wasn’t a baby anymore. She once had long blonde hair that was always in pigtails. And a small curve-less body. Braces and glasses that didn't fit her face. All of it was all gone. He looked at her. Short blond hair with bangs and curves to match Diana. This was every father’s nightmare his daughter becoming hot. She had a pound of eyeliner and god knows how much mascara on. He remembers the little voice that told him make-up was stinky, after she had put too much of her mothers on. He expected that girl. His daughter was gone. He was looking at Diana in High School.
The words weren’t coming out. He didn't know what to do, in an awkward stances she smiled and opened his arms ‘”hey kiddo” he ব্যক্ত uneasily smiling. She jumped up into his arms. He no longer had the fears of hate and rejection. A peace that had been missing for the last 3 and ½ years just woke up he hugged her back.
Alison Cromwell was on the floor. Her usual place this summer. Holding her self in one peace. Do I repel men অথবা what? She thought. Her boyfriend of 5 months, Trevor, just set her a text saying, ‘Sorry but this isn’t going to work out.’ Translation to her was ‘I found some one better.’ To any one of her siblings it would appear that she has fallen asleep. But with a flick of the wrist she changed the XM station. She believed সঙ্গীত is the key to every thing. There is a song for make-ups, breakups, and child ঘোমটা romances. And for every song there was a story.
The song Thinking of You was on. Instantly she thought of her 8th grade প্রণয় triangle. Cute, Active, Cocky, Nathaniel Goode was the biggest jerk in the whole world. But Alison wouldn’t have ব্যক্ত that when she went out with him. He was just a rebound that lasted to long. Her mind then changed to Marcus Castillo. He was shy, sweet and gorgeous. The complete opposite of Nathaniel. But what do আপনি do when the প্রণয় আপনি your life leaving আপনি with only a note that ব্যক্ত ‘be happy. find প্রণয় again’. He could have ব্যক্ত so much more. He left it with his younger brother. Dominick. Doing only as Marcus asked Alison went out with Nathaniel and every kiss; every hug only dug the knives into her হৃদয় deeper. She could only think of Marcus on the Hollywood Sunset looking at all the hot movie stars. It made her nauseous just remembering. With another flick of the wrist, she changed it.
Those two boys were her everything. Why she was who she was. Love Story. Marcus was her Romeo. If she were ever able to see him again it would be প্রণয় at first sight. Marcus was deadly cute; he had hair dark brown, spiked into the classic fo-hawk. Light hazel eyes that could take আপনি around in circles. Wonderfully jagged teeth, he had to many candies but whose to say he couldn’t. His mother was a drunk, the sent him to live with his birth dad. Who was married and had 3 children with the wife from hell. Marcus was easily accepted দ্বারা his half brothers. But the wife not so much. It was her fault Alison হারিয়ে গেছে her love. Alison changed the channel.
Hot N’ Cold. There is only one boy, that is hot and cold, yes then no, in then out, up then down. That boy Alison went out with for two months too long. She has never encountered someone she could প্রণয় then hate all in the same go around. Nathaniel was a big time Athlete. He played in their Private schools বাস্কেটবল team and YAFL for the Raptor. Alison was a Cheerleader at the Private school, she lived through for 3 horrific years. 14. It’s a bad number for her if the number one অথবা four was in it she bailed out. Nathaniel was the average cutie in 8th grader. He had short black hair cropped like His dad’s, the army sergeant, and dark brown eyes. He was 5’8 and very muscular. He would pick up Alison all the time. The problem with boys like that was the fact that everyone wanted him. Alison’s somewhat best friend Martha Loya when out with them 3 days after he and Alison broke up. The worst part was Alison wasn’t over him. He dumped her like all the guys in her life have. If আপনি thought that story was over then guess what, it got worse. A week after Nathaniel and Martha broke up he began flirting with Alison telling her how much he missed her and how right they were for each other. Just as she began to প্রণয় him again her other half-wit friend Jordan Danielle was caught making out with him just days after. Angrily Alison changed the station. She hated Him.
