ok this s a good one হাঃ হাঃ হাঃ i hope আপনি like it
3. Just A Good Distraction
Why am I still thinking about him? He left me he chose them not us. I don’t know how mom could just accept what he is doing to me. I have been away from him like this before I really want to feel his hot skin on mine. He use to call every night, but he hasn’t called all week and last week he called me twice. So much him for loving me.
I hadn’t slept well in a few days I looked up and it was 4:32 am may I can go talk to mom shell know what to do to help me get over this.
“Mom can I come in ” I walked into her office, which grandma Esme redesigned, to an all mahogany wood. She was পাঠ করা something that looked like it belonged to grandpa Carlisle.
“Of course Nessie why aren’t আপনি sleep ” she looked at me answering her own প্রশ্ন “you’re thinking about him huh. Don’t worry he’ll call ” she stood up and walked toward me giving me a hug.
“I don’t know what to do every thing I did involved him ” I was crying I didn’t know what to do
“Renesmee I want to tell আপনি a story. ” she ব্যক্ত picking me up and setting me down on her পালঙ্ক “for my human safety Edward thought it would be best if he left forks I remember that দিন it was the worst দিন of my life. Edward told me he didn’t প্রণয় me any আরো and that he ruins my hope for any thing and everything. So our entire family just left and there was no way for them to come back I felt like there was a part of me gone with him. I promised that I wouldn’t do think reckless অথবা stupid. I spent 4 months doing just that. I didn’t leave the house I never smiled Charlie ব্যক্ত it was so bad that he was going to send me to a shrink. I couldn’t leave I don’t remember why but I couldn’t so I did something stupid and herd his in my head. ” She trailed on then told me about Jacob “Jacob had no idea how crazy I was .he was what seemed to be my best friend. He made me a promise that he would never hurt me emotionally অথবা physically ” she ব্যক্ত smiling “and since আপনি are apart of me I think the same thing goes for you. He is doing this to save আপনি to keep all of us নিরাপদ ”
“Wait dad left আপনি alone for 4 months ” I asked confused I had never seen them apart for to long
“Yeah but I jumped off of a cliff and he thought I was killing my self so he tried to kill him self it was really bad he doesn’t want to remember so I don’t think অথবা talk about. She looked at me and gave me a চুম্বন on the cheek “you should go back to bed.”
“I don’t know if I can ” I sat up and looked hat he. “I have a question. When dad was gone what did আপনি do? “
“I did nothing but try not to think about him. I don’t want আপনি to do that. Find something for আপনি do to keep yourself-distracted. আপনি want to eat something I think there is some eggs in the fridge I can go make আপনি some ”
“No I'm fine ” I lied. I was kind of hungry but I wanted something stronger like blood but mom doesn’t like me hunting to late because of the নেকড়ে “I think I’ll try to go back to sleep ”
“Ok will I'm going to Carlisle’s house do আপনি want me to send over Edward ”she asked me as we walked in to my room
“No it’s ok go have fun ” I kissed her and climbed into my bed.
I was just about to fall asleep until my alarm clock went of ugh school just what I needed. Well at lease I’ll be distracted.
That was a lie I couldn’t do anything but think about him all of my classes were dragging and I already knew everything we were learning which made it a longer class. At lunch Claire asked me if I was ok
“Nessie are আপনি ok আপনি haven’t talked all morning ” her worry for me was আরো then enough to change my attitude
“Yeah I'm fine just tired ”I was still really tired “so what are আপনি guys doing this week ”I asked Claire and my family –except mom and dad.
“Hmmm let’s ask Alice.” Emmett ব্যক্ত looking over at Alice who looked like she was having a vision “well what's the verdict sis ” since Claire knew all of our secrets there was no reason to lie to her
“Wow there is nothing fun coming to town well except আপনি Claire your uncle will tell আপনি when আপনি get home.” alike ব্যক্ত focusing back to us.
