When I talk to my বন্ধু I pretend I am standing on the wings

of a flying plane. I cannot be trusted to tell them how I am.
অথবা if I am falling to earth weighing less

than a dozen roses. Sometimes I dream they have broken up

with their প্রেমী and are carrying খাবার to my house.
When I open the mailbox I hear their voices

like the long upward-winding curve of a train whistle

passing through the tall grasses and ferns
after the train has passed. I never get ahead of their shadows.

I embrace them in front of moving cars. I keep them away

from my miseries because to say I am miserable is to say I am like them.

—Jason Shinder

I am mysterious yet sweet
I wonder what the future brings
I hear নেকড়ে গান গাওয়া to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely

I am যেভাবে খুশী yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do

I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making আরো বন্ধু along the way.

I am all that I am, I am all of me

The Cure



Good and evil
প্রণয় and hate

The balances of life
Makes everything flow just right
Until misery takes control of your world...

Misery is a parasite
Feeds off other's to become stronger
It hunts for those who are happy
Only to bite and infect them
With it's disease

It penetrates deep into your mind
Death and despair flood the thoughts
The virus spreads further...to your soul

আপনি are sick with misery
Contagious
আপনি don't want to infect
Forced into isolation
A weak body and a weak mind
There is no cure for আপনি to find

Until the দিন comes when an antidote called Love
Finds it's way inside
And kills the virus

But cures are hard to find
Like any প্রণয় is...

my হৃদয় beats clear and frees me
to see, feel, hear, touch and taste
your eyes, your lips, your hands
আপনি are everywhere

a touch, soft and tender
a whisper, full of desire
a gasp of sweet surrender
as passion fuels the fire

and though we still have far to go
that's alright, we'll take it slow
and though the days are often long
with আপনি here I can be strong

there's no time in life to judge
only time enough for love
so as another night slips by
let’s dance beneath the sky

in our secret garden
প্রণয় took power over our will
progressively, gently, tenderly, lover to lover

love, you’re all I ever needed
and I want আপনি now. now being forever.

this is my eternal vow.

A silver glint in your eyes; heartbeats clean.
A simple chord enrages me; warm smiles.
The melody plays slow; performed quite keen.
I stop midway, but memory redials.

The octave jumps to brilliance; intense.
They প্রণয় attention and thought; quarter notes.
Continuous trills and glissandos; dense.
Already chosen hum no other votes.

To accidentals for wit; humor dark.
Yet, the আরো necessary; balance sweet.
Some kindness with speed; held out at the hark.
Released the pedal to kill the soft beat.

All are strong to my heart’s will; every song.
The echoes beneath that for which I long.

দেবদূত and demons were circling above me
through the thorns to the stars
The only one who doesn't know happiness
is the one who couldn't understand its call

I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer...

Stand alone... Where was life when it had a meaning...
Stand alone... Nothing's real anymore and...

...Endless run...
While I'm alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream... how to love
...Endless run...

Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There's আরো that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what's left of loving

To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer...
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer.......

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Fearless হৃদয় beats
in my chest,
strong and proud,
sensitive and fragile.



Collecting all these words
আপনি gave as if
those are significant,
but your হৃদয় has never
spoken to me.



Empty words আপনি gave,
the depth that lies in them
আপনি treaded,
though I still remember that
glow in your eyes,
I still remember,
though your false love
is spreading its wings
only in dreams of my own
world.



It was me who left,
and yet
I'm still trying to forget,
still trying to erase every
moment of happiness
we lived.
And my হৃদয় is not weak,
even though it's lonely,
loneliness itself doesn't fear me,
for it loves me,
loneliness chose me.



Loneliness is jealous,
won't leave me be,
loneliness is in প্রণয়
with me,
filled within my heart,
it has chosen me.

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