Split Personality. Alison definably understood this song. She had to be a different person for every one. Her younger sisters Alexis and Rachel wanted her to be there makeup artiest. Before any তারিখ they went on they made sure Alison dressed them. I guess আপনি could say that she had a style. She stuck to the basic polo’s and tank tops. She never wore special jeans, just Levies. During the summer she work tank tops and matching short shorts. I guess the girls like that. Derrick was to young to really need her for আরো then what she expected. She liked him although they were closer to mother and son then brother and sister. They had the same problem they missed their parents. Derrick could call Angie, his mother, any time. Alison couldn’t she would kill to be able to talk to her dad not just a one-way conversation either. To her mother she was a pissed off little brat, so Diana had once said. She couldn’t help but to hate her mother. She wasn’t worth anything. In fact Alison hated her. She made sure Diana new it. To Darrell she was just a strange teen. She has had maybe 7 conversations with him that didn't start off ‘how was your day?’ To herself Alison was a no one, a loner that sat in her room waiting for death to hurry her way. She listened until the song ended.
The classic Stacy’s Mom. She only thought of her cougar mother when she heard that song. From the time Diana signed the divorce papers to Shawn, she was already dating. She when to young adult bars looking for some one to sleep with. Alison only knew this because all the guys at her school had a crush on her. Between her tummy tucks and her boob jobs, liposuction and cologne, botox and self-tanning spray. And not to mention all the peroxide in her hair made Diana look 25 instead of 45. It was a sad দিন when Alison mother asked to barrow a dress and then tells Alison she doesn’t প্রদর্শনী enough skin, and ripped a slit up the dress. Two months after hunting for a young man, she meets Darrel the locale bartender. They had, what she hoped to be a one-night stand, and within 3 weeks they are getting married. Alison was happy that he was 38 so much closer to her mom’s age. Alison was however, completely horrified when she found out about Darrel’s 3 bratty children. Rachel, Alexis, and Derrick. 16, 14, 10 making Alison the oldest 17. All Alison wanted was her dad.
Confessions of a Broken Heart. This song was practically her anthem. Once Diana and Shawn divorce, Shawn went Backpacking Asia and Europe. The দিন he left Alison would never for get that day. Every weekend she would go over to his half-ass small shabby apartment and would make up, what she thought were stories, about an expedition to Asia. Shawn didn’t live to Far from her school. So one দিন during lunch she walked over to his house to find it vacant, empty not even a piece of lint left over. She when into his bedroom and on the floor right দ্বারা a box of her clothes he left a note. ‘I'll be প্রথমপাতা soon. I প্রণয় আপনি and be a good girl. Listen to your mom.’ Her whole world was uplifted from her surroundings. She waited. A বছর went দ্বারা then and other before she realized it she was 17 and ready to graduate. Every few months he would send her a letter from where ever he was. She got one last মাস from New York. Alison calculated walking, it should take 4 weeks to get here in Lakeview, Tennessee.
Then like a bomb had just gone off, she popped up running down the stairs, across the রান্নাঘর into the গর্ত though the hallway. Mails in. She quickly flipped through each one. Water Bill, Cell Phone Bill, Tennessee বিশ্ববিদ্যালয় Application. And there it was she had been waiting all বছর for this moment. Tennessee প্রথমপাতা of the Titians. she looked at this post card to scared to turn it around not knowing what he did অথবা where he was. Fright was coursing through her veins like fire. She closed her eyes and flipped it; only three words were on the card.
Open the Door
* * *
This was the house. Five years পূর্বে Shawn Cromwell was kicked out of. And just 3 years পূর্বে he left his little girl here to rot. What will she think of me? He thought walking up the walkway with the mailman. He was shacking nervous he was in town for 13 hours and hasn’t decided how he would make it up to his baby girl. A silly post card was all he could come up with. Would it be enough? He loved her he would have taken her but Diana’s foot was all the way up his গাধা his thoughts would have to tiptoe around her toe-ring. He left because he didn’t want to see her any more. But how do আপনি explain that to a 14 বছর old. He handed the mailman his card and waited দ্বারা the গ্যারেজ until the mailman left. This would look strange to the neighbors. He thought. He walked back to the door. Listening for any movement. He could stay there all night until she opened the door. To his surprise he heard the lock on the door click. His হৃদয় pulsated with fear of rejection and hate. He had no time to run it was to late he was staring into to big light brown eyes welled up in tears.
