What I was
I cannot be again
and what I am
I do not want to be
There is no other way
There Has Never Been
I have used my imagination
To give me hope
But now it is all gone
and I am alone once more
It Feels no different
than before
Always the outcast
Never Fitting in
Why should I Be like this
Why Should I try to live
when I just want to say bye
and die
So I take My Blade
That has tasted blood
many times before
I let the coldness touch my arm
wait till I know that it is there
and then I সরানো it off
The Pinkness has turned Red
The Blood is dripping
And I know That I am Still
Alive When I don’t want to be
And I cannot Change That Yet
I cannot be again
and what I am
I do not want to be
There is no other way
There Has Never Been
I have used my imagination
To give me hope
But now it is all gone
and I am alone once more
It Feels no different
than before
Always the outcast
Never Fitting in
Why should I Be like this
Why Should I try to live
when I just want to say bye
and die
So I take My Blade
That has tasted blood
many times before
I let the coldness touch my arm
wait till I know that it is there
and then I সরানো it off
The Pinkness has turned Red
The Blood is dripping
And I know That I am Still
Alive When I don’t want to be
And I cannot Change That Yet
Across the road
Not down the street
If আপনি keep going
Then you’ll meet
A shadowy figure
With a black hood
Death is calling
And u know u should
Be scared, afraid
And begging please
স্নেহ চুম্বন his feet
While on your knees
But আপনি were prepared
And wrote in blood
Cause it’s too painful
And knew আপনি could
Make it all go away
আপনি went to the mirror
Broken with ur fist
Shards were biting
Your ruby stained wrist
Holding ur tongue
So no1 can know
And all your pain
Just let it flow
As আপনি hit the floor
Stained glass raining down
Slowly your smile
Quietly slips to a frown
Suddenly আপনি realize
আপনি didn’t want 2 go
But it’s too late
To stop the flow
And in a puddle of scarlet
Gathered at ur feet
The hooded figure আপনি get to see
Cause আপনি went down the street
So that why আপনি go across the road
If you’d listened u would’ve known
Now just like always
Your all alone
Not down the street
If আপনি keep going
Then you’ll meet
A shadowy figure
With a black hood
Death is calling
And u know u should
Be scared, afraid
And begging please
স্নেহ চুম্বন his feet
While on your knees
But আপনি were prepared
And wrote in blood
Cause it’s too painful
And knew আপনি could
Make it all go away
আপনি went to the mirror
Broken with ur fist
Shards were biting
Your ruby stained wrist
Holding ur tongue
So no1 can know
And all your pain
Just let it flow
As আপনি hit the floor
Stained glass raining down
Slowly your smile
Quietly slips to a frown
Suddenly আপনি realize
আপনি didn’t want 2 go
But it’s too late
To stop the flow
And in a puddle of scarlet
Gathered at ur feet
The hooded figure আপনি get to see
Cause আপনি went down the street
So that why আপনি go across the road
If you’d listened u would’ve known
Now just like always
Your all alone
I am in my heaven.
Your soft embrace is like the warm sun,
When I am in your arms,
My head nestled against your chest,
Your arms lovingly wrapped around my body,
The sound of your হৃদয় beating in my ear,
There can be no better place.
আপনি are like a goddess to me,
I admire, love, honor and respect everything that is you.
When we are apart,
আপনি are the only thing I can think of.
But I Don't Know Why I Am Here,
I Need Help I Need To Know Why Im Here Someone,
Anyone Help!
This Poem Is To সত্বর Yuki <3
Your soft embrace is like the warm sun,
When I am in your arms,
My head nestled against your chest,
Your arms lovingly wrapped around my body,
The sound of your হৃদয় beating in my ear,
There can be no better place.
আপনি are like a goddess to me,
I admire, love, honor and respect everything that is you.
When we are apart,
আপনি are the only thing I can think of.
But I Don't Know Why I Am Here,
I Need Help I Need To Know Why Im Here Someone,
Anyone Help!
This Poem Is To সত্বর Yuki <3
I am so cold
My blanket I must hold
Why can't I stay warm
Is it because i ain't holding your arm
Why have আপনি left me here so alone
So long youve been gone
I wish you've stayed
because now i must wait for the day
Here as I lay
I dream of us having a day
A দিন to ourselves is what i want
but instead i must be taunt
with the hope of আপনি coming back
please oh please do come back
i প্রণয় আপনি আরো than anything
and as i keep on blabbing
i notice how i start to cry
oh how i wish my eyes would dry
But they will keep dripping
As my হৃদয় is ripping.
