My Fire Fairy w/ a Piece of Broken heart. Drew this about 2 years ago
The heartbreak
The tears
The fears
Why did আপনি have to leave?
Why?
As I ask, wiping tears onto my sleeve.
The pain that this puts me to
I feel like I'm aging
But I'm still youthful and lively
Yet I feel old and dead
The stress
Everyone stopping দ্বারা to see us
I stay in my room crying into a cloth
While প্রদর্শিত হচ্ছে early signs of sloth.
Death is waiting
Death is coming
My throat feels closed and blocked
My eyes burn and itch
As I feel like a doll missing a stitch
Please don't leave
Please don't go
আপনি are so important to me
Like the main actor to a show
I can't let আপনি go
As আপনি descend to a better place
I keep আপনি in my memories and হৃদয় just in case
I need to let আপনি go
But my হৃদয় still breaks
As the part of me is breaking me
I always knew আপনি were a part of me
My completion
My love
My friend
Goodbye
I will see আপনি soon in the end.
Criss Angel w/ Wings pic. Drew this a couple of months ago.
Mother Nature
Loving
Cruel
Yet is neither black অথবা white.
Is life just good?
Is it just evil?
No
It is both
Nature is both.
It gives us growth
Beauty
Grace
A Sanctuary to escape
Yet
It can be dull
Lifeless
Painful
Destructive
Anything.
We as humans
Are also like this
আগুন is the same.
It keeps us warm
Yet can burn down an entire forest.
Should we hate this?
Should we প্রণয় this?
Maybe, maybe not
But at least appreciate this
Because nature gives us youth and beauty
But can take it away so quickly
So take one step at a time
Very carefully
Enjoy each living moment of what time is left.
Loving
Cruel
Yet is neither black অথবা white.
Is life just good?
Is it just evil?
No
It is both
Nature is both.
It gives us growth
Beauty
Grace
A Sanctuary to escape
Yet
It can be dull
Lifeless
Painful
Destructive
Anything.
We as humans
Are also like this
আগুন is the same.
It keeps us warm
Yet can burn down an entire forest.
Should we hate this?
Should we প্রণয় this?
Maybe, maybe not
But at least appreciate this
Because nature gives us youth and beauty
But can take it away so quickly
So take one step at a time
Very carefully
Enjoy each living moment of what time is left.
So I Can Hide my Tears..
Don't let me Fall,Wind
Take me higher,,and Higher..
I don't wanna Fall
I don't wanna touch the Ground
As I walk n everything's Ok
But then I saw U
i've been missing u more,,,and more
Miss ur warmth,,
hugs me inside,,
But u don't
just a glance with 'hello,,,?'
what's wrong?
Did I doing wrong?
it is not just like u pushed me down,,,
ur ignorance crashed me,,,
How can I be this weakness?
how can U make me speechless
So dare আপনি be my weakness...
give me back my blooms,,,
laid me back to the high..
give my only desires...
just a smile can take a high..
just an ignore crashed me off
Forget me not ..
I can't face it,,
stay with me...
I’m sorry for what I did,
I’m sorry for what I have done,
I’m sorry for everything,
I’m sorry I was born,
I’m sorry I exist,
I’m sorry I ever wanted to even try,
I’m sorry that I do what I do,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry,
Please just forgive me.
I never wanted to be this,
I never wanted to even be me,
I just cant be here anymore,
I dont want this to be,
I didnt want this to happen,
but i cant stand this!
I am so sorry
I'm sorry for not being good enough,
I'm sorry for my mistakes,
I'm sorry for hurting you,
I'm sorry I'm alive,
I'm sorry for everything.
I’m sorry for what I have done,
I’m sorry for everything,
I’m sorry I was born,
I’m sorry I exist,
I’m sorry I ever wanted to even try,
I’m sorry that I do what I do,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry,
Please just forgive me.
I never wanted to be this,
I never wanted to even be me,
I just cant be here anymore,
I dont want this to be,
I didnt want this to happen,
but i cant stand this!
I am so sorry
I'm sorry for not being good enough,
I'm sorry for my mistakes,
I'm sorry for hurting you,
I'm sorry I'm alive,
I'm sorry for everything.
