i'm tired of pretend
i'm sorry it has to end
with all the fear and tears
i know we're done here

take his pictures off my wall
take them off and burn them all
i'm tired of all this hurt and say
just take it all away

i screamed
i cried
but i never seemed to know why
now i know আপনি always lied
so its time for us to say goodbye

i'm tired of trying
i feel like i'm dieing
this hurt and pain never seems to go away

im screaming im pleading
my হৃদয় has stoped beating
i wish all this would go away
and gone for he rest of my days

কবিতা Is very well
when আপনি
feel it as hell
dream with everyword আপনি write
to make the কবিতা pride
and shine through your mind
To see the light through your pen
কবিতা is a trip
আপনি walk in with your feel
and It's easy To heal
your heart
from the hurt
your mind
from nightmare
your hand
from the cold
and your soul
from the fear
It is Magic আপনি can't see
but It's your হৃদয় feel
So let your hand write
what's Inside your হৃদয় and mind
don't mind it
আপনি need it
go on your way
and stay
to write everyday
we need your finger
to be free
and never be anger
we need your words to
shine our হৃদয় with love
আপনি can see the moon with the stars
light your way together
through your darkness forever

I hear the whistle in my ear but don't respond.
All I do is admire it's authority.
It's ability to summon all who will obey.
The whistle is a leader, all fear and don't question.
We are not chiefs for we cannot order unless we can call the ones who carry out those duties.
The whistle is not a tool but a messenger.
Whom brings us together and whether forced অথবা not we work together and for that we respect this only God.
The whistle is a sign of peace.
Not an annoying ringing.
And that is why I only listen.
Because for me it is only so hard to do as I'm told.
But for the ones stronger and not misguided,follow the yellow brick road lain out just for you.
Don't stand and wait for others.
Obey your whistle.
Because soon you'll be the one blowing the whistle.

HOPE



Our world is broken,
It has been darkened
driven into shadow and uncertainty

we live in fear that disasters will come to us,
arrive on our doorsteps on take what we প্রণয় most.

that the light of দিন will never come out of of night that even the stars and moon shall fade away.

Will we be blinded দ্বারা hate and evil forever?

No

We will overcome this shadow of fear,
we will renew our world and
find our way back to light and goodness.

and when we learn to forgive and love,
the moon and the stars will shine brighter than ever,
and the darkness will be flooded with light.

This is my Hope for our broken world.

I crave love.
Not worth it.
I crave family.
Not worth it.
I crave freinds.
Not worth it.
I crave freedom.
Not worth it.
I crave to be desired.
Not worth it.
I crave a loving touch.
Not woth it.
I want my mom.
Not worth it.
I want to live.
Not worth it.
I want to be saved.
Not worth it.
SUDDENLY
A warm smile.
I am still not worth it.
A loving word.
I am still not worth it.
A gental love.
A warn voise.
I am still not worth it.
A light peeking thro the dark.
I am still not worth it.
I am still not worth it.
I hang my head because I know I am not worth it.

I see you.
I feel you.
I reach to you.
আপনি are not there.
My hand goes right through you.
I must be a ghost.
I whatch you.
I need you.
আপনি are a life time away.
I am just a ghost.
I call to you.
আপনি turn.
আপনি look right at me.
God do আপনি see me?
No আপনি dont.
আপনি look right threw me.
আপনি turn and walk away.
I am left alone.
In darkness.
I am just a ghost.
I have হারিয়ে গেছে you.
I whatch আপনি walk away.
I feel the pain.
WAIT!
I cant feel.
For the dead doesnt feel pain like this.
I run to you.
"I am here!" I scream!
আপনি look right pass me.
I am not dead.
Nor am I alive.
The dead I am is much আরো painful.
I am dieing form a beoken heart.
A হারিয়ে গেছে প্রণয় I can never get back.
Now I know.
I am just a ghost.
Waiting to expire.

Crying tears of blood.
Becuase my hear has burst.
Dieing inside becuase theres no way out.
The pain from being alone is to much to bare.
The only relife.
Is to hear আপনি voise.
Feel your touch.
প্রণয় and be loved দ্বারা you.
The razor blade is a comfert.
Feeling the blood drip to the floor.
Seeing it.
Hearing it.
Smelling it.
It makes me smile.
প্রণয় is always the best cure.
To me loved.
I am scared of dieing in Hell.
But it never ends.
Just know I প্রণয় you.
I miss you.
For I am always with you.
Waiting for you.
My only love.

When your minds are
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
আপনি try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so আপনি could feel better,
so আপনি could be free.

Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.

Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?

Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
আপনি need to be prepared.

Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.

Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...

The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.

eveyday I walk lonely
through that way
I don't wanna go
I wanna back
I don't wanna stay In that way
I need something To
keep My হৃদয় strong
and to correct My wrong
I don't know What to I belong
But I খুঁজুন for it for time
I don't know how long
I need something to never let me cry অথবা
to let my tears dry
I need some thing
That's Inside your and my heart
To let my soul fly
up so high Into the sky
It's always needed to heal your heart
from this killing hurt
To light your and my way
when the darkness has to stay
through our way
Did আপনি know What it is?
that when everyone want to go away
backs them to stay everyday ,
It's the প্রণয়
That warms your হৃদয় inside
and makes আপনি pride!!!!

Look through the window
and tell me what আপনি see.
Everything lives,
everything blossoms,
it's only you
in your autumn.

Your soul is seeking
for something that
is left a long time ago.
Something to cherish,
something to be attached to.

Why did the beast within
wake up suddenly?
Who called the restlessness?

Who shall win?
Will the autumn itself leave?
Nobody knows,
nobody cares
but you!

It's আপনি trapped within,
your mind gives আপনি nothing
but আরো anxiety.
Peace is the place
আপনি seek within your heart,
trying to find consolation.

Why you?
Why is this happening
to you?
Will the peace find you
one আরো time,
অথবা you're the one
who should find peace
within?

When everything is black
in your heart,
আপনি beg the darkness
to leave আপনি be,
but the darkness
is not coming
where the joy
glows,
no,it's not coming
where the hope
still holds on.

ok just want আপনি to know that I just started লেখা poems so if they aren't good srry.
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Blue
its the color of sadness
the color that reminds me all about you
I know আপনি will never প্রণয় me the was I প্রণয় you
but how can i survive without my color blue?



What makes বড়দিন bells ring?
What makes birds chirp in the spring?
What makes kids laugh and have fun?
What scares the deer to make it run?
All of these things are hard to explain
like answering why it has to rain
অথবা answering why প্রণয় is so হৃদয় breaking
even though at first its so breath taking
We cannot keep someone forever
but why do they have to change just like the weather?

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Hope আপনি liked them!

for those of আপনি that dont know what lore means it mens mtyhs of folk tales kinda. i know it seems a bit old a chessy but just go with it x.x i wanted something like that D:<

a moonlight beam may often seem, a plain and tranquil thing.

but when moonlight snares upon a yonder shore. it seems to resemble scene straight from a book of lore.

yes,yes,oh yes indeed.
a scene with প্রণয় and many marvelous things

what every human being desires.
a প্রণয় at প্রথমপাতা to start there fire, and gaze out upon that yonder shore

with a happily ever after straight from lore....