9: আপনি and Me
“So Tristan, how do আপনি fit into all this?” Alice asked him. He was sitting on a chair closest to the front of the carriage. He looked up from his book and sighed.
“Well, I was created in 1408, দ্বারা two warlocks known as Magna and Dejan. They took me and molded me into the perfect creature-a creature with the ability to change into anything at will-human, animal, whatever-telepathy, soothsayer, I was the perfect creature. But there are some limits even the could not look past though they are few: I can’t grant wishes, not the way a genie can, I can’t kill anyone at all, I can use my magic to do so but not দ্বারা my own hands, I can not use my powers for unreasonable things like destroying a town, causing the oceans to part, those sort of things.”
দ্বারা then the sun was just starting to set and almost everyone had remained where they had started out, the exceptions being Tristan and Jack who moved closer to Rosalie. “But how did আপনি come to be with these guys?”
“Ah. I first met Jonathan-the vampire that changed two out of the three-it was 1888 and we were both tired of living such lies. So, we came up with an idea: I would মাস্ককুরেড as whoever and should I find some worthy to be Jonathan’s mate and eventually his offspring I would bring them to him. In exchange, he would keep his silence of my abilities and I would do the same for him. It worked well-within the first বছর I had found his mate Lisa and several years later Luke.”
“But?”
“No but. Everything has been fine since.”
“When did আপনি find Jack?”
“I found Jack in late April of 1933; he was down দ্বারা the edge of the forest. I found him and like I always do, I asked him if I was to save you, what would আপনি do with the rest of your life? আপনি remember your answer, Jack?”
He looked right at Rosalie and ব্যক্ত “I would win back the প্রণয় of my life, get rid of that jerk she’s engaged to, marry her, give her as many children as her হৃদয় desired and raise them together.” She looked right back, again thankful that the ability to blush was gone.
“No tall order” Michael said, laughing slightly. Jack rolled his eyes but smiled faintly, looking at Rosalie once then back down again.
“Right. Then I asked would আপনি like me to save আপনি so আপনি may do as আপনি wish? দ্বারা then, he was so weak he couldn’t talk, just a faint nod of the head. I told him what would happen what he would become but he did not care. So, Jonathan changed him.”
“What led to that? What happened, Jack?” He looked at her for a সেকেন্ড then back down.
“Sure আপনি want to know?”
The way he asked made her balk for a সেকেন্ড but she nodded. “Yes.”
“Don’t hate me afterwards.” He waited and when she shook her head he ব্যক্ত “I was coming প্রথমপাতা from town-home then was a small fort in the woods-and I’d say four, five men attacked me. One of them was your father I could tell দ্বারা his voice. He kept saying ‘you ruined her! আপনি ruined my Rose’ and all I could think was she was never yours. Eventually one stabbed me just above my ribs. I made it quite a ways before I fell down the পাহাড় and Tristan found me. To this day, I’ve never understood what he meant.” He looked at her and somewhere he saw that she knew but could tell she wasn’t going to say-possibly never though he suspected under different circumstances.
“And আপনি two?” she asked her brothers-her true honest to god blood brothers. They exchanged a look. “What?”
“Well, like Tristan said, I was a Lieutenant in the army. I had been serving under the command of Douglas MacArthur-it was a real honor that he took me after I received my Lieutenant ranking and forth purple হৃদয় on Normanday. We were in the Philippines when I was wounded severely enough that I was discharged and sent home. Only, I didn’t want to-I felt like a failure so I told them to tell my family I had died. I did come back and developed an illness from my wound exposure. Eventually I was on death’s door when Tristan found me.”
“You mentioned your family?”
“Yeah-David and I still talked and I was married at the time.”
“You were?” she said, looking at him.
“Yeah. Five kids, one আরো on the way. I…Never forgave myself for not seeking them out though Tristan showed me that they moved on and had great lives.” He smiled at the thought and sighed.
“Five…Wow…”she said, looking at him then away again.
“Why? That how many আপনি want with Jack?” he asked her, though nothing on his face ব্যক্ত he was joking.
“Mike!”
“What?”
