OMG I forgot how I ended the last chapter!!! I need to apologize to _madz_. Hon, I honestly tried NOT to have a cliffhanger last time....BUT failed. I will TRY this time...I swear...well I will TRY.
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End of Chapter 18
***Jasper's POV***
"Jasper, I saw some of the things she saw while she was unconscious, and what I saw was horrific." He ব্যক্ত as he closed his eyes.
"So she wakes up and now she fears me, I know what I felt when she woke up. She was horrified when she saw me." I ব্যক্ত quickly, my own anger rising.
"She still loves আপনি Jazz, it's just what she saw." He ব্যক্ত as if that would clear everything up.
"I think I need to go for a while." I ব্যক্ত as I kicked a rock at my feet, crushing it instantly.
"No, Jazz she will need আপনি now."
"No, she needs to be away from me. Edward, will আপনি do me a favor?" I asked, my mind planning things quickly.
"Yes, of course."
"Don't let her think I don't প্রণয় her, remind her often. Just tell her I wanted her to have time to heal, when she is ready she will know where to find me." I ব্যক্ত as I smiled.
"Jasper, please stay. This will crush her." He ব্যক্ত as he pleaded with me.
"Help her Edward, she needs you." I ব্যক্ত as I turned my back and started running, ignoring Edwards voice and the cries that came from the house.
Chapter 19
***Alice's POV***
Bella helped me into Jasper and my room, setting me down on the বিছানা like I was made of the finest crystal. I looked up at her, so many প্রশ্ন about the things I missed while....
"Bella," I ব্যক্ত softly as she turned and smiled at me. "How long was I....gone."
"Almost two days." She ব্যক্ত as she sat on the বিছানা পরবর্তি to me.
"What did I miss?" I asked as I turned on the bed, sliding my legs underneath me as I faced her.
"Wow." She ব্যক্ত as she laughed and bounced on the bed, adjusting herself so she was facing me. "Well, Edward and Carlisle tried to do this infusion thing, to give Edward's blood to you. I guess they thought it was going to work until Edward collapsed. He woke up though and ব্যক্ত that he heard you, he knew that আপনি were in there..that আপনি were trapped there and didn't know what was going on."
I watched Bella closely as she told this part of the story, her face falling as she told me about everything. When she talked about Edward collapsing her হৃদয় rate doubled, all the color draining out of her face.
"I barely remember that, I remember hearing his voice but I couldn't find him অথবা talk to him." I ব্যক্ত as I shook my head.
"Well, they spent the rest of the দিন talking about what could be done. Alice, I was so scared." She ব্যক্ত as she reached অগ্রবর্তী and grabbed my hand.
"I'm sorry."
"It was getting so scary, we didn't know anything. Then, Emmett came running in. From the look on his face I thought..." She ব্যক্ত as she cut herself off, shaking her head. "I thought something happened, but Emmett ব্যক্ত she wanted to talk to me...that I would know what was going on."
"And আপনি did, আপনি must have."
"Yeah, she ব্যক্ত something about the white light. She ব্যক্ত I was the only one who could help you, no pressure." She ব্যক্ত as she stuck her tongue out at me. "I went back to Edward's room and thought and thought about it, I knew this was on me. That I had to figure this out and get আপনি back."
"And আপনি did." I ব্যক্ত as I leaned অগ্রবর্তী and hugged her.
"Yeah, a old story my grandmother use to tell me. Long story short, my great uncle was in a coma অথবা something..and he spoke once of the white light and the red light...that it was like there was a battle. That was all I could think of, and then something Rosalie ব্যক্ত snapped everything into place." She ব্যক্ত as she smiled, proud of herself as she should be. "She ব্যক্ত that when she had..bad moments that she would see a red light then when she had good moments she would see white light. I hoped that this was the same thing, and I had to try. I ran into the room and jumped পরবর্তি to you, screaming at the শীর্ষ of my lungs for আপনি to look for the white light."
"And I heard you, and আপনি were right." I ব্যক্ত as I hugged her again. "I should go find Jasper."
