Hello. This may be a little hard to write. আপনি guys know me as DandC4evacute, a ব্যবহারকারী নাম I created 4 years ago. I have grown up since then. (seriously, I used to be such a baby when I was 13.) আপনি guys probably don't care anyways, but, this is an প্রবন্ধ about me, and why I act the way I do.

I don't really know the correct way to say this, so, I'm just gonna come flat out and say it. I have ADHD and High-Functioning Autism. And I'm not just saying the internet's definition of ADHD, I mean I ACTUALLY HAVE it. I also have a bit of self-anxiety, which is why I can never finish a project here. Sometimes I have irrational thoughts, especially for this site, like আপনি all think I'm weird অথবা something. I know, it's stupid, but I can't help it. :/
One of the problems with me and this site is that everyone is just so talented with drawing and/or writing, and I'm just sitting there in the background, waiting for something to be looked at. "But, Hadar, আপনি ARE a GREAT writer! Remember EC's Journal?" Um, no, I just have good IDEAS. But when I try to act on them, it never comes out the way I want it to be, and I just quit, because I'm stubborn. I know I will probably sound like a 5-year-old, but, it's really unfair that I KNOW what MAKES a good story, but when I try to do it myself, it comes out HORRIBLY. It's like people with sports. They understand how it works, but they just aren't athletic.

Okay, I'm even depressing mySELF. Time to go on with thoughts! Well, with the contributing thing, I don't think the problems come from the contributors. I think it comes from the observers. And, I KNOW it's a problem, because I do it too. Most people don't want to read অথবা look at something unless it has something to do with themselves, অথবা interests them. Which makes it really hard to get motivated. That was the main problem with EC's Journal.

I hope that this sort of explains me... Any প্রশ্ন আপনি have, please say them in the comments!