the পরবর্তি mourning I was the only one that woke up this mourning and was done drinking আরো water from the cactus and yet my mind was starting to play tricks on me to make me go crazy.

Me: (sees skipper still sleeping) good skipper is still sleeping (laughs like I'm crazy) gotta have something to eat (sees a knife)oh (crawls to the ছুরি then picks up the knife) pretty pretty shiny shiny ছুরি (starts stabbing the ছুরি on my arm then my eye starts twitching then laughs like I'm crazy)

that's when skipper wakes up.

Skipper: (wakes up) huh? (sees me stabbing myself in the arm with a knife) Kiva! (jumps on শীর্ষ of me) what are আপনি doing?!

Me: what do আপনি think I'm using the ছুরি to stab myself.

Skipper: snap out of it Kiva! (slaps me)

Me: huh? (looks at the knife) (gasps) what have I done?!

Skipper: well আপনি went crazy and stab yourself in the arm with the knife.

Me: (collapse on the ground covers my face with my arms then starts crying) I can't take it anymore skipper! I don't deserve to be alive! I deserve to die out here in this heat!

Skipper: (lifts my head up) get a hold of yourself Kiva, now look I know things aren't going so good now but I need আপনি here with me we need to stay alive we need to survive and we need each other to stay together Kiva I promise. now let me get bandages for your arm.

after skipper put bandages on my arm I told skipper that I was sorry. that night.

Me: skipper, are we ever going to get rescued if somebody finds us?

Skipper: I don't know Kiva I just don't know. but আপনি gotta promise me something.

Me: what?

Skipper: no matter what happens to us we'll get through this Kiva. we just need to do is not to give up and I'm right there দ্বারা your side I promise.

Me: thanks skipper.

Skipper: no problem Kiva, now let's try to get some sleep.

Me: okay.