"Do আপনি have asthma?" the gym teacher asked me. My thoughts flickered to Emery. He had asthma, right? Breathlessly, I nodded. "Go get your inhaler. Emery, go with her." Emery helped get me up, and we went inside, as I was taking my last breaths.
"Give me.." I rasped. "Your inhaler."
"What?" Emery asked, unbelieving.
"Get me your inhaler," I ব্যক্ত through my teeth. My head started to spin. Quickly, Emery ran into the boys' locker room. A couple moments later, he returned with his inhaler, and handed it to me. I pumped some of it into my mouth, and thankfully it helped a bit. I sat there on the floor a few আরো moments, until my breath returned.
"Shelby, আপনি gotta stop these fucking drugs," Emery said, talking down to me like I was a child অথবা something.
"You gotta mind your own fucking business," I said, leaning my head back against the wall.
"Shelby, it's only going to get worse if আপনি don't stop. আপনি could die."
"Good," I glared at him. That made him speechless.
"What the hell is your problem?!" he shouted at me after a few moments. "You've got your whole life ahead of you! How can আপনি just throw it away like its worthless?"
"Because it is," I snapped. "And I've got nothing ahead of me... My life is not worth living. I'm surprised it took me this long to realize it."
"Oh please," he scoffed. "Your life couldn't seriously be that bad. You---"
"My mother abandoned me," I began. "She left me and my sisters a couple months ago. Before that, we lived in a two bedroom house, with nearly no food. My sister Paige worked full time, and had to be Kirsten and Sage's teacher. I watched them all day, when I wasn't out looking for a job. I have four sisters. None of us know our fathers. All of them left us. Same with my mom. I live with my relatives, who are nothing but nice to us, when we don't deserve it. I always feel like I'm a bother to someone. I'm always in someone's way. And I just..." I held my head in my hands, gripping my hair. "I just want it to all end!"
"I... I'm sorry, Shelby. I didn't know..." Emery ব্যক্ত quietly. I ignored him, trying to take deep breaths to calm myself down. I didn't want to cry in front of anyone. Emery sat down পরবর্তি to me. "It must be so hard..."
"It's getting better," I admitted quietly. I looked up at him. "When I'm high, I don't have to think about it. It's easier." He sighed, shaking his head at me.
"Temporarily," he reminded me.
"Time doesn't matter. Whatever I can get, no matter how long it lasts, I'll take it. It's worth it."
"Yeah, but..." he sighed, probably not knowing what to say. "You're killing yourself, Shelby." I stood up and shrugged.
"Again, I'll take what I can get."
"Give me.." I rasped. "Your inhaler."
"What?" Emery asked, unbelieving.
"Get me your inhaler," I ব্যক্ত through my teeth. My head started to spin. Quickly, Emery ran into the boys' locker room. A couple moments later, he returned with his inhaler, and handed it to me. I pumped some of it into my mouth, and thankfully it helped a bit. I sat there on the floor a few আরো moments, until my breath returned.
"Shelby, আপনি gotta stop these fucking drugs," Emery said, talking down to me like I was a child অথবা something.
"You gotta mind your own fucking business," I said, leaning my head back against the wall.
"Shelby, it's only going to get worse if আপনি don't stop. আপনি could die."
"Good," I glared at him. That made him speechless.
"What the hell is your problem?!" he shouted at me after a few moments. "You've got your whole life ahead of you! How can আপনি just throw it away like its worthless?"
"Because it is," I snapped. "And I've got nothing ahead of me... My life is not worth living. I'm surprised it took me this long to realize it."
"Oh please," he scoffed. "Your life couldn't seriously be that bad. You---"
"My mother abandoned me," I began. "She left me and my sisters a couple months ago. Before that, we lived in a two bedroom house, with nearly no food. My sister Paige worked full time, and had to be Kirsten and Sage's teacher. I watched them all day, when I wasn't out looking for a job. I have four sisters. None of us know our fathers. All of them left us. Same with my mom. I live with my relatives, who are nothing but nice to us, when we don't deserve it. I always feel like I'm a bother to someone. I'm always in someone's way. And I just..." I held my head in my hands, gripping my hair. "I just want it to all end!"
"I... I'm sorry, Shelby. I didn't know..." Emery ব্যক্ত quietly. I ignored him, trying to take deep breaths to calm myself down. I didn't want to cry in front of anyone. Emery sat down পরবর্তি to me. "It must be so hard..."
"It's getting better," I admitted quietly. I looked up at him. "When I'm high, I don't have to think about it. It's easier." He sighed, shaking his head at me.
"Temporarily," he reminded me.
"Time doesn't matter. Whatever I can get, no matter how long it lasts, I'll take it. It's worth it."
"Yeah, but..." he sighed, probably not knowing what to say. "You're killing yourself, Shelby." I stood up and shrugged.
"Again, I'll take what I can get."
this is my first story that i made on here i'm still decideing if i want to make আরো of this book অথবা not i am still decideing on a tittle name.please do not hesitate to criticize i need it.thank আপনি <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I Taylor Ann Smith was not happy.I was very mad.How dare them! i thought angrily to myself.how dare them decide who i marry!.this all happened when i came down for breakfast."Good morning mother,good morning farther."i ব্যক্ত happily.Mother was cooking eggs and টোস্ট while father was waiting."Hello darling"said Mother cheerfully as she sat a plate of eggs and টোস্ট in front of me."good morning taylor" farther answered. his plate."what's happening today?"i asked still eating."well.. mom started looked unconfertable...we decided who আপনি were to marry"."What!" i cried almost chocking on my food.
Glance the other way
Rip your হৃদয় out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
আপনি know nothing!
Yet আপনি pretend আপনি do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
আপনি told me once
I told আপনি twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
অথবা remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left অথবা right?
Up অথবা down?
Wrong অথবা right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Rip your হৃদয় out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
আপনি know nothing!
Yet আপনি pretend আপনি do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
আপনি told me once
I told আপনি twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
অথবা remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left অথবা right?
Up অথবা down?
Wrong অথবা right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Chapter 4: Sunny day
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate প্রণয় that never fades.
"I'll see আপনি later, darling." - Jack ব্যক্ত and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the ফুলেরডালি that were growing
in the yard.
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate প্রণয় that never fades.
"I'll see আপনি later, darling." - Jack ব্যক্ত and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the ফুলেরডালি that were growing
in the yard.
I lied
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get আরো upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to সরানো and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get আরো upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to সরানো and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I keep my rhythm
I tap in time,
My সঙ্গীত is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
অথবা gradually trickle down,
It can make আপনি laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
সঙ্গীত is the খাবার I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
সঙ্গীত is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
আপনি can always find a friend in music
সঙ্গীত will always be.
I tap in time,
My সঙ্গীত is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
অথবা gradually trickle down,
It can make আপনি laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
সঙ্গীত is the খাবার I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
সঙ্গীত is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
আপনি can always find a friend in music
সঙ্গীত will always be.
