As I stand on the sidewalk thinking where to even start, I try and think of everything I know about Sam. It’s not much. I know that he has a younger brother. Yes, his name is Tyler and I know because he’s বন্ধু with my younger sister Jennifer. They’re in grade 1 together. I’ve even babysat them for god’s sake. I know that he’s a good student, smart, hardly gets into trouble, but he’s not really involved with anything like sports অথবা clubs. I know that he lives with his uncle because his parents died in a car crash 2 years ago. I know that besides seeing each other in the halls and maybe a few conversations about classes, we don’t really know each other which really makes it hard to know where to look for him. I start walking towards the park, passing my sister’s school on the way. Her দিন hasn’t started yet. She’s still got morning recess. I can see her from where I stand, playing on the swings with Tyler. They laugh like they have absolutely no cares in the world. Right in that moment I’m jealous of them. I look just past them on the other side of the school yard and miraculously see Sam watching them play just as I am. Maybe he’s even feeling a little jealous now. I run along the fence surrounding the kids trying to get to him before he runs away again. I approach him delicately, not wanting him to freak out again. I’m about 4 feet behind him when I softly call his name, “Sam?” I see his shoulders rise and fall in a deep sigh before he turns around. His face is so sad. I really have no idea what to say to him because I don’t know what he’s going through. “Why’d আপনি come after me? Why aren’t আপনি in class?” “Seriously?” I say bewildered, “Do আপনি think I could actually just let আপনি leave after what I saw? আপনি could hurt someone…or hurt yourself” he closes his eyes as I say that last part. “If I could ‘hurt someone’ what’s to stop me from hurting you?” “I’m not scared of আপনি Sam. We may not know each other very well, but I know you’re not going to shoot me.” I say this a bit angrily because I can sense that he’s just trying to get me to leave him alone. “You don’t know what I’ll do” he says quietly. I take a step toward him, but he turns and starts walking down the sidewalk along a side রাস্তা as casual as can be. I follow him. I keep a few paces behind him although I’m sure he knows he has company. He turns into a short drive and walks into a small house, leaving the door wide open. I hesitate at the doorway and experience a minor reality check. I’m following a boy with a gun. There’s really no telling what he’ll do with it. I should be in school right now. This is crazy. I decide to ignore reality right now and walk in and close the door behind me. The house is like the definition of simple: off white walls, mismatched furniture, a beat up old wooden রান্নাঘর table, an old TV and a few scattered toys on the floor, probably Tyler’s. Other than a few cobwebs in the corner and a glass left on the table, the place is clean and bright because of the open drapes. I walk farther into the house and find Sam leaning against the রান্নাঘর counter. He’s plopped his backpack দ্বারা his feet. “So…” I start but don’t know how to finish. “This is your house?” dumb question. Obviously this is his house. “Ya, my uncles” he says not really to me, আরো to the floor. I’ve already practically invited myself in so I go ahead and sit in one of the 4 রান্নাঘর chairs. It creaks a little as I sit down. “Do আপনি want to talk about something? Anything?” I ask. He lets out a long breathe and sits across from me at the table. “Do আপনি really want to talk to me?” he asks. “Well, ya” I say “why don’t আপনি tell me why আপনি brought a gun to school?” I ask bluntly. “I know.” He says, his face in his hands. “I know I shouldn’t have brought it to school, I just thought if I was at school, it would stop me from using it. It’s so tempting to use it. But if I use it, it’s really over. The end. And I’m thinking now, you’re the only one who can stop me. So let’s talk about that.”
As I try to think of something, anything to say to him now, I recall the first time I saw Sam outside of school.
