I probably should've put this প্রবন্ধ on the ফ্যানপপ অনুরাগী club, but this club has been my প্রথমপাতা for years. It's where I've made a lot of memories, have been part of a community that talks about আরো than just ডিজনি Princesses, has felt like a family, and has helped me A LOT through the years. So this প্রবন্ধ being published anywhere else on ফ্যানপপ won't do any justice if it's not on this club. So without further delay, here is what being on ফ্যানপপ has meant to me.

First of all, it's only fair to say that I did NOT get off to a good start when I first came here. It's embarrassing to talk about this, but it's part of what helped ফ্যানপপ make such a big impact on my life. When I first came here I was basically a troll. I didn't come here intentionally trying to get people mad, but I was basically a troll. I was horrible at accepting opinions different from my own and would actually go so far as to insult them and call them stupid. I can't look at really old মতামত where I'm অভিনয় like that without cringing and hating myself. I was so bad that I actually rigged মতামত and countdowns. I'm surprised that my account was never deleted when I was like this because I deserved to have my account deleted দ্বারা Fanpop, at least back then. A lot of people were treated me badly because I acted like this and it was a turning point in my life. I wanted to be able to improve and accept other peoples opinions like a human being. I wanted others to like me! In real life I didn't have too many friends, was very shy, insecure, felt ugly, and was bullied a lot. I wanted to have a place that was my নিরাপদ place and where I could have a lot of friends, even if it was just online. For a বছর I kept trying to improve and it was a hard process, but I managed to improve. I made a lot of বন্ধু on here during the ancient ফ্যানপপ days, unfortunately, a lot of them are gone now and it's unlikely they're ever going to be coming back.

Unfortunately, I've had a lot of good বন্ধু here on ফ্যানপপ that have left and I haven't seen in years. I miss them a lot when I think of them and I even wonder what they're up to now. I've been here for years, so আপনি can imagine that I've had A LOT of বন্ধু leave, but it really bugs me when I hear people on here say they're going to leave because a lot of their বন্ধু have left and it doesn't feel the same without them. I'm sorry, I know the pain of a friend leaving, but that's basically like giving up and refusing to keep moving forward. If I had left when my closest বন্ধু left, I NEVER would've been able to form such amazing new friendships with new users. Hell, I actually formed a new friendship over the past few years with a user I've known since the first দিন I came here, cruella. I can't even imagine what my life was like before I had her as a best friend! She's the only friend on ফ্যানপপ that I've actually added on ফেসবুক as a friend. In fact, because of how character review চলচ্ছবি (which I've been really busy with school to do and I'm sure she's busy too) I've actually met her dad, who helped us when we were having trouble doing our anniversary চলচ্ছবি about the dumbest complaints we've heard for hating characters, where we actually did the reviews together for the first time. We even did a contest called the Fan-Made ডিজনি Sequel contest, which was A LOT of fun and allowed us and other users to express their creativity! If I had left, I would've missed out on such an amazing friendship and we even call each other দ্বারা our first names. So I have to say if you're only leaving because some of your close বন্ধু have left Fanpop, that's a weak reason. You're going to have বন্ধু in life that আপনি will never see again অথবা at least not very often, so you'll need to get used to it. I wouldn't give up having the বন্ধু I've had on here for anything in the world. They've gotten me through a lot of hard times. Another one of my best বন্ধু here on ফ্যানপপ is zanhar1, who helped me realize how incredible villains truly are. We've both been there for each other and have prayed for each other when we've needed to. We get each others humor and প্রণয় to makes cheesy jokes that clearly would only make us laugh. I always look অগ্রবর্তী to what she has to say about something because her opinions interest me SO MUCH! She's always there for me when I need her and I try to be there for her when she needs me. We act like dorks around each other and we don't give a crap! She's probably the one I've been extremely close to the longest out of all my friends. It's like she's pretty much always been here for me and if she ever left I would be devastated! So zanny, দ্বারা the powers of your প্রণয় for Regina, Azula, and Bellatrix, আপনি are FORBIDDEN to EVER leave ফ্যানপপ lol!

