it hurts to live. life to me is a সেকেন্ড death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems আরো peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her হৃদয় হারিয়ে গেছে and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my হৃদয় over and over untill all the feelings of প্রণয় and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my হৃদয় where my thoughts were নিরাপদ from causing me any আরো unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much আরো beautiful then me দ্বারা now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life দ্বারা being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. অথবা maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt প্রণয় me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but দ্বারা one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my চকোলেট brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and আরো tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the দেওয়াল and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the সৈকত in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him প্রথমপাতা to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once আরো and broke my হৃদয় again.
I haven't read any of the বই yet, but i did watch all of the চলচ্চিত্র released until now. I want to say that the story of the Twilight series is simply great! The intense love, the romantic atmosphere...everything in it is very involving! while watching both movies, my mouth was dripping and my body completely still. It was as if my mind was the only part of my body that was active. I was totally into it! I will watch both চলচ্চিত্র again and i'll get totally inspired again. My feelings were totally mixed! I was engulfed দ্বারা the magic of love!
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Summary: Edward reminisces about his 'lost' first love.
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I was just wondering what the official name for people who crave vamps and werewolfs etc.
i ve heard of twihards and fanpires but are there at least any original classifications. If Im going to be a mega অনুরাগী shouldnt i have a beter way of calling my self a super fan
I ve sort of came up with a few that i think have potential . .
1.twissessed(twilight, obssessed)
2.vampchaser
3.twiniacas(twilight,maniacs)
4.twifreak
5.vamphunter
6.twicrazed
7.twimazed(twilight,amazed)
8.Edlover(Edward lover)
9.wolfhugger
10.twipeople
Which classificaton do আপনি think makes at least the most sense?????!!!!!!
i ve heard of twihards and fanpires but are there at least any original classifications. If Im going to be a mega অনুরাগী shouldnt i have a beter way of calling my self a super fan
I ve sort of came up with a few that i think have potential . .
1.twissessed(twilight, obssessed)
2.vampchaser
3.twiniacas(twilight,maniacs)
4.twifreak
5.vamphunter
6.twicrazed
7.twimazed(twilight,amazed)
8.Edlover(Edward lover)
9.wolfhugger
10.twipeople
Which classificaton do আপনি think makes at least the most sense?????!!!!!!
We were together, meant forever
I thought so
Till Jasper came after me
And Edward thought oh no
So the Cullens had to leave
And I was so down
But that's when Jacob came in
And things turned around
I became reckless
Just to hear Edward's voice
I was so out of it
I didn't have a choice
Me and Jacob were friends
Till we didn't talk for a while
Then he told me his secret
As before, I wasn't scared দ্বারা a mile
Edward thought I was dead
So he went to the Volturi
But then he changed his mind
Once he finally saw me
So when we got back home
To have Edward, I was happy
I wished to be like the Cullens
But then he wanted to stop me
He ব্যক্ত I could
But 1 condition he carried
He ব্যক্ত he'd do it
But only if we got married
I thought so
Till Jasper came after me
And Edward thought oh no
So the Cullens had to leave
And I was so down
But that's when Jacob came in
And things turned around
I became reckless
Just to hear Edward's voice
I was so out of it
I didn't have a choice
Me and Jacob were friends
Till we didn't talk for a while
Then he told me his secret
As before, I wasn't scared দ্বারা a mile
Edward thought I was dead
So he went to the Volturi
But then he changed his mind
Once he finally saw me
So when we got back home
To have Edward, I was happy
I wished to be like the Cullens
But then he wanted to stop me
He ব্যক্ত I could
But 1 condition he carried
He ব্যক্ত he'd do it
But only if we got married
When we first met
And I first looked in your eyes
I couldn't help myself
I was hypnotized
And then I found out
Your one big secret
I was in danger
But I wasn't scared a bit
So then আপনি took me
To your special hideaway
So আপনি could প্রদর্শনী me what you're like
In the light of day
My হৃদয় was racing
I was falling for you
My only প্রশ্ন was
Do আপনি feel this way too
Then one day
My blood was wanted
It hurt so bad
I thought I was dead
Then he saved me
And I got my answer
I does feel the same way
So now it's forever <3
And I first looked in your eyes
I couldn't help myself
I was hypnotized
And then I found out
Your one big secret
I was in danger
But I wasn't scared a bit
So then আপনি took me
To your special hideaway
So আপনি could প্রদর্শনী me what you're like
In the light of day
My হৃদয় was racing
I was falling for you
My only প্রশ্ন was
Do আপনি feel this way too
Then one day
My blood was wanted
It hurt so bad
I thought I was dead
Then he saved me
And I got my answer
I does feel the same way
So now it's forever <3
two weeks befor he visit
All I could think about was visiting my dad. His name is Charlie. I hadn't visted him in over three years. I would visit him for the whole summer scince I was little. Until I was old enough to make my own decisions, I was about fourteen and a half whe I stoped visiting. Im seventeen now. I live with my mom and her fiance. Her fiance's name is Phil.
I planned on visiting Charlie in two weeks. He was so happy when I phoned him, he ব্যক্ত he bought me a present for when I come over. To be honest I was a little worried about what it was. But I kept my head held high, maybe he got me a neclace with earings and a bracelet too. I couldn't wait to see what the 'presnt' is.
All I could think about was visiting my dad. His name is Charlie. I hadn't visted him in over three years. I would visit him for the whole summer scince I was little. Until I was old enough to make my own decisions, I was about fourteen and a half whe I stoped visiting. Im seventeen now. I live with my mom and her fiance. Her fiance's name is Phil.
I planned on visiting Charlie in two weeks. He was so happy when I phoned him, he ব্যক্ত he bought me a present for when I come over. To be honest I was a little worried about what it was. But I kept my head held high, maybe he got me a neclace with earings and a bracelet too. I couldn't wait to see what the 'presnt' is.