* * *
A tall man stood at the door. Alison looked him up and down. This was the man she had been waiting 3 years to see. He looked like he just came out of a cave. His beard was long and his hair was as long as hers. She looked into his eyes. Those were the eyes she looked into for hope, what she needed all these years. She looked at him again he was bigger then she remembers. He wasn’t what she expected. She wanted the man that left her in this hell hole 3 years ago. He was her অ্যাঞ্জেল and the key to her faith the foundation of being. She didn't know what to say what to do.
* * *
Shawn looked; stared in awe his baby girl wasn’t a baby anymore. She once had long blonde hair that was always in pigtails. And a small curve-less body. Braces and glasses that didn't fit her face. All of it was all gone. He looked at her. Short blond hair with bangs and curves to match Diana. This was every father’s nightmare his daughter becoming hot. She had a pound of eyeliner and god knows how much mascara on. He remembers the little voice that told him make-up was stinky, after she had put too much of her mothers on. He expected that girl. His daughter was gone. He was looking at Diana in High School.
The words weren’t coming out. He didn't know what to do, in an awkward stances she smiled and opened his arms ‘”hey kiddo” he ব্যক্ত uneasily smiling. She jumped up into his arms. He no longer had the fears of hate and rejection. A peace that had been missing for the last 3 and ½ years just woke up he hugged her back.
i was a normal 18 বছর old colledge student until that night that horid night the night that all saftyein my life died it was a cold winters night and me and my friend trent were going to stay the night at the most haunted hospital in the world ( আরো like most haunted place of death and despair)waverly hlls sanitoryoum. "come on tristen were going to be laughing stocks of the city if we dont go" "trent." i ব্যক্ত " i dont think we should go" " are u chicening out." he ব্যক্ত " no" i snapped " but its not right" i argued to him "its these millions of death beads and u have famly that died there and so do i" " he looked mad at me mentioning his uncle who died there but i had to make him stop. "no" he ব্যক্ত " we are going." to hell i thought if only i new
inch দ্বারা inch
bringing me closer
to my doom
প্রজাপতি of
anticipation
flutter nervously
in my stomach
knuckles whiten
jaws clench
what have I
gotten myself into
the suspense
is killing me
I'm going to hate it
I'm going to প্রণয় it
I might lose my lunch
but I don't care
heaven help me
here it comes...
...
I hold my breath...
...
and then
I scream
my stomach
drops
my breath
is stolen
my heart
is pounding
adrenaline
courses
through
my veins
amid screams
of sweet terror
I fling up
my hands
and ride on
the wings
of Thrill!
I remember the দিন I fell in love.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for আপনি love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place আপনি could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with আরো আগুন then আপনি could ever imagine.
আরো passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the দিন I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
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This is dedicated to my first real বাস্কেটবল coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Not just simple love.
No, this was head over heels, I'd die for আপনি love.
I remember where I fell in love.
A small middle school in a small town.
A place আপনি could easily miss.
I remember the my matchmaker.
A short women, but with আরো আগুন then আপনি could ever imagine.
আরো passion for what she does then I had ever seen.
I remember my girlfriends who were with me.
My athletic, sassy, fun-loving chicks.
My flirting consultants.
I remember him.
Good God, he was beautiful.
Yes, I remember the দিন I fell in love.
True Love.
Head over heels love.
With..................
Basketball.
--------------------------------
This is dedicated to my first real বাস্কেটবল coach. She taught me not just how to play basketball, but how to be part of a team. I have so much respect for her and I know I should thank her everyday for helping me fall in love. For Coach Joy.
Just a poem. I hope it isn't much of a bother to rate.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
অথবা I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told দ্বারা hidden scars
Unable to প্রদর্শনী themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.
I dream of all things
Uncertain of dark deeds and pasts
Within these thoughts as dark as sea
When once those wings of black
Hung over all
Shadowing but of the wretched white
That blinds me of all beauty.
I dream of all things
From happiness to highs
Let down these pills
অথবা I’m gone, retreat inside my mind
Where none but the darkest thoughts
Swallowing twilight
I dream of all things
From the stories told দ্বারা hidden scars
Unable to প্রদর্শনী themselves
Under this intense scrutiny
That makes up this world’s attire
To the times that I could be happy
Without a drug to create
The much-needed illusion...
I dream of all things
No matter of their contents
Because, well,
Nightmares are still dreams.