It was about a বছর ago. Tyler was at my house playing with Jen. It was late and they both needed to be put to bed. Their tiredness only resulted in them fighting. I eventually put them on time-outs until Tyler’s uncle showed up. অথবা I thought it would be his uncle. It turned out to be sam. I opened the door when he knocked and was a little thrown. I recognized him from school, but only as the quiet boy I’d never talked to. His hair was wet as if he’d just showered and he smelled of soap, fresh and clean. I smiled and introduced myself. He smiled back. It was a really beautiful thing. It lit up his eyes and I do believe I blushed slightly. Taking him in felt like drinking a warm hot চকোলেট অথবা feeling the sun seep into your skin. As Tyler trudged to the door I watched Sam watch his brother. With such warmth. He called him bud, tousled his hair, and grabbed his back pack for him as they turned to walk back off my porch. Before Sam was too far away he turned and ব্যক্ত “Thanks, Sarah. It was good to see you. Talk to আপনি at school.” I waved good bye and closed my door and just listened to his voice play over and over in my head. Who knew he’d affect me like that?
As I try to think of something, anything to say to him now, I recall the first time I saw Sam outside of school.
It was about a বছর ago. Tyler was at my house playing with Jen. It was late and they both needed to be put to bed. Their tiredness only resulted in them fighting. I eventually put them on time-outs until Tyler’s uncle showed up. অথবা I thought it would be his uncle. It turned out to be sam. I opened the door when he knocked and was a little thrown. I recognized him from school, but only as the quiet boy I’d never talked to. His hair was wet as if he’d just showered and he smelled of soap, fresh and clean. I smiled and introduced myself. He smiled back. It was a really beautiful thing. It lit up his eyes and I do believe I blushed slightly. Taking him in felt like drinking a warm hot চকোলেট অথবা feeling the sun seep into your skin. As Tyler trudged to the door I watched Sam watch his brother. With such warmth. He called him bud, tousled his hair, and grabbed his back pack for him as they turned to walk back off my porch. Before Sam was too far away he turned and ব্যক্ত “Thanks, Sarah. It was good to see you. Talk to আপনি at school.” I waved good bye and closed my door and just listened to his voice play over and over in my head. Who knew he’d affect me like that?
So Analisa and I walked slowly through her village. I looked around as we walked and everyone looked very happy and cheerful. I was very confused. "Shouldn't they be sad?" I asked. "NOT happy-go-lucky?" Analisa chuckled and replied. " There is no need to be sad. For we have food, shelter, and each other." I felt very bad. Just a few hours পূর্বে I had yelled at my mom for getting mad at me and ran outside. I started to cry again. I sat in the পান্না green grass,we had walked into a field,
Analisa asked "What is wrong?" I replied "I want to go home" Analisa ব্যক্ত "That would be easier if I knew where আপনি lived. Anyways, we need আপনি here. আপনি cannot leave. I'm very sorry." That didn't help me at all. I layed down on the soft ঘাস and cryed my eyes out.
Analisa asked "What is wrong?" I replied "I want to go home" Analisa ব্যক্ত "That would be easier if I knew where আপনি lived. Anyways, we need আপনি here. আপনি cannot leave. I'm very sorry." That didn't help me at all. I layed down on the soft ঘাস and cryed my eyes out.
I live in my opinion possibly the most ghetto town in the United States, Pittsburgh. People have been committing suicide all over town. Population all over town has been decreasing, fast. Some of my বন্ধু were so depressed that they were thinking about "joining the crowd". I wouldn't live without my friends. I don't want my বন্ধু to go as well as my mom and dad. Yes, I'm an orphan. I've been an orphan for about three weeks. My বন্ধু have disappeared. I think they went to Clarion; but I could be wrong. There have been tons of fights at my school. Most of the people that were committing suicide were middle school and high school aged. I was getting really tired really fast. I climbed up in a বৃক্ষ and found a comfortable spot and fell asleep. পরবর্তি thing I knew, I was tied up on a pole.
Sorry for cliffhangers....
Sorry for cliffhangers....
Hate.Disappointment.Regret.They all make up some of the worst thing in our lives...then why can't we just give it up?Give it up and just throw all our problems away?The answer is simple because this,this is reality not a fairytale অথবা some fiction story,where the writer can just have their way over their characters like puppets.No.Not at all in reality does one have their way to control their life অথবা the lies that people tell them.There's no stopping your troubles in life অথবা changing the regret you've made in the past ...it's life.