Hello. This may be a little hard to write. আপনি guys know me as DandC4evacute, a ব্যবহারকারী নাম I created 4 years ago. I have grown up since then. (seriously, I used to be such a baby when I was 13.) আপনি guys probably don't care anyways, but, this is an প্রবন্ধ about me, and why I act the way I do.
I don't really know the correct way to say this, so, I'm just gonna come flat out and say it. I have ADHD and High-Functioning Autism. And I'm not just saying the internet's definition of ADHD, I mean I ACTUALLY HAVE it. I also have a bit of self-anxiety, which is why I can never finish a project here. Sometimes I have irrational thoughts, especially for this site, like আপনি all think I'm weird অথবা something. I know, it's stupid, but I can't help it. :/
One of the problems with me and this site is that everyone is just so talented with drawing and/or writing, and I'm just sitting there in the background, waiting for something to be looked at. "But, Hadar, আপনি ARE a GREAT writer! Remember EC's Journal?" Um, no, I just have good IDEAS. But when I try to act on them, it never comes out the way I want it to be, and I just quit, because I'm stubborn. I know I will probably sound like a 5-year-old, but, it's really unfair that I KNOW what MAKES a good story, but when I try to do it myself, it comes out HORRIBLY. It's like people with sports. They understand how it works, but they just aren't athletic.
Okay, I'm even depressing mySELF. Time to go on with thoughts! Well, with the contributing thing, I don't think the problems come from the contributors. I think it comes from the observers. And, I KNOW it's a problem, because I do it too. Most people don't want to read অথবা look at something unless it has something to do with themselves, অথবা interests them. Which makes it really hard to get motivated. That was the main problem with EC's Journal.
I hope that this sort of explains me... Any প্রশ্ন আপনি have, please say them in the comments!
I don't really know the correct way to say this, so, I'm just gonna come flat out and say it. I have ADHD and High-Functioning Autism. And I'm not just saying the internet's definition of ADHD, I mean I ACTUALLY HAVE it. I also have a bit of self-anxiety, which is why I can never finish a project here. Sometimes I have irrational thoughts, especially for this site, like আপনি all think I'm weird অথবা something. I know, it's stupid, but I can't help it. :/
One of the problems with me and this site is that everyone is just so talented with drawing and/or writing, and I'm just sitting there in the background, waiting for something to be looked at. "But, Hadar, আপনি ARE a GREAT writer! Remember EC's Journal?" Um, no, I just have good IDEAS. But when I try to act on them, it never comes out the way I want it to be, and I just quit, because I'm stubborn. I know I will probably sound like a 5-year-old, but, it's really unfair that I KNOW what MAKES a good story, but when I try to do it myself, it comes out HORRIBLY. It's like people with sports. They understand how it works, but they just aren't athletic.
Okay, I'm even depressing mySELF. Time to go on with thoughts! Well, with the contributing thing, I don't think the problems come from the contributors. I think it comes from the observers. And, I KNOW it's a problem, because I do it too. Most people don't want to read অথবা look at something unless it has something to do with themselves, অথবা interests them. Which makes it really hard to get motivated. That was the main problem with EC's Journal.
I hope that this sort of explains me... Any প্রশ্ন আপনি have, please say them in the comments!
my বন্ধু on this website I will no longer be on here anymore on the count of people cyberbullying me I know you'll miss me but goodbye my বন্ধু im going to miss আপনি we've all had our good times but there are so many cyber-bullies please remeber me for my kindness my বন্ধু goodbye forever xoxo
I also shall throw a cookie party/pizza party with my বন্ধু before I leave now we shall celwbrate my বন্ধু the people who I call out are imvited
Coolcutegirl
Strawberry0020
Starwarsfan7
Courtneyfan214
Poophead437ext
Jadeismaname
Lollipop97
And many more
People not invited
Skyreacher
I also shall throw a cookie party/pizza party with my বন্ধু before I leave now we shall celwbrate my বন্ধু the people who I call out are imvited
Coolcutegirl
Strawberry0020
Starwarsfan7
Courtneyfan214
Poophead437ext
Jadeismaname
Lollipop97
And many more
People not invited
Skyreacher
I'm terrified today. Every বছর our names gets thrown in আরো times. Since I'm 18, it's আরো of a chance for me to get tossed into the arena and be forced to rid of people's lives. All for the fun of the Capitol of Panem. "What If I get picked?" I ব্যক্ত to Ryan. We weren't excactly publicly dating, but it was still a relationship. It exists, but what if we get seperated?
"I won't let them. Then I will go with you." He whispered in my ear. I laid my head back on his chest and felt the soft green grass. It's probably the last of প্রথমপাতা I'll ever touch.
That was the short chapter one...should I continue it? অথবা is it a waste of time?