"No আপনি should shower, it will help আপনি feel better. PLUS, Edward went to talk to him. They'll be back দ্বারা the time আপনি get out I'm sure."
I nodded, wishing Jasper was here so that we could talk about what I saw...so he could hold me, tell me he loves me and help me feel better. I sighed as I stood up, grabbed a pair of jeans and a fitted শীর্ষ and walked into the bathroom. I left the door open slightly so that Bella and I could talk as I showered.
We talked about everything else that had happened, how Jasper and Emmett had acted while we were gone. She was telling me about how everyone was during my episode when I stepped into the shower, the hot water hitting me and instantly making me feel better. Bella moved up into the doorway so that we could talk about what she had done recently when my entire world stopped.
I felt myself slam into the দেওয়াল of the shower, my entire body going numb in response to what I was seeing. The পরবর্তি thing I knew Bella was standing in the ঝরনা with me, holding me as I sobbed and screamed.
"Alice!" Bella screamed as she tried to hold me up, her entire body soaked to the core. "Alice, look at me. HELP!! PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!" Bella screamed.
I wanted to talk to her, to tell her what I had seen but was so ফ্রোজেন with horror I couldn't talk. I heard Rosalie and Esme calling to me, both of them stepping into the ঝরনা to help Bella hold me up. Esme yelled for Carlisle and Emmett telling them to call Edward and get him and Jasper back here NOW.
"They can't come back." I ব্যক্ত as I squeezed my eyes shut.
"Alice, love." Esme ব্যক্ত as she smoothed my hair off my face, Rosalie grabbed a towel and wrapped me in one and threw others to Bella and Esme.
"Edward will be back, but..." I said, unable to finish my sentence.
"Emmett, any luck?" Rosalie called.
"Ummm..." Emmett ব্যক্ত as he stuck his head in the door.
"Jasper's gone." I ব্যক্ত as I started shaking.
"Alice!" Edward ব্যক্ত as he ran up the stairs into my room. "Alice? Bella? What's going on?"
"Jazz." I ব্যক্ত as I collapsed to the floor, no one moving fast enough to stop me.
I had seen Edward and Jasper talking in the woods, Jasper upset because he thought I didn't need him anymore. He thought that I didn't প্রণয় him...he left me.
I opened my eyes and found myself in my bed, Bella laying পরবর্তি to me under the covers. She was running her fingers through my hair as she tried to sooth me, অথবা comfort me.
"Where is everyone?" I asked, my voice gravely.
"They all went to look for Jasper, to bring him back one way অথবা another." Bella ব্যক্ত as she sat up.
"If he doesn't want to be found, then no one..not even Edward will find him. This is all my fault."
"Alice, no. This is not your fault, he didn't hear আপনি out." She ব্যক্ত as she shook my shoulders slightly.
"I didn't give him a chance." I ব্যক্ত sadly. "Bella, where's my phone?"
"Ummmm I don't know." She ব্যক্ত as she leaned over and grabbed her own phone off the table. "Here's mine."
I smiled as I took it, dialing Jasper's number from memory. It rang twice before I heard him sigh on the other end.
"Jasper?" I asked softly. I waited a minute, waiting for him to answer me. "Jasper, please come back. I can't live without you, please come back to me." I sobbed.
"Alice." He said, the sorrow thick in his voice.
"Please?" I said, a sob escaping my throat. "I need to talk to you, to explain things."
"I...I need."
"You need to get back here, আপনি need to hold me and tell me everything will be ok. Please Jazz, I need you." I said, interrupting him.
"Alice,"
"Please." I ব্যক্ত as I shook, trying to contain my emotion. Bella leaned over and hugged me, pulling me into her arms as I curled up in her lap.
"Alice, I..." He ব্যক্ত as I heard the wind blow দ্বারা the phone. "I'll be there in a hour."
"I প্রণয় আপনি Jazz." I ব্যক্ত softly.
"As I প্রণয় you." He ব্যক্ত softly then hung up.
I sat up and looked up at Bella, my entire face beaming. He did প্রণয় me, he did want me and he was willing to hear me out. My true প্রণয় was on his way back to me, to hear me out.
