Dear diary,

Can আপনি believe that, that monster?

I sacrificed my freedom for papa but he didn't even let me say goodbye, I'll never see him again!

I now প্রশ্ন myself this: is this home? Is this where I should learn to be happy?

I never dreamed that a প্রথমপাতা could be dark and cold.

Papa told me everyday in my childhood, প্রথমপাতা will be where the heart-never were words so true.

My heart's far, far away- প্রথমপাতা is too.

I just can't find something good, in this tragic place.

What I'd give to return to the life that I knew, to think I complained about that dull and provincial town.

Am I here for a দিন অথবা forever?

Shut away from the প্রথমপাতা until who knows when.

I হারিয়ে গেছে my freedom but didn't deserve to lose it in this way!

If my life has been altered once, it can change again!

Build higher walls around me, change every lock and key.

Nothing lasts nothing holds all of me.

Yours sincerely,

Belle