Why must আপনি leave me so coldly
আপনি didnt have to do it so boldly
আপনি brought many joys in my life
but now im left here to strife
When i hug you, আপনি turn away
I wish i could like we used to everyday
will our পরবর্তি চুম্বন be our last
was it ever meant to last....
</3
My blanket I must hold
Why can't I stay warm
Is it because i ain't holding your arm
Why have আপনি left me here so alone
So long youve been gone
I wish you've stayed
because now i must wait for the day
Here as I lay
I dream of us having a day
A দিন to ourselves is what i want
but instead i must be taunt
with the hope of আপনি coming back
please oh please do come back
i প্রণয় আপনি আরো than anything
and as i keep on blabbing
i notice how i start to cry
oh how i wish my eyes would dry
But they will keep dripping
As my হৃদয় is ripping.
Why must আপনি leave me so coldly
আপনি didnt have to do it so boldly
আপনি brought many joys in my life
but now im left here to strife
When i hug you, আপনি turn away
I wish i could like we used to everyday
will our পরবর্তি চুম্বন be our last
was it ever meant to last....
</3
No words are spoken
They don’t need to be
The feeling is mutual
Anyone can see
They found each other
When they weren’t even looking
They came across their treasure
When they didn’t think anything was missing
Past relationships are forgotten
As well as memories of হৃদয় brake
Everything they need is shared between them
Past wounds they think of as mistakes
This time there’s no regrets
They’d run miles forever
And they’d give up all they had
Just so they’d be with each other
They don’t need to be
The feeling is mutual
Anyone can see
They found each other
When they weren’t even looking
They came across their treasure
When they didn’t think anything was missing
Past relationships are forgotten
As well as memories of হৃদয় brake
Everything they need is shared between them
Past wounds they think of as mistakes
This time there’s no regrets
They’d run miles forever
And they’d give up all they had
Just so they’d be with each other
It’s been too long, like a পূর্ববর্তি life.
And my feelings for আপনি still burns inside.
No one has moved me the way আপনি did.
No one has left scars as deep as আপনি did.
The warmth আপনি spread in my heart, I miss.
The joy আপনি blessed my soul with, I miss.
The twinkling light that glows in your eyes-
Like a million stars in a new moon night.
I still see it in dreams and wake up crying.
The feeling of loss still boils in mind.
Like a summer rain in the barren land,
আপনি passed through my life,
Like an অ্যাঞ্জেল of light.
I know you’ll read this,
Sweet my friend,
These words that bleeds
Through the pen from inside.
The parting agony will be healed
As time moves on- I thought.
I was wrong.
It only grows worse as life goes on.
It burns my soul from the deep of its core.
Read these words, please, sweet my friend.
You’re always the one I wanted the most.
Never can I go on without আপনি along,
So this noose before me is my painkiller now.
And my feelings for আপনি still burns inside.
No one has moved me the way আপনি did.
No one has left scars as deep as আপনি did.
The warmth আপনি spread in my heart, I miss.
The joy আপনি blessed my soul with, I miss.
The twinkling light that glows in your eyes-
Like a million stars in a new moon night.
I still see it in dreams and wake up crying.
The feeling of loss still boils in mind.
Like a summer rain in the barren land,
আপনি passed through my life,
Like an অ্যাঞ্জেল of light.
I know you’ll read this,
Sweet my friend,
These words that bleeds
Through the pen from inside.
The parting agony will be healed
As time moves on- I thought.
I was wrong.
It only grows worse as life goes on.
It burns my soul from the deep of its core.
Read these words, please, sweet my friend.
You’re always the one I wanted the most.
Never can I go on without আপনি along,
So this noose before me is my painkiller now.
I can't stop crying today
My world walked out the door
With her she took my heart
For I will প্রণয় no more
The hours passed like seconds
When our two hearts were one
The সেকেন্ড passed like hours
After she ব্যক্ত that she was done
She was going to প্রণয় me forever
At least that is what she said
Her হৃদয় belonged to someone else
That is what her letter read
I no longer live in color
My world is black and white
I always wonder what she is doing
As I lie awake at night
I hope tomorrow is better
This is what I pray
But right now my হৃদয় is broken
I can't stop crying today
My world walked out the door
With her she took my heart
For I will প্রণয় no more
The hours passed like seconds
When our two hearts were one
The সেকেন্ড passed like hours
After she ব্যক্ত that she was done
She was going to প্রণয় me forever
At least that is what she said
Her হৃদয় belonged to someone else
That is what her letter read
I no longer live in color
My world is black and white
I always wonder what she is doing
As I lie awake at night
I hope tomorrow is better
This is what I pray
But right now my হৃদয় is broken
I can't stop crying today
How do আপনি heal a wound inside?
It’s something that can never heal, it only hides,
Don’t আপনি see?