“Shut up. আপনি must not value your life very much today.”
He chuckled and ব্যক্ত “if that were the case, I would have died years ago.
“Ok. David, your turn” ব্যক্ত Alice, shooting him a look that begged to get the ball rolling before Jack and Michael tried to kill each other.
“Similar to his only I was a major in the air force. I flew a Grumman F6F Hellcat and it was a beauty. Well, I was shot down behind enemy lines and that should have killed me but it didn’t-I was saved দ্বারা some troops and air lifted back to the base. All was well for a while then in July of 45, our base was attacked and I barley made it out alive. Like Jack and Michael, I was found দ্বারা Tristan and changed.”
“And your family?”
“Married, three kids. That was the whole reason I wanted to be changed-to see them grow, to be with my wife but Tristan, Jonathan, Lisa, and Luke showed me that would never work. So, like Michael, I watched from a far.”
“Must have been hard.”
“Better than not knowing.”
“Ok, I’ll bring us out of this bout of sadness with a joke-Jack feel free to kill me-but I have to get this off my chest.”
Jack rolled his eyes and Michael took this as a good sign. “Ok: it’s been 97 years since the sinking of Titanic. And now here we sit with the star-crossed প্রেমী themselves-Jack and Rose Dawson.” He shook his head and laughed, “Jack and Rose, reunited. Someone please play that song!” From an unknown উৎস and all around them, the opening to “My হৃদয় Will Go On” echoed around them.
“I’d say nice work but I enjoy Jack on my good side” ব্যক্ত David, picking up Great Expectations and thumbing through it until he found his page again.
“If আপনি want to kill him, for once I won’t stop you” Tristan said, frowning at Michael.
“Nah. I’ll leave that up to Rose” he answered simply. “So, should he live অথবা die?”
“I guess he can live. For now.”
“You have to admit, the irony is sort of creepy.”
“Yes. Thank আপনি Leo and thank আপনি James Cameron” Jack ব্যক্ত dryly. He then looked at her and again he saw that look. So, he decided to let his mind do the talking.
<So, what could be so horrible আপনি won’t say it?>
<Jack, don’t.>
<What? Don’t আপনি think I’m owed an explanation for the way I am? What did he mean?>
<I swear I will tell আপনি someday-but not today.>
<Someday though?>
<Yes, someday since it’s for your ears only.>
<Alright. I can live with that.>
She looked up at him and faintly smiled. He smiled back, much broader, and she too increased it. She got up from the পালঙ্ক and sat পরবর্তি to him, taking his hand. He gently traced it though every softness had been replaced দ্বারা the hard exterior. He didn’t care-just this moment had made waiting nearly ¾ of a century well worth it.
Despite every part of her screaming that this was beyond wrong, that no good would come of it, that this was leaving safety and entering the danger zone, she ignored them all for that stirring was far too strong for her to ignore.
“Well well. Rekindling the flame already?” Neither one ব্যক্ত anything, just stared into the other’s eyes knowing that what they were feeling was at once completely right…And at the same time completely wrong.
“Lay off Mike” David said, still reading. Rolling his eyes, he walked to the outside and leaped ever so gently off the carriage.
While Alice talked to Tristan, mostly about the differences between her premonitions and his, David read Great Expectations, totally absorbed, Jack and Rosalie just sat and stared, scared to speak for fear it would break the spell. How could any of this be right? How was it possible for Rosalie to bounce back from the loss not even twenty four hours ago? And yet she did-sitting there, Jack’s hand cradling hers, she could not recall a single face, a single name from the family she had been with all those years.
Why? She thought. Why wonder? Another part of her said. Who cares? আপনি know what আপনি feel-and আপনি deserve to be happy. She couldn’t agree there though some part of her knew that maybe someday she would.
And then he smiled, that true beautiful smile that could knock a ঘুঘু from a বৃক্ষ and she knew happiness. She knew wholeness-for once, being what she was, she did not feel alone at all.
