আপনি are my beloved... Gin.
Always ever my beloved Gin. Many days have been spent without you, since we cannot meet, because আপনি do not exist much...
Why do আপনি run away from such a place as this?
আপনি liked this place, didn't you?
I heard it from your own lips. আপনি like and প্রণয় this place...
আপনি born here and lived in here. There were other things to like here, right?
Why?

I do not know Gin, explanation fails again.
How many times were spent so missing you...
The worst is... with the days, which increase and flow,
I have felt হারিয়ে গেছে without আপনি and like I lose আপনি more, repeatedly each day...

I am surely full of pain and sadness...
Will আপনি stay for me, then… দ্বারা my side a little longer…just a little longer...
I want to be with আপনি as often as I can.
I want to be beside you. I can prove to আপনি that I will not run away-from আপনি অথবা from the Soul Society! Can you?


I just need to say these words.
There is no other person that can change your position in my heart, Gin...
One thing, I can't stop myself from thinking of is you...
I প্রণয় you... and want to প্রণয় আপনি আরো again...

I am missing আপনি and losing আপনি as often as I think about you...
Do not get gone for my eyes...

Every time I think of losing you, আপনি fading, forgetting, my hearts feel s like it exited... and that is so much hurt.
That is some big pain for me...

However, every time I think of your eyes, your face, your personality...
your gentle smile... I think I can hold those pains off for a few আরো minutes...

Gin, just want to ask some প্রশ্ন of you.
If I do this for you, whatever I do, would আপনি do the same thing for me?
Would আপনি sacrifice for me –even your sacrifice your life?
Moreover, will আপনি save me when I need your help?

Would আপনি do those things for me?
I do not know.

I do not even know if I will ever meet আপনি again- in the Soul Society অথবা elsewhere, but I hope I can meet আপনি there.
Honestly, I do not know anymore... meeting আপনি wherever, anywhere and I cannot ভালুক to think about that...
I just can cry and আরো and আরো within I cry waiting you... just waiting for আপনি to come back to me-to come back.
I am afraid, Gin, of losing আরো of my heart...
I am afraid I cannot take the pain...

Why?
Why must this happen to me?
I do not know. I do not know.
I am losing my mind sometimes. Never mind.
I can only wait... even if I do not want to.
Waiting on someone...
Someone that I trust can be my soul mate...
Gin...
Ichimaru Gin...