I listen to the trickle of blood,
I listen but don’t feel,
I listen to my cry,
I listen to my screams,
I listen to the slams,
I listen to the blows.
I listen to my হৃদয় as it slows,
I listen to the door slam,
I listen to the sirens,
I listen to the beeps,
I listen to the sigh,
I listen to my হৃদয় pick up,
I listen to find that this will never end.
I listen to the cry of my voice,
I see the mans face,
I taste the blood,
I sense that there is someone,
Someone I don’t know,
That someone tried to stop this,
That someone had failed.
I listen to my বন্ধু cry,
I listen for the final scream,
I open my eyes to see,
That someone was পরবর্তি to me.
That someone had come for me,
That someone came to save me,
That some one I will always love,
That someone is,
You.
I listen but don’t feel,
I listen to my cry,
I listen to my screams,
I listen to the slams,
I listen to the blows.
I listen to my হৃদয় as it slows,
I listen to the door slam,
I listen to the sirens,
I listen to the beeps,
I listen to the sigh,
I listen to my হৃদয় pick up,
I listen to find that this will never end.
I listen to the cry of my voice,
I see the mans face,
I taste the blood,
I sense that there is someone,
Someone I don’t know,
That someone tried to stop this,
That someone had failed.
I listen to my বন্ধু cry,
I listen for the final scream,
I open my eyes to see,
That someone was পরবর্তি to me.
That someone had come for me,
That someone came to save me,
That some one I will always love,
That someone is,
You.
We shall have beds full of subtle perfumes,
Divans as deep as graves, and on the shelves
Will be strange ফুলেরডালি that blossomed for us
Under আরো beautiful heavens.
Using their dying flames emulously,
Our two hearts will be two immense torches
Which will reflect their double light
In our two souls, those twin mirrors.
Some evening made of rose and of mystical blue
A single flash will pass between us
Like a long sob, charged with farewells;
And later an Angel, setting the doors ajar,
Faithful and joyous, will come to revive
The tarnished mirrors, the extinguished flames.
I'm in a living hell
Seeing আপনি in প্রণয় with someone
else
And I know
I have to let আপনি go
Even if আপনি aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let আপনি go
To stop loving you
আরো then it should be
Falling আরো in প্রণয় with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall আরো in প্রণয় with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and সরানো on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its প্রণয় he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Seeing আপনি in প্রণয় with someone
else
And I know
I have to let আপনি go
Even if আপনি aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let আপনি go
To stop loving you
আরো then it should be
Falling আরো in প্রণয় with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall আরো in প্রণয় with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and সরানো on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its প্রণয় he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Crying,
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
আপনি know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight আপনি back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
আপনি are insensitive,
আপনি only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
সরানো to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember আপনি as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
আপনি know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight আপনি back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
আপনি are insensitive,
আপনি only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
সরানো to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember আপনি as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Everyone sees a certain special light in them.
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I প্রদর্শনী my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I প্রদর্শনী my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
Dear prince,
I`m tired of living in this unusual life
My diary
Took me to an old distain memory
when I become your wife
I don`t know why ?!!
Every good memory has became whiter then white
Except the দিন I saw আপনি
You`re right
Special memories always colored with special liquids
But which kind of inks should I use to erase my past
I tried everything
Harm
Hate
Even pain!
But this distain memory seems to be
My number one aim
I decided to listen to my wise হৃদয়
But suddenly
I was falling apart
It gave me a magical ink
All I have to do is only to spring
one , two , three drops অথবা four
and everything started to be like old time before
THE SADNESS OF THE MOON
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon আরো indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her পালঙ্ক at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon আরো indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her পালঙ্ক at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
Just something I wrote! :)
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last প্রণয় letter আপনি ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear আপনি laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
আপনি may be gone from my site but not from my heart
আপনি broken once but when আপনি fixed it আপনি made it stronger
I hope to see আপনি again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take আপনি away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will প্রণয় আপনি
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last প্রণয় letter আপনি ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear আপনি laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
আপনি may be gone from my site but not from my heart
আপনি broken once but when আপনি fixed it আপনি made it stronger
I hope to see আপনি again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take আপনি away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will প্রণয় আপনি
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
In the midnight sky the air grows cool and crisp
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