Throwing all caution in the wind, telling every part of her that screamed this was wrong to shut up, she threw herself into him, her lips on his, feverently, hungrily, wanting and needing blending and fading until it was impossible to distinguish one from the other. She heard them all at the same time: “Rose!” “All right! Bout damn time!” “Shut up Mike!” And yet all she could focus on was his lips. At long last and too soon, she felt him break away gently. She searched his eyes and saw his lips in a smirk.
“Stop the carriage please” Alice snarled, rushing off the সেকেন্ড it stood still.
“Wait!” Rose called, chasing after her.
“What was that? Huh? We lose everyone and আপনি throw yourself into the first vamp that isn’t your brother?!”
“What?! Did আপনি not hear me tell আপনি about our history?! Look, despite having Emmett and even Royce, I never loved anyone the way I did Jack-no one. He was my first and my only love.”
“Then what was Emmett to you-someone to just use and discard at your will?! Were আপনি just going to hurt him someday?”
“No! If I had known that Jack was the way he is, I would have gone away with him the সেকেন্ড I found him again, nothing against the man that made us what we are and his family but I never truly loved and lived the way I did when I was with Jack.”
Alice just shook her head, turning away from her. “I…Can’t even look at আপনি right now, so sick.”
“What? That I want to সরানো on? That I want happiness again? If that’s wrong then sue me cuse I don’t care. I haven’t been happy in 77 years and now I am.”
“Of course not. And why should you. Since আপনি never even cared about any of them.”
She growled softly but stayed silent. “If that was the case, I would have left years ago.”
“Then why didn’t you?”
“I don’t know.”
“Seems like that’s all আপনি do know.”
While they bickered, IT was drawing closer and closer, getting ready to attack again.
“So Tristan, how do আপনি fit into all this?” Alice asked him. He was sitting on a chair closest to the front of the carriage. He looked up from his book and sighed.
“Well, I was created in 1408, দ্বারা two warlocks known as Magna and Dejan. They took me and molded me into the perfect creature-a creature with the ability to change into anything at will-human, animal, whatever-telepathy, soothsayer, I was the perfect creature. But there are some limits even the could not look past though they are few: I can’t grant wishes, not the way a genie can, I can’t kill anyone at all, I can use my magic to do so but not দ্বারা my own hands, I can not use my powers for unreasonable things like destroying a town, causing the oceans to part, those sort of things.”
দ্বারা then the sun was just starting to set and almost everyone had remained where they had started out, the exceptions being Tristan and Jack who moved closer to Rosalie. “But how did আপনি come to be with these guys?”
“Ah. I first met Jonathan-the vampire that changed two out of the three-it was 1888 and we were both tired of living such lies. So, we came up with an idea: I would মাস্ককুরেড as whoever and should I find some worthy to be Jonathan’s mate and eventually his offspring I would bring them to him. In exchange, he would keep his silence of my abilities and I would do the same for him. It worked well-within the first বছর I had found his mate Lisa and several years later Luke.”
“But?”
“No but. Everything has been fine since.”
“When did আপনি find Jack?”
“I found Jack in late April of 1933; he was down দ্বারা the edge of the forest. I found him and like I always do, I asked him if I was to save you, what would আপনি do with the rest of your life? আপনি remember your answer, Jack?”
He looked right at Rosalie and ব্যক্ত “I would win back the প্রণয় of my life, get rid of that jerk she’s engaged to, marry her, give her as many children as her হৃদয় desired and raise them together.” She looked right back, again thankful that the ability to blush was gone.
“No tall order” Michael said, laughing slightly. Jack rolled his eyes but smiled faintly, looking at Rosalie once then back down again.
“Right. Then I asked would আপনি like me to save আপনি so আপনি may do as আপনি wish? দ্বারা then, he was so weak he couldn’t talk, just a faint nod of the head. I told him what would happen what he would become but he did not care. So, Jonathan changed him.”
“What led to that? What happened, Jack?” He looked at her for a সেকেন্ড then back down.
“Sure আপনি want to know?”
The way he asked made her balk for a সেকেন্ড but she nodded. “Yes.”