“He’s leaving huh ”Claire looked down “I hate being alone that’s why he has been avoiding me ”
“Why don’t আপনি stay with us just until he comes back it will be fun ”I said. This was the exacted distraction I needed “we can ask tonight I’ll go over to your house after school ” I hoped this works.
When lunch was over I saw what looked like a নেকড়ে in the trees but when I looked up it was gone. “What are আপনি looking at, ” Claire asked me when she noticed I stopped “Come on were going to be late. ”
Today in coarse we were assigned to write, sing, and produce a song. It was our final Mrs. Hope gave us the choice to have pairs অথবা solo I chose pair I knew I wouldn’t be able to sing with my high soprano voice .I was parted with Claire and that’s when I got the idea of what we could do this week I hope Alice knew where I was going with this because I had no clue what to do first.
I wanted my own studio.
I know grandma Esme will help me নকশা it and uncle Emmett would প্রণয় to smash my room দেওয়াল to make it bigger. Grandpa Carlisle would be আরো then happy to help me find all the right supplies. I defiantly had a good distraction.
“So partner where do আপনি want to do this” Claire asked me with a big smile on her face. She knew what I was thinking she just liked to play dumb
“How about we make a studio and get a lot of new stuff that make us look professional. I have the lyrics আপনি have the voice I think this is a good partnership.” I smiled just as wide as her
“I see আপনি girl already know what your doing” Mrs. Hope ব্যক্ত as she walked around the room helping people.
After school mom and dad went প্রথমপাতা and started packing for their anniversary vacation but everyone at school knew that they were going to go see Bella’s ‘dad’ who got into a ‘car crash’. I was glad they were leaving I didn’t like the way worried about me it was annoying.
I took Claire প্রথমপাতা and saw Dean’s bags already packed at the door. Claire took a deep breath and said, “Lets get this over with.”
“Claire good your hear I didn’t want to leave a note—”Claire cut Dean off
“I'm staying with the Cullen’s until আপনি get back ” she slid past him not making eye contact. He knew she was mad at him
“Hi Dean ” I said, “you need a hand অথবা maybe I should go help Claire. I’ll see আপনি when আপনি get back ”I past him and went up the stairs and asked Claire a প্রশ্ন “so are আপনি staying in our house অথবা Carlisle‘s”
She looked at me “oh yeh I for got আপনি live in different house I'll just stay in your room ”she continued to packed and then turned to me and asked if I was ready.
When we got down stairs Dean was on the phone talking to his brother, Nathan.
“No I'm not flying over I'm talking a plane yeh is faster but I want to —”he was cut off, then saw us “I have to go— Claire about to leave, I'll see আপনি in a few.” He hung up the phone “ Ok so I trust Bella will be there so if আপনি need me she has my number and I will be with your dad so I think you’ll be good. Ok I প্রণয় আপনি bye, bye Renesmee ”he ব্যক্ত leaving the house and getting into his car
“Lets go,” I ব্যক্ত grabbing one of Claire’s bags
It was a quite drive প্রথমপাতা but at the dirt turn in I could hear the whole family talking and laughing and braking thing. Alice must have seen what I decided to do. When we pulled into the drive I hear Claire gasp “whoa”
“This is Carlisle’s house ours আপনি have to do a little of hiking to do but I'll have uncle Jasper drop your stuff off.” I hear Esme yell and Emmett laugh. There was a loud bang and a lot of smoke on the left side of the house “uh we should see what that was” instead of going inside we walked around to the giant hole in the দেওয়াল where Dad’s room use to be
“Hey Ness come up we need some help with the measurements.” Emmett ব্যক্ত “hi Claire ” he added
I showed Claire around the house and took her upstairs where there were pieces of dry দেওয়াল everywhere “wow আপনি guys didn’t even let me give আপনি the pitch. I had a lot of complements ready ” I smiled giving grandma a hug “thank আপনি this is really what I want but I thought we were going to do it at my house instead of re-doing dad’s room ”
“Nonsense I would প্রণয় to have and excuse to redecorate something around her beside Edward doesn’t even go in here anymore. I’ve already order all of the walls and glass I was thinking about cedar অথবা চেরি unless আপনি want something light like oak. অথবা আপনি just want regular paint” she had all of this planed
“Um I don’t know I just want it to look professional I'll গুগুল some pictures ” I gave her another hug and took Claire down to the রান্নাঘর “what are আপনি hungry for ”
“Umm I don’t know I'll have what ever আপনি have, ” she said. That was a bad answer I was going hunting to night.