"Bella, please go call the others. I need to shower." I ব্যক্ত as I hugged her and went to ঝরনা completly this time.
j_b
End of Chapter 18
***Jasper's POV***
"Jasper, I saw some of the things she saw while she was unconscious, and what I saw was horrific." He ব্যক্ত as he closed his eyes.
"So she wakes up and now she fears me, I know what I felt when she woke up. She was horrified when she saw me." I ব্যক্ত quickly, my own anger rising.
"She still loves আপনি Jazz, it's just what she saw." He ব্যক্ত as if that would clear everything up.
"I think I need to go for a while." I ব্যক্ত as I kicked a rock at my feet, crushing it instantly.
"No, Jazz she will need আপনি now."
"No, she needs to be away from me. Edward, will আপনি do me a favor?" I asked, my mind planning things quickly.
"Yes, of course."
"Don't let her think I don't প্রণয় her, remind her often. Just tell her I wanted her to have time to heal, when she is ready she will know where to find me." I ব্যক্ত as I smiled.
"Jasper, please stay. This will crush her." He ব্যক্ত as he pleaded with me.
"Help her Edward, she needs you." I ব্যক্ত as I turned my back and started running, ignoring Edwards voice and the cries that came from the house.
Chapter 19
***Alice's POV***
Bella helped me into Jasper and my room, setting me down on the বিছানা like I was made of the finest crystal. I looked up at her, so many প্রশ্ন about the things I missed while....
"Bella," I ব্যক্ত softly as she turned and smiled at me. "How long was I....gone."
"Almost two days." She ব্যক্ত as she sat on the বিছানা পরবর্তি to me.
"What did I miss?" I asked as I turned on the bed, sliding my legs underneath me as I faced her.
"Wow." She ব্যক্ত as she laughed and bounced on the bed, adjusting herself so she was facing me. "Well, Edward and Carlisle tried to do this infusion thing, to give Edward's blood to you. I guess they thought it was going to work until Edward collapsed. He woke up though and ব্যক্ত that he heard you, he knew that আপনি were in there..that আপনি were trapped there and didn't know what was going on."
I watched Bella closely as she told this part of the story, her face falling as she told me about everything. When she talked about Edward collapsing her হৃদয় rate doubled, all the color draining out of her face.
"I barely remember that, I remember hearing his voice but I couldn't find him অথবা talk to him." I ব্যক্ত as I shook my head.
"Well, they spent the rest of the দিন talking about what could be done. Alice, I was so scared." She ব্যক্ত as she reached অগ্রবর্তী and grabbed my hand.
"I'm sorry."
"It was getting so scary, we didn't know anything. Then, Emmett came running in. From the look on his face I thought..." She ব্যক্ত as she cut herself off, shaking her head. "I thought something happened, but Emmett ব্যক্ত she wanted to talk to me...that I would know what was going on."
"And আপনি did, আপনি must have."
"Yeah, she ব্যক্ত something about the white light. She ব্যক্ত I was the only one who could help you, no pressure." She ব্যক্ত as she stuck her tongue out at me. "I went back to Edward's room and thought and thought about it, I knew this was on me. That I had to figure this out and get আপনি back."
"And আপনি did." I ব্যক্ত as I leaned অগ্রবর্তী and hugged her.
"Yeah, a old story my grandmother use to tell me. Long story short, my great uncle was in a coma অথবা something..and he spoke once of the white light and the red light...that it was like there was a battle. That was all I could think of, and then something Rosalie ব্যক্ত snapped everything into place." She ব্যক্ত as she smiled, proud of herself as she should be. "She ব্যক্ত that when she had..bad moments that she would see a red light then when she had good moments she would see white light. I hoped that this was the same thing, and I had to try. I ran into the room and jumped পরবর্তি to you, screaming at the শীর্ষ of my lungs for আপনি to look for the white light."
"And I heard you, and আপনি were right." I ব্যক্ত as I hugged her again. "I should go find Jasper."
"No আপনি should shower, it will help আপনি feel better. PLUS, Edward went to talk to him. They'll be back দ্বারা the time আপনি get out I'm sure."
