I know how আপনি feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness what so ever. আপনি dont want to laugh, because আপনি know it's not going to help, but আপনি dont want to cry, because it will just make আপনি feel worse.

আপনি feel like your হৃদয় is falling appart, but not only that, but আপনি know soon your life is going to feel like its falling appart too. আপনি don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feel's impossible to stop loving them.

And everyone wonders why if they have hurt আপনি so much, then why do আপনি still প্রণয় them. That's the confusing part, আপনি don't know why, আপনি just do, and the people who hurt আপনি the most, and normally the ones that আপনি প্রণয় the most. People tell আপনি 'It's going to be ok....' but deep, deep inside আপনি know it will never be ok. It leaves deep scars in your হৃদয় that will stay there foever. And no one understands how আপনি feel, and how deep আপনি have been hurt, no matter who they are অথবা what they have been through, every broken হৃদয় is different. They don't know the true pain আপনি feel and carry each and everyday, so আপনি learn that your basically alone in all of this.

Then the feelings start to overwhelm you, and suddenly আপনি just break down right there, because আপনি know আপনি have had enough, the tears just start to instantly fall across your face and আপনি get to the point where আপনি dont care who sees.
After a few weeks আপনি look back at all of this, আপনি laugh to yourself and realise people are horrible. You're still hurt but আপনি learn to hide it so people think your okay and try to সরানো on.
So everytime আপনি see this person, আপনি know আপনি still প্রণয় them, and আপনি feel a slight tingle in your হৃদয় for them to just প্রণয় আপনি back, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it.
And আপনি sit back and wonder how one stupid person could have caused all this ...