“I'm not eating until Alice অথবা Jasper are free and আপনি wont like what I eat” I told her and I grabbed a TV ডিনার we had in the freezer “these are pretty good its alfredo. ”
“Ok that’s good” she looked like she was unsure about being here I think I bothered hurt when I explained what I was eating. “Its not আপনি Ness I have a … umm new ability morphing I guess আপনি can call it always happens your fine ” she heard my thoughts then answered them
“I think that’s so cool আপনি answering my thoughts” I ব্যক্ত dad doesn’t answer them unless their bad I guess আপনি could say he had self control.
“It doesn’t freak আপনি out ” she ব্যক্ত wide-eyed
“Well I have never shown আপনি what I can do so আপনি tell me. Do I creep আপনি out?” I put my hand on her cheek and showed her my life from when I was born to today in just a few সেকেন্ড
“Whoa. That was. wow.” she was speechless “you were a very cute baby ”
“Thanks, see আপনি don’t scare me at all ” I looked at her “my family should scare আপনি thought you’ll see what I mean this week.”
“And পরবর্তি week Dean just got to Nathan’s house and realized what he had to do he’ll call tomorrow at 5” Alice had walked in covered in dust “Emmett is dirty and he is giving free hug I would get yours before he bathe ” Alice ব্যক্ত dusting her self of uncle Emmett had gotten her dirty. I wonder if he had seen aunt rose yet. “Lets go hunting. I would let আপনি tag along Claire but Jasper get in the zone when he hunts and I don’t want to hurt আপনি but Esme has been dying to talk to she is waiting upstairs we should be back I an ঘন্টা bye ”
We got back at 5 when I started my homework
I yawned .I hadn’t noticed that it was 7 and I had a lot আরো homework to get thought .I thought of just copying moms but I didn’t want to going to her office. Aunt Alice was staying there while they were on vacation. Claire and I shared a বিছানা I did it with Jacob so I knew there was plenty of room for the both of us.
“Girls আপনি should get cleaned up and ready for bed” I heard her leave the house for a minute. Then she came back “Nessie আপনি have mail ”
I walked down the hall I didn’t know who it was from but then I স্মেল্ট it like young werewolf it was a letter from Jake I grabbed it out of auntie hand’s and thought about what he would say I didn’t think long I was already পাঠ করা it
নমস্কার Nessie,
Sorry I haven’t called I হারিয়ে গেছে my cell and the phones are down here at La Push. আপনি haven’t noticed but I’ve been trying to talk to আপনি all week but your always with the human I’m coming over আপনি your side tomorrow afternoon আপনি have to be alone thought I don’t have any pants. Don’t worry about me ok
I really miss আপনি
oxox
Jacob
I read the letter 3 times before comprehending any of it. “I need to go to the store Jake doesn’t have any pants, ”I started to walk outside but I knew he wouldn’t be there, yet I want to see him now I couldn’t wait I wanted to got down to the woods right now. Every one was talking as I was debating the door and my room but that’s when aunt Alice walked over to me
“Don’t even think about ok I don’t think your dad will like that ” she pulled me over to the sofa “your studio will be done tomorrow after school. Can I play with it with you.” she smiled really big smile.
