Fast অগ্রবর্তী to now. I am আরো confident in my ideals. I have আরো friends. And I support them if I can. And I am not just a lurker as I could have been.
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And of course ফ্যানপপ is dumb and it didn't work as well as I'd hoped.
I wouldn’t say I’ve changed much, other than growing up (mentally especially) and maturing. Due to life (thx life) I’m a lot ‘stronger’ I guess, but mostly better at hiding how much of a mess I am! :]
Me in 2011: Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Death the Kid. I am totally convinced he's gonna become real and we're gonna get married. It's gonna happen. যোগদান my number cult. Respect the Onions.
Me in 2018: Hi guys I'm 8theGreat, I like to draw and I can't stop talking about Lolita fashion. I am totally convinced I'm gonna become a millionaire and I'm only gonna wear Lolita for the rest of forever. It's gonna happen. যোগদান my হাঁস cult. Burger King Foot Lettuce.
Before: Pretty much in short an identity-less sociopath that didn't know she was depressed when she was. No real friends. No real attachments other than to maybe my oldest sister.
Now: Uh... I mean Im much much much less a sociopath but I do have a good bit of a sense of identity I suppose. Pretty happy with my life and I got some good বন্ধু and some healthy strong connections.
But when I say sociopath, I honest to god probably was with my মতামত and how I behaved and shit. Some life experiences and wonderful people have done me great to change that A LOT.
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I used to be so out of touch with my own emotions and what not it was extremely problematic
Before: Well, when I first joined, I was much আরো of a mess than I am now lol. Wasn't interacting with anyone অথবা even participating in any other kind of Activity other than the মতামত and some very few Answers. Certainly didn't expect to meet anyone and was just planning to be a lurker, occassionally visiting this Website for new নবীকৃত তথ্য concerning my interests. That was the case for everywhere I went actually. Wasn''t really socializing at all back then.
Now: A lot happened and started making my presence আরো known. Conversing with a few Users and getting to know them helped with that and inspired me. I become আরো active দ্বারা contributing in various Clubs, participating in আরো activities, meeting আরো fellow অনুরাগী and people who share similar traits, মতামত and experiences in general. At the same time I was opening up আরো irl as well so I suppose it got reflected in here too. Pretty much, it is hard to imagine myself without being here at this point. It's cozy, I guess? I have a much easier time expressing myself and being who I am in overall. Plus, there are people that I'm really glad I got the chance to meet and consider them বন্ধু of mine. That's the gist of it !!!!
There's just not as much of a difference between how I was before Fanpop, how I was during, and how I am now. If I bothered to actually type out the words, I'd probably just sound whiny and depressing so I wont bother.
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Honestly, despite not liking alot of the way Twitch communities are run, I still usually feel আরো at ease there than here. At least during a livestream, আপনি don't have to try and be someone fake
Before: I was a happy-go-lucky 9-year-old who was absolutely obsessed with My Little Pony. I made Littlest Pet ভান্দার চলচ্ছবি on YouTube. I had a bunch of বন্ধু and I was generally just really happy with life. I had no care in the world and all that mattered to me was having fun. I was one of those kids who was always like "rainbows and ইউনিকর্ণ and প্রজাপতি and sunshine and ponies!!! :D" I was super active on ফ্যানপপ and I actually talked to a lot of people on here.
Now: I'm a cynical depressed 16-year old who hates everything and is obsessed with World of Warcraft. I have like 1.5 বন্ধু and I will take any excuse to not talk to people. I play the পিয়ানো and I sometimes watch anime. I'm hardly active on ফ্যানপপ anymore and I really don't talk to anyone on here. I've pretty much হারিয়ে গেছে any self-esteem I once had and I have no motivation to do anything anymore. But I have become a lot nicer, despite my "I hate everything and everyone" attitude.
I think I used to be pretty annoying. I tried so hard to become good বন্ধু with everybody in my অনুরাগী list. I constantly messaged everybody, starting the weirdest conversations. And I also was cringey af. Now I don`t mind talking, but I`ll never message first unless I know the person well enough. And I would hope that I`m not even half as cringey as I used to be. :D And the best thing is that I really can distinguish those before/after periods on here, because after my 'before' for like 2 years I checked in here only once every few months to check messages and pick some polls.