I remember when my grandmother passed away, it was a depressing time for me. It took a while to sink in, but I was definitely sad and shared it with everyone on Fanpop. It wasn't until the funeral actually happened that I broke down into tears. Close to this time, one user (who will remain nameless) was giving me trouble and I remember my বন্ধু sticking up to me দ্বারা saying that I had just হারিয়ে গেছে someone in my life that I loved and didn't need him/her to give me any crap. That was the first time here on ফ্যানপপ that I started feeling like I was part of a family. It definitely made it easier when I হারিয়ে গেছে my other grandmother to know I had the support of my বন্ধু on Fanpop.

Everyone on here was especially supportive when my brother died. I kept a ব্রেভ front for my family because I knew they needed help, especially since my sister wasn't any help. She was being difficult about helping out through the whole thing and just complaining about having to help অথবা having to deal with people at the funeral she didn't like. I just wanted to be in my room isolated from everyone, but I didn't because I knew they needed my help and I did all that I could. I even socialized with people coming to support us and I'm NOT good as socializing AT ALL, but I did it for my family. I didn't try until the funeral. Here on ফ্যানপপ was where I was able to let out and express আরো of the pain I felt that I wasn't comfortable talking about with my family. All of আপনি who were here to support me during this difficult time in my life, I'm forever grateful to all of you. Some of আপনি were even aware about how difficult my relationship with my brother was. We were never close but I always wanted to be, he was my half-brother so he was fourteen years older than me, he was closer with he other half-siblings, he became a drug addict, wasn't there for his daughter অথবা his wife (well, now ex-wife), he had been in jail and rehab, and he died because he commited suicide. I'm still so angry with him, even though I প্রণয় him, because I have so much pain build up because of him and so much that I want to say to him that I can't say. People say I can still talk to him, but the things I have to say to him can't be ব্যক্ত unless he can talk back, which is impossible. I haven't been able share this much about my emotions with anyone in real life, except for my therapist and my best friend in real life, like I can with everyone on Fanpop. My বন্ধু here were so caring and did their best to be as supportive as they could to someone they've met over the internet. But despite that, আপনি were as good of বন্ধু that I could ever ask for. I wish the pain would leave, but it just won't and likely never will, but it's been made easier because of Fanpop.

ফ্যানপপ also was there for me when I had thoughts of killing myself. I hate to tell this story because it does involve someone who has বন্ধু still here, but it's impossible for me to talk about how much ফ্যানপপ has meant to me without talking about how I knew my ফ্যানপপ community cared about me. I was bullied দ্বারা a certain user (who will remaine nameless) who always criticized every little thing I ব্যক্ত অথবা পোষ্ট হয়েছে on Fanpop. There wasn't anything I could do to please this person. No matter what I did, this user would just do whatever they could to make me feel terrible and would even attack my friend cruella for defending me and ব্যক্ত she was my "Yes man." It was so horrible and I kept reporting this user as abusive and even tried to send messages to the people who run Fanpop, but that did do much good. I don't blame the people who run ফ্যানপপ because they probably gets thousands of emails a day. This user was was ruining my নিরাপদ place and made me feel like I was stupid and pathetic! It was so bad that whenever I tried to defend myself, I started to wonder if I was in the wrong and was overreacting. The bullying was so bad that it made me think that it was my fault when I didn't do anything to deserve it! I didn't want to live because of it. I wasn't planning to because my brother had killed himself and devestated my family, which was something I NEVER wanted to have them go through EVER AGAIN! But the thoughts of me killing myself were horrible enough, even if I wasn't planning to act upon them. But when I made a wallpost saying I was taking a break from ফ্যানপপ and mentioned for a brief moment that I had these thoughts but was ABSOLUTELY NOT going to act upon it, everyone rushed to defend me. I felt overjoyed that everyone here cared so much about me, defended me intensely, and helped me realize that it wasn't my fault. Now that bully is gone and I just hope they NEVER come back, but if they do, at least I know that my বন্ধু and community will be there for me. I will always be grateful to ফ্যানপপ for that and if anyone even dares to attack one of my বন্ধু and bully them, I will defend them to the MAX!