“Of course aunt Alice আপনি can be my first artist ” I kissed her on the cheek “I'm going to বিছানা nighty night ”
3. Just A Good Distraction
Why am I still thinking about him? He left me he chose them not us. I don’t know how mom could just accept what he is doing to me. I have been away from him like this before I really want to feel his hot skin on mine. He use to call every night, but he hasn’t called all week and last week he called me twice. So much him for loving me.
I hadn’t slept well in a few days I looked up and it was 4:32 am may I can go talk to mom shell know what to do to help me get over this.
“Mom can I come in ” I walked into her office, which grandma Esme redesigned, to an all mahogany wood. She was পাঠ করা something that looked like it belonged to grandpa Carlisle.
“Of course Nessie why aren’t আপনি sleep ” she looked at me answering her own প্রশ্ন “you’re thinking about him huh. Don’t worry he’ll call ” she stood up and walked toward me giving me a hug.
“I don’t know what to do every thing I did involved him ” I was crying I didn’t know what to do
“Renesmee I want to tell আপনি a story. ” she ব্যক্ত picking me up and setting me down on her পালঙ্ক “for my human safety Edward thought it would be best if he left forks I remember that দিন it was the worst দিন of my life. Edward told me he didn’t প্রণয় me any আরো and that he ruins my hope for any thing and everything. So our entire family just left and there was no way for them to come back I felt like there was a part of me gone with him. I promised that I wouldn’t do think reckless অথবা stupid. I spent 4 months doing just that. I didn’t leave the house I never smiled Charlie ব্যক্ত it was so bad that he was going to send me to a shrink. I couldn’t leave I don’t remember why but I couldn’t so I did something stupid and herd his in my head. ” She trailed on then told me about Jacob “Jacob had no idea how crazy I was .he was what seemed to be my best friend. He made me a promise that he would never hurt me emotionally অথবা physically ” she ব্যক্ত smiling “and since আপনি are apart of me I think the same thing goes for you. He is doing this to save আপনি to keep all of us নিরাপদ ”
“Wait dad left আপনি alone for 4 months ” I asked confused I had never seen them apart for to long
“Yeah but I jumped off of a cliff and he thought I was killing my self so he tried to kill him self it was really bad he doesn’t want to remember so I don’t think অথবা talk about. She looked at me and gave me a চুম্বন on the cheek “you should go back to bed.”
“I don’t know if I can ” I sat up and looked hat he. “I have a question. When dad was gone what did আপনি do? “
“I did nothing but try not to think about him. I don’t want আপনি to do that. Find something for আপনি do to keep yourself-distracted. আপনি want to eat something I think there is some eggs in the fridge I can go make আপনি some ”
“No I'm fine ” I lied. I was kind of hungry but I wanted something stronger like blood but mom doesn’t like me hunting to late because of the নেকড়ে “I think I’ll try to go back to sleep ”
“Ok will I'm going to Carlisle’s house do আপনি want me to send over Edward ”she asked me as we walked in to my room
“No it’s ok go have fun ” I kissed her and climbed into my bed.
I was just about to fall asleep until my alarm clock went of ugh school just what I needed. Well at lease I’ll be distracted.
That was a lie I couldn’t do anything but think about him all of my classes were dragging and I already knew everything we were learning which made it a longer class. At lunch Claire asked me if I was ok
“Nessie are আপনি ok আপনি haven’t talked all morning ” her worry for me was আরো then enough to change my attitude
“Yeah I'm fine just tired ”I was still really tired “so what are আপনি guys doing this week ”I asked Claire and my family –except mom and dad.
“Hmmm let’s ask Alice.” Emmett ব্যক্ত looking over at Alice who looked like she was having a vision “well what's the verdict sis ” since Claire knew all of our secrets there was no reason to lie to her
“Wow there is nothing fun coming to town well except আপনি Claire your uncle will tell আপনি when আপনি get home.” alike ব্যক্ত focusing back to us.
