Magic green

I want আপনি to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little দ্বারা little আপনি stop loving me
I shall stop loving আপনি little দ্বারা little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If আপনি think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,...

Scaired and alone,
sad and depressed,
this is what i know best,
Chilled to the bone,
Your হৃদয় cold as ice,
dust to dust,
you arent someone i trust,
Water so deep,
This pain will only end,
When I sleep.

When I smiled,
When I laughed,
It was because I thought of death.
When I cried,
When I screamed,
It was because my death was to slow.
When I smiled my final smile,
No one cried,
No one cared.
I grabbed a ছুরি and a slip of paper,
I wrote my final words,
I sat in my room staring at the knife.
I heard a laugh,
I heard a cry,
Turned to see my family right দ্বারা my side.
I ran away,
I’m scare to death,
I grab my ছুরি but...

D E
S I
R E


fatal velocity, comes on with a rush
overpowering, gives the final push

what never moves, is never still
who has the final word
it holds the world in a single pill
and all life rendered absurd

if আপনি …
kill sweet desire, faith may numb the trial
but can আপনি run all your life?
kill sweet desire, truth will make a liar
you can run but not hide!
so run for your life

a false sincerity, a liar and a thief
my pulse and memory, a comfort within grief
what never moves, is never still, who has the final word
it holds the world in a single pill, and all life rendered absurd

if আপনি …
kill sweet desire, faith...

sleep


hear your heartbeat
beat a frantic pace
and it's not even seven am
you're feeling the rush of anguish settlin’
you cannot help showin’ them in
so hurry up then
or you'll fall behind and
they will take control of আপনি
and আপনি need to heal the hurt behind your eyes
fickle words crowdin’ your mind

so
sleep, sugar, let your dreams flood in
like waves of sweet fire, you're নিরাপদ within
sleep, sweetie, let your floods come rushin’ in
and carry আপনি over to a new mornin’

try as আপনি might
you try to give it up
seems to be holdin’ on fast
its hand in your hand
a shadow over আপনি
a beggar...

when did i see দেবদূত cry
i saw an অ্যাঞ্জেল cry when
a poor man asked for help
but was denied

I saw an অ্যাঞ্জেল cry
when a প্রেমী হৃদয়
was broken
and devoured দ্বারা despair

i saw an অ্যাঞ্জেল cry
when two best বন্ধু
had a fight, ব্যক্ত unnecessary words
and didn't talk for a couple of weeks

i saw an অ্যাঞ্জেল cry when
a husband and a wife kept secrets
from each other
thinking no one will know, no one will get hurt

but আপনি see their tears
are not like the tears
that আপনি and i
sometimes cry

their tears are much
more bitter
each tear is stained
with a grief that pierces their hearts

because they saw what
we could of been
what we...

It's been too long
And I'm lost
Without you
What am I going to do
I've been sitting here

Thinking
Dreaming
Wanting
Because I miss you
I miss you

We were close friends
Did everything for one another
Now you're gone
And I'm হারিয়ে গেছে without you
Here and now
But I know I have to live
And make it somehow

I miss you
It hurts me
Everyday
It's hard to accept
That you're finally gone
So I won't

It'd be like one of those days
We go without seeing each other
I can understand why
God wanted আপনি closer to him
And in my own special way

I প্রণয় you
I miss you
I just want to thank you
For everything
Thank আপনি for your smiles

Thank you...