I need some help, not only me,
But anyone who feels this way
Hell at home,
The devil’s saint.
আপনি can’t believe your eyes but sin’s a feeling
আপনি can’t help it…
Broken and alone you’ll only find inside pain
And look there on my arm, hate.
I’ll put up those walls so আপনি all can take them down,
No use in painting them now.
Just another দিন in fear and loneliness.
I’m helpless,
There is no use for me.
I’m a hollow book- no pages-
The pen in my hand only stabs.
Unwanted graces, shivering inside your mind
Let out from captivity of stupidity,
You’re better than that,
whispering, deceiving, making even pain and sorrow.
I’m looking অগ্রবর্তী to nothing from tomorrow.
Counting ages restless, finger to your mouth,
Realize the taste of blood on your tongue,
Nothing left to do now
It’s something that can never heal, it only hides,
Don’t আপনি see?
I need some help, not only me,
But anyone who feels this way
Hell at home,
The devil’s saint.
আপনি can’t believe your eyes but sin’s a feeling
আপনি can’t help it…
Broken and alone you’ll only find inside pain
And look there on my arm, hate.
I’ll put up those walls so আপনি all can take them down,
No use in painting them now.
Just another দিন in fear and loneliness.
I’m helpless,
There is no use for me.
I’m a hollow book- no pages-
The pen in my hand only stabs.
Unwanted graces, shivering inside your mind
Let out from captivity of stupidity,
You’re better than that,
whispering, deceiving, making even pain and sorrow.
I’m looking অগ্রবর্তী to nothing from tomorrow.
Counting ages restless, finger to your mouth,
Realize the taste of blood on your tongue,
Nothing left to do now
Secret song sings in my ears
Stumbling down the রাস্তা in tears
Head held low no need to see
The cars swerving to avoid me
I've forgotten fear
A stupid sheep
খাবার for a pack of নেকড়ে to eat
Give me some pills just let me sleep
Oh dear I'm anchored down so deep
But there's nowhere I'd rather be
Than this eternal nowhere dream
My rage is gone
There's no desire
To cut অথবা light my skin on fire
I'll just lie here on the bathroom floor
And drown and choke on blood আপনি whore
Oh it's not আপনি who I abhor
It's just আপনি opened up that door
With the fucking প্রশ্ন mark
Rooms dark and laughing at the dead
Hark the hollow hellbound bled
Just go ahead say what আপনি will
Give আপনি a gun so can আপনি kill
It isn't আপনি I do not think
It's only me that's on the brink
A debt I owe myself আপনি see
I'm just a worm a rotten deed
I'll never change
But I won't squirm
So fucking bang I guess I'll burn
Stumbling down the রাস্তা in tears
Head held low no need to see
The cars swerving to avoid me
I've forgotten fear
A stupid sheep
খাবার for a pack of নেকড়ে to eat
Give me some pills just let me sleep
Oh dear I'm anchored down so deep
But there's nowhere I'd rather be
Than this eternal nowhere dream
My rage is gone
There's no desire
To cut অথবা light my skin on fire
I'll just lie here on the bathroom floor
And drown and choke on blood আপনি whore
Oh it's not আপনি who I abhor
It's just আপনি opened up that door
With the fucking প্রশ্ন mark
Rooms dark and laughing at the dead
Hark the hollow hellbound bled
Just go ahead say what আপনি will
Give আপনি a gun so can আপনি kill
It isn't আপনি I do not think
It's only me that's on the brink
A debt I owe myself আপনি see
I'm just a worm a rotten deed
I'll never change
But I won't squirm
So fucking bang I guess I'll burn
Remember when we were happy?
Now a cold shroud of bitterness
Is the only remnant of what used to be.
I'd like to think আপনি still care,
But I'm not ignorant.
I know the truth.
What ever we used to have is gone.
I'm not sure if it was even ever there.
When we met don't আপনি remember the sparks?
Oh how they flew.
I guess আপনি don't remember,
This part I always knew.
Friendship was never an option for us.
We held too much hatred for that.
I hope one দিন আপনি realize
Just how much harm you've caused.
And one দিন I will realize
There is আরো to life than you.
Now a cold shroud of bitterness
Is the only remnant of what used to be.
I'd like to think আপনি still care,
But I'm not ignorant.
I know the truth.
What ever we used to have is gone.
I'm not sure if it was even ever there.
When we met don't আপনি remember the sparks?
Oh how they flew.
I guess আপনি don't remember,
This part I always knew.
Friendship was never an option for us.
We held too much hatred for that.
I hope one দিন আপনি realize
Just how much harm you've caused.
And one দিন I will realize
There is আরো to life than you.