NO আরো DEPRESSING THINGS FROM THIS POINT ON

ফ্যানপপ has also helped me be able to express my creativity and grow as a writer. My লেখা before was not very good, but thanks to being on Fanpop, I've been able to improve SO MUCH! I প্রণয় to write প্রবন্ধ to express my opinions, which have helped me grow over the years. I always look অগ্রবর্তী to পাঠ করা মতামত on my প্রবন্ধ because I প্রণয় hearing what they have to say. Those মতামত make me feel like I can make it as a writer at Disney! My critical skills have also improved a lot thanks to being here. I প্রণয় being able to notice things I wasn't able to notice before!

ফ্যানপপ has helped me be able to communicate better with others and to accept different opinions. I used to be horrible at that, but I'm glad that I learned how. Now I প্রণয় to hear different opinions from people because they interest me, even if I don't always agree with them. I প্রণয় seeing my fellow users grow and express their creativity here, which they likely aren't outgoing enough to express in real life. It's like we all understand each other on a personal and emotional level that we don't have with people we know in real life. We help each other, we support one another, we comfort a fellow user when they're going through something, and we make each other laugh and have good times. Plus, we're able to talk about things from our childhood and ডিজনি without getting bored like a lot of people we know in real life would. Plus, NEVER do we once say "Aren't আপনি a little too old for that?"

LAST মিনিট সম্পাদনা I FORGOT TO ADD LOL

ফ্যানপপ has shown me that I can actually make an impression and, surprisingly, an impact on people. A lot of times when I go to the ফোরাম on the ডিজনি Princess club called The Person Above You, where আপনি have to say something nice about the person who previously replied, I've had someone tell me that I was their idol. I've found in other parts of ফ্যানপপ that I've apparently inspired people, which is so weird to me. All I really do is just try to be nice to others while being my blunt self and making things expressing my opinions and creativity. I've never understood how I could possibly make an impact on someone when I've really done nothing worthy of such an honor. I actually feel awkward and embarrassed trying this paragraph. It makes me feel like someone might think I'm being arrogant, which I'm really not. I've been introverted and painfully shy for SO LONG, so I've always been someone who blends into the background in real life. It's hard for me to believe that I could have any impact on someone just দ্বারা making প্রবন্ধ about my opinion. But I'm grateful to everyone who loves my প্রবন্ধ so much and মতামত on them because that's what makes it all worthwhile. I also have a friend here on ফ্যানপপ called AzulaFanboi's who looks up to me A LOT for some reason and even calls me his Senpai, which I looked up and it means senior অথবা superior, which I never think of myself as to anyone. He once পোষ্ট হয়েছে on my দেওয়াল asking me how he could be as amazing as me and that I was his hero. Of course, I was blushing while পাঠ করা this because I didn't feel I deserved such a শিরোনাম অথবা such an honor. So, I responded with this (although, I'm not sure if he ever saw it) and it's my উপদেশ to anyone who wants to find their way in life:

"Thank আপনি so much, that's very flattering. The only way to be amazing is just to be yourself and just continue to better yourself and work hard. Don't try to be like me because if আপনি try to be like someone else you'll never be amazing because you'll just be a second-rate version of them. As Judy Garland said, 'Always be a first-rate version of yourself instead of a second-rate version of someone else.' I never thought I would be considered inspirational to anyone, let alone be their hero, so it's really amazing that আপনি think of me that way, though I haven't really done anything worthy of it. Just be yourself and প্রদর্শনী everyone what you're made of."

Being here on ফ্যানপপ has been a time I'm truly grateful for and nothing is ever going to get me to leave it. This is my home, my family, my friends, my community, my নিরাপদ place, the place I've made a lot of amazing memories, and the place where I will continue to make amazing memories and meet new people. The last thing I can say to express my প্রণয় for this place is to copy and paste the lyrics of the theme song to one of my পছন্দ TV shows of ALL TIME, The Golden Girls!

Thank আপনি for being a friend.
Travel down the road and back again.
Your হৃদয় is true, you're a pal and a confidant.

And if আপনি threw a party, invited everyone আপনি knew.
আপনি would see the biggest gift would be from me
and the card attached would say,
thank আপনি for being a friend.