“Don’t hate me afterwards.” He waited and when she shook her head he ব্যক্ত “I was coming প্রথমপাতা from town-home then was a small fort in the woods-and I’d say four, five men attacked me. One of them was your father I could tell দ্বারা his voice. He kept saying ‘you ruined her! আপনি ruined my Rose’ and all I could think was she was never yours. Eventually one stabbed me just above my ribs. I made it quite a ways before I fell down the পাহাড় and Tristan found me. To this day, I’ve never understood what he meant.” He looked at her and somewhere he saw that she knew but could tell she wasn’t going to say-possibly never though he suspected under different circumstances.
“And আপনি two?” she asked her brothers-her true honest to god blood brothers. They exchanged a look. “What?”
“Well, like Tristan said, I was a Lieutenant in the army. I had been serving under the command of Douglas MacArthur-it was a real honor that he took me after I received my Lieutenant ranking and forth purple হৃদয় on Normanday. We were in the Philippines when I was wounded severely enough that I was discharged and sent home. Only, I didn’t want to-I felt like a failure so I told them to tell my family I had died. I did come back and developed an illness from my wound exposure. Eventually I was on death’s door when Tristan found me.”
“You mentioned your family?”
“Yeah-David and I still talked and I was married at the time.”
“You were?” she said, looking at him.
“Yeah. Five kids, one আরো on the way. I…Never forgave myself for not seeking them out though Tristan showed me that they moved on and had great lives.” He smiled at the thought and sighed.
“Five…Wow…”she said, looking at him then away again.
“Why? That how many আপনি want with Jack?” he asked her, though nothing on his face ব্যক্ত he was joking.
“Mike!”
“What?”
“Shut up. আপনি must not value your life very much today.”
He chuckled and ব্যক্ত “if that were the case, I would have died years ago.
“Ok. David, your turn” ব্যক্ত Alice, shooting him a look that begged to get the ball rolling before Jack and Michael tried to kill each other.
“Similar to his only I was a major in the air force. I flew a Grumman F6F Hellcat and it was a beauty. Well, I was shot down behind enemy lines and that should have killed me but it didn’t-I was saved দ্বারা some troops and air lifted back to the base. All was well for a while then in July of 45, our base was attacked and I barley made it out alive. Like Jack and Michael, I was found দ্বারা Tristan and changed.”
“And your family?”
“Married, three kids. That was the whole reason I wanted to be changed-to see them grow, to be with my wife but Tristan, Jonathan, Lisa, and Luke showed me that would never work. So, like Michael, I watched from a far.”
“Must have been hard.”
“Better than not knowing.”
“Ok, I’ll bring us out of this bout of sadness with a joke-Jack feel free to kill me-but I have to get this off my chest.”
Jack rolled his eyes and Michael took this as a good sign. “Ok: it’s been 97 years since the sinking of Titanic. And now here we sit with the star-crossed প্রেমী themselves-Jack and Rose Dawson.” He shook his head and laughed, “Jack and Rose, reunited. Someone please play that song!” From an unknown উৎস and all around them, the opening to “My হৃদয় Will Go On” echoed around them.
“I’d say nice work but I enjoy Jack on my good side” ব্যক্ত David, picking up Great Expectations and thumbing through it until he found his page again.
“If আপনি want to kill him, for once I won’t stop you” Tristan said, frowning at Michael.
“Nah. I’ll leave that up to Rose” he answered simply. “So, should he live অথবা die?”
“I guess he can live. For now.”
“You have to admit, the irony is sort of creepy.”
“Yes. Thank আপনি Leo and thank আপনি James Cameron” Jack ব্যক্ত dryly. He then looked at her and again he saw that look. So, he decided to let his mind do the talking.
<So, what could be so horrible আপনি won’t say it?>
<Jack, don’t.>
<What? Don’t আপনি think I’m owed an explanation for the way I am? What did he mean?>
<I swear I will tell আপনি someday-but not today.>
<Someday though?>
<Yes, someday since it’s for your ears only.>
<Alright. I can live with that.>
She looked up at him and faintly smiled. He smiled back, much broader, and she too increased it. She got up from the পালঙ্ক and sat পরবর্তি to him, taking his hand. He gently traced it though every softness had been replaced দ্বারা the hard exterior. He didn’t care-just this moment had made waiting nearly ¾ of a century well worth it.