“He’s leaving huh ”Claire looked down “I hate being alone that’s why he has been avoiding me ”
“Why don’t আপনি stay with us just until he comes back it will be fun ”I said. This was the exacted distraction I needed “we can ask tonight I’ll go over to your house after school ” I hoped this works.
When lunch was over I saw what looked like a নেকড়ে in the trees but when I looked up it was gone. “What are আপনি looking at, ” Claire asked me when she noticed I stopped “Come on were going to be late. ”
Today in coarse we were assigned to write, sing, and produce a song. It was our final Mrs. Hope gave us the choice to have pairs অথবা solo I chose pair I knew I wouldn’t be able to sing with my high soprano voice .I was parted with Claire and that’s when I got the idea of what we could do this week I hope Alice knew where I was going with this because I had no clue what to do first.
I wanted my own studio.
I know grandma Esme will help me নকশা it and uncle Emmett would প্রণয় to smash my room দেওয়াল to make it bigger. Grandpa Carlisle would be আরো then happy to help me find all the right supplies. I defiantly had a good distraction.
“So partner where do আপনি want to do this” Claire asked me with a big smile on her face. She knew what I was thinking she just liked to play dumb
“How about we make a studio and get a lot of new stuff that make us look professional. I have the lyrics আপনি have the voice I think this is a good partnership.” I smiled just as wide as her
“I see আপনি girl already know what your doing” Mrs. Hope ব্যক্ত as she walked around the room helping people.
After school mom and dad went প্রথমপাতা and started packing for their anniversary vacation but everyone at school knew that they were going to go see Bella’s ‘dad’ who got into a ‘car crash’. I was glad they were leaving I didn’t like the way worried about me it was annoying.
I took Claire প্রথমপাতা and saw Dean’s bags already packed at the door. Claire took a deep breath and said, “Lets get this over with.”
“Claire good your hear I didn’t want to leave a note—”Claire cut Dean off
“I'm staying with the Cullen’s until আপনি get back ” she slid past him not making eye contact. He knew she was mad at him
“Hi Dean ” I said, “you need a hand অথবা maybe I should go help Claire. I’ll see আপনি when আপনি get back ”I past him and went up the stairs and asked Claire a প্রশ্ন “so are আপনি staying in our house অথবা Carlisle‘s”
She looked at me “oh yeh I for got আপনি live in different house I'll just stay in your room ”she continued to packed and then turned to me and asked if I was ready.
When we got down stairs Dean was on the phone talking to his brother, Nathan.
“No I'm not flying over I'm talking a plane yeh is faster but I want to —”he was cut off, then saw us “I have to go— Claire about to leave, I'll see আপনি in a few.” He hung up the phone “ Ok so I trust Bella will be there so if আপনি need me she has my number and I will be with your dad so I think you’ll be good. Ok I প্রণয় আপনি bye, bye Renesmee ”he ব্যক্ত leaving the house and getting into his car
“Lets go,” I ব্যক্ত grabbing one of Claire’s bags
It was a quite drive প্রথমপাতা but at the dirt turn in I could hear the whole family talking and laughing and braking thing. Alice must have seen what I decided to do. When we pulled into the drive I hear Claire gasp “whoa”
“This is Carlisle’s house ours আপনি have to do a little of hiking to do but I'll have uncle Jasper drop your stuff off.” I hear Esme yell and Emmett laugh. There was a loud bang and a lot of smoke on the left side of the house “uh we should see what that was” instead of going inside we walked around to the giant hole in the দেওয়াল where Dad’s room use to be
“Hey Ness come up we need some help with the measurements.” Emmett ব্যক্ত “hi Claire ” he added
I showed Claire around the house and took her upstairs where there were pieces of dry দেওয়াল everywhere “wow আপনি guys didn’t even let me give আপনি the pitch. I had a lot of complements ready ” I smiled giving grandma a hug “thank আপনি this is really what I want but I thought we were going to do it at my house instead of re-doing dad’s room ”
“Nonsense I would প্রণয় to have and excuse to redecorate something around her beside Edward doesn’t even go in here anymore. I’ve already order all of the walls and glass I was thinking about cedar অথবা চেরি unless আপনি want something light like oak. অথবা আপনি just want regular paint” she had all of this planed
“Um I don’t know I just want it to look professional I'll গুগুল some pictures ” I gave her another hug and took Claire down to the রান্নাঘর “what are আপনি hungry for ”
“Umm I don’t know I'll have what ever আপনি have, ” she said. That was a bad answer I was going hunting to night.
