it hurts to live. life to me is a সেকেন্ড death, only like being left to bleed on a pavement instead of a quick stab, then to be left in peace. death and life are much the same thing now. only death seems আরো peaceful, i already know, as i watch other people living there lives, there is nothing left for me. fun was like a greek word to me now. i didnt know what i ment. i thought about making the most of life before the pain killed me for sure. i couldnt remember HOW to have fun. what was the point of going to the beach? it wasn't going to bring my future back. it wouldnt make me feel any better. what was the point of going to the movies? it wasnt going to fill my sad eyes with excitment. i wasn't going to get better. not ever. i was going to be a girl that lived with no reason to live that had a life only of pain, her হৃদয় হারিয়ে গেছে and her body cut into half. the pain was too much to bear. it took over, the pain never left, it flowed in my blood untill the poisen punched holes in my হৃদয় over and over untill all the feelings of প্রণয় and happiness are washed out with my blood. the funny thing was; well, there wasnt anything that was funny about it; i hated to think of him. i hated to think of the happiness he suddenly brought into my life. because, i thought, because, deep deep in my হৃদয় where my thoughts were নিরাপদ from causing me any আরো unbearable pain, i knew that he was somewhere in the world, oblivious to the damage that he had left behind. i knew that he was carrying on with his life, and that he was proably with someone much আরো beautiful then me দ্বারা now, holding them in his stone arms. someone that he wasn't wasting his life দ্বারা being with. someone that wouldnt turn into a wrinkled old lady in 60 years. but it wasn't his fault. he didnt know how deep i really was and how he was like a drug to me. he didnt know. অথবা maybe he did. maybe he felt uncomfortable with me loving him so, when he didnt প্রণয় me back. only he never had told me this because he was afraid of hurting me. he was the most selfless person ever. the ache for him made me feel sick, my eyes burned and prickled. i stared ahead waiting for my tears to dry, but দ্বারা one flicker of movment, the hot beads of salt water rolled down my cold cheeks. i didnt blush anymore. my চকোলেট brown eyes grew dark and empty. my limp hair hung, dead in a ponytail. i walked past my mirror, catching a glimpse of my reflection. i blinked and আরো tears fell to the carpet. i turned away, not able to watch and to look at the face of a sad little heartbroken girl. i stared at the floor, my pain burning a hole in the ground with the emptyness of my eyes. i stumbled on my way to the door, even though i was still staring at my feet. i fell to the ground, and broke into desperate, heartbroken sobs that would probably scare charlie. i crossed my legs as i sat up weakly, staring into space, wishing i didnt have stupid human eyes, that i had vampire eyes that could see every dust mote in the air. every pattern in the wood of my bedleg. every brush line on the দেওয়াল and every leaf on the trees outside, through the forest and across the mountins, the সৈকত in la push, wishing i could see the world through my window, being able to pick out him out like a needle on a haystack, and bringing him প্রথমপাতা to me so i could hold him and never let him go. i knew i wouldnt be able to fight him as he would loosen my grip, as he strode off into the world once আরো and broke my হৃদয় again.
আপনি may be able to get your hands on some New Moon schwag with your whopper, as a tipster at TwiFans notes–
"Now my cousin went to BURGER KING today and found out that পরবর্তি WEEK they will have NEW MOON TOYS and CROWNS!!!!! Just wanted to tell আপনি all. SO SPREAD THE WORD!! I hope আপনি all can get yours too. I know i will be getting them too!"
The humans in New Moon will be eating Burger King for lunch one dayy (i added this)
I can defintely believe this rumor since they gave out New Moon themed Burger King crowns at Comic-Con recently.