Despite every part of her screaming that this was beyond wrong, that no good would come of it, that this was leaving safety and entering the danger zone, she ignored them all for that stirring was far too strong for her to ignore.
“Well well. Rekindling the flame already?” Neither one ব্যক্ত anything, just stared into the other’s eyes knowing that what they were feeling was at once completely right…And at the same time completely wrong.
“Lay off Mike” David said, still reading. Rolling his eyes, he walked to the outside and leaped ever so gently off the carriage.
While Alice talked to Tristan, mostly about the differences between her premonitions and his, David read Great Expectations, totally absorbed, Jack and Rosalie just sat and stared, scared to speak for fear it would break the spell. How could any of this be right? How was it possible for Rosalie to bounce back from the loss not even twenty four hours ago? And yet she did-sitting there, Jack’s hand cradling hers, she could not recall a single face, a single name from the family she had been with all those years.
Why? She thought. Why wonder? Another part of her said. Who cares? আপনি know what আপনি feel-and আপনি deserve to be happy. She couldn’t agree there though some part of her knew that maybe someday she would.
And then he smiled, that true beautiful smile that could knock a ঘুঘু from a বৃক্ষ and she knew happiness. She knew wholeness-for once, being what she was, she did not feel alone at all.
Throwing all caution in the wind, telling every part of her that screamed this was wrong to shut up, she threw herself into him, her lips on his, feverently, hungrily, wanting and needing blending and fading until it was impossible to distinguish one from the other. She heard them all at the same time: “Rose!” “All right! Bout damn time!” “Shut up Mike!” And yet all she could focus on was his lips. At long last and too soon, she felt him break away gently. She searched his eyes and saw his lips in a smirk.
“Stop the carriage please” Alice snarled, rushing off the সেকেন্ড it stood still.
“Wait!” Rose called, chasing after her.
“What was that? Huh? We lose everyone and আপনি throw yourself into the first vamp that isn’t your brother?!”
“What?! Did আপনি not hear me tell আপনি about our history?! Look, despite having Emmett and even Royce, I never loved anyone the way I did Jack-no one. He was my first and my only love.”
“Then what was Emmett to you-someone to just use and discard at your will?! Were আপনি just going to hurt him someday?”
“No! If I had known that Jack was the way he is, I would have gone away with him the সেকেন্ড I found him again, nothing against the man that made us what we are and his family but I never truly loved and lived the way I did when I was with Jack.”
Alice just shook her head, turning away from her. “I…Can’t even look at আপনি right now, so sick.”
“What? That I want to সরানো on? That I want happiness again? If that’s wrong then sue me cuse I don’t care. I haven’t been happy in 77 years and now I am.”
“Of course not. And why should you. Since আপনি never even cared about any of them.”
She growled softly but stayed silent. “If that was the case, I would have left years ago.”
“Then why didn’t you?”
“I don’t know.”
“Seems like that’s all আপনি do know.”
While they bickered, IT was drawing closer and closer, getting ready to attack again.
The Pillsbury Doughboy died yesterday of a yeast infection and trauma complications from repeated pokes in the belly. He was 71. Doughboy was buried in a lightly greased coffin. Dozens of যশস্বী turned out to pay their respects, including Mrs. Butterworth, Hungry Jack, the California Raisins, Betty Crocker, the Hostess Twinkies, and Captain Crunch. The gravesite was piled high with flours. Aunt Jemima delivered the eulogy and lovingly described Doughboy as a man who never knew how much he was kneaded. Doughboy rose quickly in প্রদর্শনী business, but his later life was filled with turnovers. He was not considered a very smart cookie, wasting much of his dough on half-baked schemes. Despite being a little flaky at times he still was a crusty old man and was considered a positive roll model for millions. Doughboy is survived দ্বারা his wife Play Dough, two children, John Dough and Jane Dough, plus they had one in the oven. He is also survived দ্বারা his elderly father, Pop Tart.