I nodded, wishing Jasper was here so that we could talk about what I saw...so he could hold me, tell me he loves me and help me feel better. I sighed as I stood up, grabbed a pair of jeans and a fitted শীর্ষ and walked into the bathroom. I left the door open slightly so that Bella and I could talk as I showered.
We talked about everything else that had happened, how Jasper and Emmett had acted while we were gone. She was telling me about how everyone was during my episode when I stepped into the shower, the hot water hitting me and instantly making me feel better. Bella moved up into the doorway so that we could talk about what she had done recently when my entire world stopped.
I felt myself slam into the দেওয়াল of the shower, my entire body going numb in response to what I was seeing. The পরবর্তি thing I knew Bella was standing in the ঝরনা with me, holding me as I sobbed and screamed.
"Alice!" Bella screamed as she tried to hold me up, her entire body soaked to the core. "Alice, look at me. HELP!! PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!" Bella screamed.
I wanted to talk to her, to tell her what I had seen but was so ফ্রোজেন with horror I couldn't talk. I heard Rosalie and Esme calling to me, both of them stepping into the ঝরনা to help Bella hold me up. Esme yelled for Carlisle and Emmett telling them to call Edward and get him and Jasper back here NOW.
"They can't come back." I ব্যক্ত as I squeezed my eyes shut.
"Alice, love." Esme ব্যক্ত as she smoothed my hair off my face, Rosalie grabbed a towel and wrapped me in one and threw others to Bella and Esme.
"Edward will be back, but..." I said, unable to finish my sentence.
"Emmett, any luck?" Rosalie called.
"Ummm..." Emmett ব্যক্ত as he stuck his head in the door.
"Jasper's gone." I ব্যক্ত as I started shaking.
"Alice!" Edward ব্যক্ত as he ran up the stairs into my room. "Alice? Bella? What's going on?"
"Jazz." I ব্যক্ত as I collapsed to the floor, no one moving fast enough to stop me.
I had seen Edward and Jasper talking in the woods, Jasper upset because he thought I didn't need him anymore. He thought that I didn't প্রণয় him...he left me.
I opened my eyes and found myself in my bed, Bella laying পরবর্তি to me under the covers. She was running her fingers through my hair as she tried to sooth me, অথবা comfort me.
"Where is everyone?" I asked, my voice gravely.
"They all went to look for Jasper, to bring him back one way অথবা another." Bella ব্যক্ত as she sat up.
"If he doesn't want to be found, then no one..not even Edward will find him. This is all my fault."
"Alice, no. This is not your fault, he didn't hear আপনি out." She ব্যক্ত as she shook my shoulders slightly.
"I didn't give him a chance." I ব্যক্ত sadly. "Bella, where's my phone?"
"Ummmm I don't know." She ব্যক্ত as she leaned over and grabbed her own phone off the table. "Here's mine."
I smiled as I took it, dialing Jasper's number from memory. It rang twice before I heard him sigh on the other end.
"Jasper?" I asked softly. I waited a minute, waiting for him to answer me. "Jasper, please come back. I can't live without you, please come back to me." I sobbed.
"Alice." He said, the sorrow thick in his voice.
"Please?" I said, a sob escaping my throat. "I need to talk to you, to explain things."
"I...I need."
"You need to get back here, আপনি need to hold me and tell me everything will be ok. Please Jazz, I need you." I said, interrupting him.
"Alice,"
"Please." I ব্যক্ত as I shook, trying to contain my emotion. Bella leaned over and hugged me, pulling me into her arms as I curled up in her lap.
"Alice, I..." He ব্যক্ত as I heard the wind blow দ্বারা the phone. "I'll be there in a hour."
"I প্রণয় আপনি Jazz." I ব্যক্ত softly.
"As I প্রণয় you." He ব্যক্ত softly then hung up.
I sat up and looked up at Bella, my entire face beaming. He did প্রণয় me, he did want me and he was willing to hear me out. My true প্রণয় was on his way back to me, to hear me out.
"Bella, please go call the others. I need to shower." I ব্যক্ত as I hugged her and went to ঝরনা completly this time.