Characters so far-
Meredith
Ryan
"I won't let them. Then I will go with you." He whispered in my ear. I laid my head back on his chest and felt the soft green grass. It's probably the last of প্রথমপাতা I'll ever touch.
That was the short chapter one...should I continue it? অথবা is it a waste of time?
Characters so far-
Meredith
Ryan
Name: Kamei Savina Cassia
Age:15
Stereo type:the emo
Her cloths: a red dress with a ruff in side n out
red gloves black n white socks
Hair style:long
Hair color: purple with green yellow n blue streaks
eye color: blue
lipstick: gray
pjs: red with skulls
accessory: a black skull earring
Nick names: darkness (only comes out during night)
Siblings: Lance (brother) France(lil sister) Trancy (big sister)
pets: a cat named blackie
friends: gwen n trent
enemies: mostly alejandro
Activity: drawing on walls to প্রদর্শনী art
Fear: fighting off a piranha
Age:15
Stereo type:the emo
Her cloths: a red dress with a ruff in side n out
red gloves black n white socks
Hair style:long
Hair color: purple with green yellow n blue streaks
eye color: blue
lipstick: gray
pjs: red with skulls
accessory: a black skull earring
Nick names: darkness (only comes out during night)
Siblings: Lance (brother) France(lil sister) Trancy (big sister)
pets: a cat named blackie
friends: gwen n trent
enemies: mostly alejandro
Activity: drawing on walls to প্রদর্শনী art
Fear: fighting off a piranha
Dear Diary,
Okay so it was the first দিন back at school after a long weekend because people found ants in thier soup. It was nice to see my friends. My aunt took me to a mother and child weekend camping thing. I don't know why she trys to be a mom to me. She is my aunt and that is all she will be to me, it's not her fault my parents left me with her and her boyfriend Stew.
The only bad thing about going back to school is that I will see ফ্ুলপাছ the brat agien. She thinks she is so great because her dad owns a TV network, and that she that perfect skin and that she has all the best hand bags and a hot tub. She walks down the hall way with her little hench men Megan and Tiffany. Megan and Tiffany are pretty cool. I heard that Megan once went out with Alejandro from Total drama world tour, and Tiffany helps the poor. But ফ্ুলপাছ hates the poor.
I feel sorry for Tiffany and Megan. Well I have no আরো to say. See yah.
Kenya-pretty girl rock দ্বারা Keri hilson
Nightwing-baby দ্বারা Justin bieber
Noel-fed up দ্বারা DJ khaled
Ariana-bad girl দ্বারা dainty Kane
Bubbles- বার্বি girl দ্বারা aqua
Lexi-stupid girls দ্বারা pink
Nightstar-fucking perfect দ্বারা pink
Nightlight-blow দ্বারা কেশা
Nightmare-monster দ্বারা Kanye west
Noah-i feel like dying দ্বারা Lil Wayne
Sinto-whats wrong with them দ্বারা Lil Wayne
Bones-cricketz দ্বারা new boyz
Lexis-black and yellow remix দ্বারা wiz kalifa
Sweeney-no প্রণয় দ্বারা lil wanye
Alejandrina- im too cool
Korea- gansta দ্বারা 50 cent
Indian and India-drop the world
গথ দেশীয় and Miami-whos that guy
Nicki-bad girl
Corabella and Lady-raining men দ্বারা Rhianna
Lizzy- we are sisters দ্বারা cheetah girls
Demon- me against the world
November-bad girl
Alejandra-im a flirt দ্বারা r kelly
Chocolate- work it দ্বারা missy elliot
Kebella- im just a kid
Candace- baby
Nightwing-baby দ্বারা Justin bieber
Noel-fed up দ্বারা DJ khaled
Ariana-bad girl দ্বারা dainty Kane
Bubbles- বার্বি girl দ্বারা aqua
Lexi-stupid girls দ্বারা pink
Nightstar-fucking perfect দ্বারা pink
Nightlight-blow দ্বারা কেশা
Nightmare-monster দ্বারা Kanye west
Noah-i feel like dying দ্বারা Lil Wayne
Sinto-whats wrong with them দ্বারা Lil Wayne
Bones-cricketz দ্বারা new boyz
Lexis-black and yellow remix দ্বারা wiz kalifa
Sweeney-no প্রণয় দ্বারা lil wanye
Alejandrina- im too cool
Korea- gansta দ্বারা 50 cent
Indian and India-drop the world
গথ দেশীয় and Miami-whos that guy
Nicki-bad girl
Corabella and Lady-raining men দ্বারা Rhianna
Lizzy- we are sisters দ্বারা cheetah girls
Demon- me against the world
November-bad girl
Alejandra-im a flirt দ্বারা r kelly
Chocolate- work it দ্বারা missy elliot
Kebella- im just a kid
Candace- baby