Is it possible to fall in প্রণয় with someone you’ve never met
Your only knowledge stemming from information you’ve seen অথবা read
Before I knew of his existence I would have stated no
Yet the first time I saw him my হৃদয় begged to never let go
It isn’t rational
অথবা logical
Though প্রণয় rarely is
I can’t make my হৃদয় stop wishing that I held his
And I know it's stupid and silly to believe
In some kind of fairy tale
The perfect prince for me
But every time I see that smile
I can’t help but feel
That one দিন we could share
A প্রণয় that is real
Your only knowledge stemming from information you’ve seen অথবা read
Before I knew of his existence I would have stated no
Yet the first time I saw him my হৃদয় begged to never let go
It isn’t rational
অথবা logical
Though প্রণয় rarely is
I can’t make my হৃদয় stop wishing that I held his
And I know it's stupid and silly to believe
In some kind of fairy tale
The perfect prince for me
But every time I see that smile
I can’t help but feel
That one দিন we could share
A প্রণয় that is real
I breathed in and out slowly. This was horrid. Running. I spat at the word. I despised running.
Joseph jogged up to me. "You okay Kristen?"
"Yeah, just give me a minute."
"Hah! আপনি always end up like this. Maybe আপনি should quit track?"
"You know I can't! If I do, then I have to do Trigonometry. Ugh. That's worse."
"Right..."
I stood up and we walked in silence. His lithe step did not match mine. I had a clumsy, trip over step. I needed somebody to teach me how to walk right.
"Oof." I had tripped, and landed on my side. How? I have no idea. Normal people land on their face অথবা back. Not me!
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Joseph jogged up to me. "You okay Kristen?"
"Yeah, just give me a minute."
"Hah! আপনি always end up like this. Maybe আপনি should quit track?"
"You know I can't! If I do, then I have to do Trigonometry. Ugh. That's worse."
"Right..."
I stood up and we walked in silence. His lithe step did not match mine. I had a clumsy, trip over step. I needed somebody to teach me how to walk right.
"Oof." I had tripped, and landed on my side. How? I have no idea. Normal people land on their face অথবা back. Not me!
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i was a normal 18 বছর old colledge student until that night that horid night the night that all saftyein my life died it was a cold winters night and me and my friend trent were going to stay the night at the most haunted hospital in the world ( আরো like most haunted place of death and despair)waverly hlls sanitoryoum. "come on tristen were going to be laughing stocks of the city if we dont go" "trent." i ব্যক্ত " i dont think we should go" " are u chicening out." he ব্যক্ত " no" i snapped " but its not right" i argued to him "its these millions of death beads and u have famly that died there and so do i" " he looked mad at me mentioning his uncle who died there but i had to make him stop. "no" he ব্যক্ত " we are going." to hell i thought if only i new
আপনি couldn't and wouldn't,
ask for anything more.
Now all আপনি want,
is to be able to rest.
For your famliy to be happy.
আপনি wish আপনি could help them,
through the pain,
but আপনি can't,
আপনি can only watch,
from the sky.
আপনি can only watch them cry.
Hearts are now broken.
But your love,
is forever out spoken.
For twith out you,
there'd be no hope,
for those to come.
আপনি put the doctors one step closer,
to finding the cure.
আপনি may be just another person to them,
but to me your so much more.
Your one in a million,
your unequie.
I have just one আরো thing to say.
Plaese rest now.
Rest now and sleep.
May heven bring আপনি happiness and peace.
ask for anything more.
Now all আপনি want,
is to be able to rest.
For your famliy to be happy.
আপনি wish আপনি could help them,
through the pain,
but আপনি can't,
আপনি can only watch,
from the sky.
আপনি can only watch them cry.
Hearts are now broken.
But your love,
is forever out spoken.
For twith out you,
there'd be no hope,
for those to come.
আপনি put the doctors one step closer,
to finding the cure.
আপনি may be just another person to them,
but to me your so much more.
Your one in a million,
your unequie.
I have just one আরো thing to say.
Plaese rest now.
Rest now and sleep.
May heven bring আপনি happiness and peace.