“I'm not eating until Alice অথবা Jasper are free and আপনি wont like what I eat” I told her and I grabbed a TV ডিনার we had in the freezer “these are pretty good its alfredo. ”
“Ok that’s good” she looked like she was unsure about being here I think I bothered hurt when I explained what I was eating. “Its not আপনি Ness I have a … umm new ability morphing I guess আপনি can call it always happens your fine ” she heard my thoughts then answered them
“I think that’s so cool আপনি answering my thoughts” I ব্যক্ত dad doesn’t answer them unless their bad I guess আপনি could say he had self control.
“It doesn’t freak আপনি out ” she ব্যক্ত wide-eyed
“Well I have never shown আপনি what I can do so আপনি tell me. Do I creep আপনি out?” I put my hand on her cheek and showed her my life from when I was born to today in just a few সেকেন্ড
“Whoa. That was. wow.” she was speechless “you were a very cute baby ”
“Thanks, see আপনি don’t scare me at all ” I looked at her “my family should scare আপনি thought you’ll see what I mean this week.”
“And পরবর্তি week Dean just got to Nathan’s house and realized what he had to do he’ll call tomorrow at 5” Alice had walked in covered in dust “Emmett is dirty and he is giving free hug I would get yours before he bathe ” Alice ব্যক্ত dusting her self of uncle Emmett had gotten her dirty. I wonder if he had seen aunt rose yet. “Lets go hunting. I would let আপনি tag along Claire but Jasper get in the zone when he hunts and I don’t want to hurt আপনি but Esme has been dying to talk to she is waiting upstairs we should be back I an ঘন্টা bye ”
We got back at 5 when I started my homework
I yawned .I hadn’t noticed that it was 7 and I had a lot আরো homework to get thought .I thought of just copying moms but I didn’t want to going to her office. Aunt Alice was staying there while they were on vacation. Claire and I shared a বিছানা I did it with Jacob so I knew there was plenty of room for the both of us.
“Girls আপনি should get cleaned up and ready for bed” I heard her leave the house for a minute. Then she came back “Nessie আপনি have mail ”
I walked down the hall I didn’t know who it was from but then I স্মেল্ট it like young werewolf it was a letter from Jake I grabbed it out of auntie hand’s and thought about what he would say I didn’t think long I was already পাঠ করা it
নমস্কার Nessie,
Sorry I haven’t called I হারিয়ে গেছে my cell and the phones are down here at La Push. আপনি haven’t noticed but I’ve been trying to talk to আপনি all week but your always with the human I’m coming over আপনি your side tomorrow afternoon আপনি have to be alone thought I don’t have any pants. Don’t worry about me ok
I really miss আপনি
oxox
Jacob
I read the letter 3 times before comprehending any of it. “I need to go to the store Jake doesn’t have any pants, ”I started to walk outside but I knew he wouldn’t be there, yet I want to see him now I couldn’t wait I wanted to got down to the woods right now. Every one was talking as I was debating the door and my room but that’s when aunt Alice walked over to me
“Don’t even think about ok I don’t think your dad will like that ” she pulled me over to the sofa “your studio will be done tomorrow after school. Can I play with it with you.” she smiled really big smile.
“Of course aunt Alice আপনি can be my first artist ” I kissed her on the cheek “I'm going to বিছানা nighty night ”
